Goingforit: Sorry my last post was so choppy. I was tired and monitoring my daughter and her friend while trying to do my job. I work from home daily and love it but it can get too busy because there is always some thing to 'do' work or home related.
Honestly I don't think I have any more gut left to feel pain in. I haven't stopped being hopeful but learning my body all these years I 'know' when it doesn't happen before any hpt tells me. But I did have a moment of wanting to toss a bfn against a wall and scream.
I think I didn't sleep last night because of the Myoinositol I'm taking and my body was gearing up for AF. I was so restless. And yeah, still had 'what if' on my mind a bit. That's gone now. My hubby joined me for a work out to help burn some bad energy off and hopefully make me ready for some good sleep.
Oh, gosh, the clinic I'm going to is new to me and I hope they aren't so business like. My last one was a hoot. I loved the front desk girls the nurse and my doctor. But that was it. Their protocol and place of procedures was horrible. It was so mixed up and the majority of the time it felt like they had more patients to take care of than they could deal with. I waited forever for one IUI to take place because they refused to trigger me. My follies got so big....then they took 3 hours past my appt time to do the IUI and my husbands freshly washed sperm was just sitting some where. I hope the new place have their ducks in order since this will be more than sperm in a tube
PRICE....YES....it is so expensive! I didn't realize the meds are separate from the procedure. My mouth just drops every time I look at it and wonder how we will pay. Do you have discounts for the meds there? This new place I am going to have programs with discounted meds and IVF cycles but you have to qualify. I just asked my hubby if he was ready to see how much more we could go into debt this year. And he smiled at me and said, 'why not, lets see how far we can push it'...jokester he is. I think we both are done with being afraid of the cost of IVF and just want to see if we can have a baby together. I have a daughter already but he does not have any children. So if the doctors tell me my eggs are no good we will use donor eggs. I want him to be able to look into his own eyes so to speak.
EEEEKKK....lol..nope. Your description of putting that needle in made me cringe. I'm glad you managed to still do it after the 'blunting'. Oh, just makes me rub myself just thinking about it. I hope the other side fairs better. I think years ago when I first gave myself a trigger I iced my whole stomach area because I didn't want to feel the needle go in. Yeah, that cycle didn't work...lol...
My appt is on Monday first thing. I plan to type of all the good stuff the new doc needs to know. I don't want to hear the spill about 'this is a uterus and these are fallopian tubes...' Nope. Been there done that, tell me how much weight I need to lose in order to qualify for IVF with them and when can we start after that....LOL..
So, next Friday or today Friday? I'm not sure what time zone you are in. 48 follies??? Forgive me if you already mentioned but did you take any thing to stimulate them or is that what you are doing now? Or is that your antral count? I'm with you on OHSS. It hurts like a mother. Its right up there with passing a kidney stone for me. Both make you feel like you have a big zit in your tummy that needs popping (sorry if too gross sounding but they are just awful feeling)
You know at the end of the day that clinic is where you are at and you have double checked everything so ...breathe. Keep following whatever protocol they have you on. And listen to your body because OHSS will put the breaks on everything. No need to get that far. HUGS
Sorry I gabbed so much. I've been meaning to write back all day...lol Prepping for bedtime. I will catch you later.
