Update:
So the girl who's been been a b**** has apparently realized she's finally pushed me too far, because she's sent me multiple messages this evening asking what's going on (since I never did message her back this morning). I don't have the patience to deal with her right now, so not responding. I need to stay positive since
AF finally arrived (!!!) - strangely, it was right after I decided once and for all that I'm not going to put up with people who are energy leeches like this chick. No thank you! Seems my body was waiting for me to let go of the guilt I was feeling and fully embrace that this girl's attitude problem is not at all a reflection of me!
This afternoon I realized that all the negative things she's been saying to me had subconsciously really done a number on me. I have been going through horriple postpartum depression and post-m/c grief the last few months, and I now wonder if a lot of my postpartum depression after the m/c has been because of all the nasty little things this girl had been saying to me, and the bizarre way she's been treating me. I have just been going through so much that I really didn't realize how much she was screwing with my head! I had really gotten to the point I was blaming myself for my PCOS and my m/c, and I was beginning to think a lot less of my self. Now that I realize what she was doing, I am sooooo incredibly done with that train of thought. Ya'll are right! The way she's been acting is totally uncalled for and I can't believe it's rake me so long to realize how she's affected me.
We ladies go through so, so much. To have anyone say that we're not good enough or mother enough or whatever is just horrible. People like that should not be allowed the friendship of women like us! We have gone through too much to ever deserve the kind of crap this girl has said to me.
On a positive note: Now that I realize how much of an affect her words and behaviors have had on me, I've been able to see that I DON'T actually blame myself for my m/c. That was her, not me. In fact, the depression I was feeling has changed over to feeling incredibly positive about this FET cycle. I feel like I'm stronger now for realizing what his girl has been doing- especially since I'm putting my foot down and saying NO MORE>
I am brave, I am strong, and I sure as hell am a mother- to both my angel-baby and to my little blastocysts who I will be seeing soon. If she does not choose to recognize my children, that's her problem, not mine! I will love each of them until the day I die!
WOW!! What a horrible person!! I'm on lupron coming off a another migraine, and i just want to say many many many really bad words at the woman. What is wrong with her? Seriously! !!?? I would give her a piece of my mind. . Ok. . In reality I would probably say no nicely and ignore her. If she pushed for a reason then I would tell her. But my lupron side I s cussing up a storm and wanting to kick her for you. Lol.
Afm.. finally, today I am going to my Dr to do my blood work and sonogram and stay my stims! ! Woohoo!! I've been on lupron for 16 Daus at 20 units. It's been unpleasant. So half dose this morning. . Yes thank you. Lol.
I got my base line today! ! My E2 came back 5.1 , at least 5 follicles so far, my uterine 6 is very thin. . They said all of that is excellent. . So I start my stims tonight. Gonalf 225. My lupron got cut to 10 units. I'm so happy! ! But my new fear of the needles continues.
Congrats hun.
I hope stims go super well for you! Gonal-f is so much easier than anything else. I love that little pen. For me, it really made it so much easier to deal with the needle. It's so tiny, and the pen doesn't look scary at all.
And yes! That girl is just, ugh, *smh*, I don't even know what to say to her. She knows all of what DH and I have been going through, and her response has just been to act so superior. Seems like she believes that since she hasn't m/c'd, she's more fit to be a mother or something. I would say something, except, knowing me, I'd totally go off on her and regret sinking to her level.
Bunyhuny-- So sorry this girl is being a horrible person. Certainly doesn't sound like she has anyone but her own feelings in mind. The things she is saying are completely rude and to be honest I'm the type of person that probably would've said something to her.
Thank, Cntrygrl.
Knowing that I'm not overreacting has made this so much easier to deal with. With all the IF stuff, I usually give friends so much leeway since I know they can't really understand what us IF ladies have to go through, but you are right, what she has been saying is completely rude- totally crossing a line. It's good to know that I'm not the only one seeing the complete horribleness of her statements.
A quick update - went in for my scan yesterday and I have 4 lead follicles now which I'm a bit happier about. The nurse actually spoke to my consultant who agreed to up my dose of menopur to 300iu I go back in on Fri for another scan so will update again 2moro. Xxx
Yay, Plex! That sounds much better! I know you must be feeling relieved.
Awful, despicable woman! I am pissed right now. I've got raging hormones with a baby girl inside
I think I would still be pissed if I didn't though....I'm like cntrygrl, I totally would say something. How could anyone be so uncourteous and lack such common decency, especially now that she's going to be a mother herself!?
I've given up on trying to wrap my head around the things she has said. I called my mother and told her about it today and she was spitting mad! All this support on here and from my mom has really let me know I'm doing the right thing cutting this girl out of my life. IF is hard enough; I don't need people in my life who are going to put me down because of it!
Good ultrasound and appt with regular and high risk OBs today!! They indeed performed NT scan and combined with blood tests, we are good to go, no issue. Very relieved. Babies were quite active (mommy had to eat between appts). Actually baby A was covering its face and tech had a hard time getting a pic of nasal bone. Baby B was super bouncy and tech couldn't get the heart rate. Lol little troubles.
Congrats on the good appts!
Sounds like baby B is one energetic little bean!
bunyhuny, I'm so sorry you're upset, but I don't think you're unreasonable at all. She's acting like a jerk and being incredibly cruel to someone who's supposed to be her friend. What a #@$%&!!!!!
I cannot imagine what kind of selfish insensitivity makes people say and do things like that, but she is using you when it suits her needs but cares nothing about how you feel when she drops you and uses mean and hurtful innuendo. I'm so sorry sweetheart, you don't deserve to be treated like that and you're dealing with so much on your own. Sending you hugs
and I hope you dump her ass and find some new cool people to be friends with. She doesn't deserve to know you. The little... @#$%@ PS - I'm hormonal since AF is around the corner, but she ought to have been around me right now, I'd have TOLD her exactly what I think of her
Thanks, Megan. You are so right! I have friends who would never treat me like this and I honestly am having such a time even believing that she would say such nasty things to me over the last few months. And I am just so glad that she's had the baby now and I don't have to deal with here. I'm a doula and I just can't bring myself to say anything negative to a pregnant woman, no matter how shitty she's being, since upsetting her could affect the baby and it goes against all my training- but now that she's not pregnant, I don't feel like I need to excuse her behavior any longer! From here on out, she says something shitty, I'm calling her out on it. (Hopefully, I won't even have to deal with her anymore. DH and I should be moving next month if all goes well, and then this girl will have no reason to even try to contact me.)
Which will also mean I'll have to go back to Prague w/out DH when it gets time for the transfer. 
xxx
