I've got my anti-witch spray!

[leia37]

Wishn - sorry about the money. you must be feeling very disappointed right now. i hope you manage to sort it out so you can get your nursery painted and buy your cot. hugs xx

Little - sounds like really positive changes. good luck to you. lactation consultant sounds very interesting. xx

Nats - thinking of you, is it today or tomorrow you see the specialist? xx

 

[nats77]

Cris - so sorry Hun that really sucks! Would it not be cheaper for you to pay the 200 just to get the prize money? I know that's not the point but then at least u can do the nursery and get the cot u want? Hope u manage to sort it out.

Little - that all sounds exciting! Well done you!

Leia - thanks or remembering me Hun, my appointment is tomorrow can't come soon enough I tell u! I will update on my return xxx

 

[wishnhoping]

I made it into the championship round but did not win- so second place prize is $400. Since $200 is misisng from the money pile and I am responsible for it I feel its my responsiblity to just absorb that loss so instead of winning $400 I am getting $200. The crib I want is $250 and the painter is charging me $300. I had saved a little bit of extra money to cover the extra cost but now without the $200 I am going to only be able to afford the painter who I already have contracted. Otherwise Id say screw the painter buy the crib and paint the room myself.

Im just super upset because its not like me to "misplace" things especially money. It makes me feel like Im either being duped and someone didnt pay or someone stole from me...either way Im really upset about it.

On that note- My depression and anxiety issues have really been surfacing lately. I have had issues with both since I was 13 and I have been able to manage both without medication for most most part. This pregnancy has really been screwing with my hormones and Im getting concerned because I have had bad thoughts and thats always a big red flag to me. I plan on speaking about it with my Dr today. I have my GD test and an appt

Besides that nothing much going on- I was excited to be getting started on the nursery but now I just feel anxiety. Not having enough money, getting the painter in and out around our schedule, not being able to afford the crib...etc

 

[LittleSpy]

Cris -- Hopefully your tax return will cover the cost of the crib? It really sucks that now you're going to suspect either your friends or the cleaners. I've been screwed over a time or two and I feel so naive when it happens when really, it's not my/your fault. It's other people sucking.
And $300?! I know you're in a more expensive part of the country but please tell me that price includes the paint; or that the room is huge; or both! I'm so cheap!

Hormones definitely screw with my depression/anxiety as well. Along with my work issues lately I've really been struggling. I'm just trying to look forward to the positive changes later this year. I'm really on the brink of quitting my job but I have to hold out for at least 2.5 more months (at which point I could probably get my OB to write me out of work).

 

[wishnhoping]

$300 is actually the cheapest I could find. The room isnt huge but they are taking down wallpaper and fixing a few cracks. The price includes the paint also. Other quotes I got ranged from $430-$850! I was expecting it to be around $250 which it is...the extra $50 is the paint

I def am suspicious of the cleaning lady and my friends now...its making my anxiety super bad. Bobby has also been talking about getting all these crazy tattooes and the thought of it has been keeping me up at night as well. I wish he realized how much his stupid comments actually impact me.

 

[wishnhoping]

On happy news- Baby girl has been super active today...nice change of pace. Shes stil not as strong or active as Brayden but today shes def letting me know shes there

 

[wishnhoping]

Julie- I forgot to say...Your plans are so exciting! I think you will be much happier and you will def get it all done as planned...I know it!

 

[nats77]

I'm bleeding so I guess this will end in yet another loss, had pains all day and now just been to the toilet and there is fresh blood on the tp I'm so upset I don't know how I will get thru this again, only blessing is its incredibly early think I'm done with it all now tbh sorry for the selfish post

 

[LittleSpy]

Nats.
This baby is proof that it's possible to have cramps and bleeding and have things be okay. I bled from 8.5-11 weeks with this one. I really, really hope you get good news at your appointment tomorrow, hun.

 

[linz143]

Oh nats, I hope you get good news at the appointment tomorrow. Remember that I did have spotting from 12-15 dpo with this pregnancy though. I don't have much time to type right now because the LO is fussing, but I am thinking of you all and back to work tomorrow where I should have more time to respond.

 

[nats77]

More bleeding this morning so I tested again and it's negative now
I just can't believe it! Don't know if this is classed as a miscarriage or a chemical? Honestly I don't care!! all I class it as is down right cruel!!!

 

[LittleSpy]

Nats - I'm so sorry. I hope you keep your appointment today and fill them in on your losses and get them to check your progesterone levels (if it's appropriate at this time). Thinking of you.

 

[nats77]

Ok firstly sorry for the last post, I was pretty upset at the time
Well I had my appointment today, which has been bittersweet, today I lost my baby but I feel there is finally some hope of me holding my rainbow in my arms soon.
Test results showed a slight clotting disorder, but it should be treated with aspirin bit I'm to take it always not just from bfp, also they are going to prescribe me progesterone from bfp, but the best bit is they are refering me to St Mary's recurrent miscarriage clinic, so hopefully they will get some answers.
I asked the doctor if what I'd had this time was chemical or miscarriage and they said they would class it as miscarriage because I had positive pregnancy test's. so that takes me to a total of 5 angel babies , at least they have each other to fly high with.
Thank you for bearing with me ladies, I might take a bit of a break for a while just to get my head together, but I will be back to all of you x x x x

 

[wishnhoping]

Nats- I am just speechless, my heart breaks for you. I really have nothing that I can say to make you feel better because this is so very unfair. I am so angry that its taken 5 losses for anyone there to take you seriously. I hope that the asprin and the new doctors help...I will continue to pray and think of you. I am just so so sorry for your loss

 

[leia37]

Nats, so sorry hon. wish i could give you a real big hug not just a virtual one. Glad you are finally getting some proper help but so sad for you that it has taken your angel babies to do so. we will be here for you when you need us xx

 

[gemmy]

nats just as the other ladies have said - so glad you are getting help

funnily i have ordered baby aspirin on amazon and awaiting it as it was suggested to me by another lady on here who just got her bfp. she also ordered progesterone cream so i have some of that making its way to me now. won't do any harm.

i am positive you will get your rainbow baby, bless your angels. xxx

 

[wishnhoping]

Nats- this thread made me think of you. Just wondering if its something you have been tested for early on...

https://community.babycenter.com/post/a38937664/just_take_the_freaking_test_grrr

 

[nats77]

Thanks cris, not early on no, I had a gd test when pregnant with Henry but that's it I think? Unless they have tested my blood for it I don't actually have a clue what I've been tested for? Xx

 

[LittleSpy]

May not hurt to ask for a glucose test to check for type 2 just to be on the safe side? I don't know how the healthcare system in the UK works, exactly. Essentially, if you want anything done in the US, you have to ask for it... specifically.

Like my boob dysfunction? Yeah, I can't seem to get any doctor to effing even touch it or try to do anything to help me. They essentially just tell me to use formula and get over it. It's really sad and frustrating. I had several blood levels that I wanted tested along with my blood glucose test last week and the OB I saw that day wouldn't even hear it because I waited so long in the waiting room that we had 3 minutes (no, really) for her to find the heartbeat and anwer any questions before I had my blood drawn. I couldn't get into my entire story and then tell her I was working with an IBCLC who wanted me to have "this, this, and this" tested that day. I started talking about it and she basically shut me up and told me that she was formula fed and turned out okay. (and no, this isn't an assault against formula! I love formual, it's why Maisie is alive. But I'd also love my effing boobs to work like the entire medical profession and society seems to believe they should since apparently it's just entirely impossible for that part of my body to not work correctly. I even read one doctor being quoted saying "It's a basic mammalian function," insinuating that all women should be able to produce enough millk for their babes. Oh, okay... so basic mammalian functions can't be issues for some people? Like how diabetic people don't produce enough insulin. Isn't that a basic mammalian function? Like how some people are paralyzed and can't walk. Isn't that a basic function? Like how some men's penises don't work? Isn't that a basic function? Anway, you get my point!). Sorry about the rant. My point was, at least in the US, you have to take charge of your own healthcare and ask for things specifically otherwise, like that BabyCenter post was saying, it may be unlikely the actual problem will be found and addressed appropriately.

 

[linz143]

Nats, I am so sorry my friend. I want to cry for you with what you have had to go through! I'm glad the specialist seems to be taking you seriously, though and that you're getting a referral to a group that assists in specifically what you're experiencing. I guess the one good thing is that you don't have a problem GETTING pregnant, which would compound the whatever is happening. Once they figure it out, your next BFP should happen soon and we'll all get to see you go through a full pregnancy.