Ivf/Icis July/Aug Ninewells Hospital Dundee

[H4M]

Tempted to go back for more.... I'm not to sure to be honest! Don't know if I can go through all that again and feel so privileged go have my two little miracles, if I went through it now id probably have too high hopes and if it didn't work would tear me apart probably. If things happened naturally then I would feel very blessed, I think now I will just let nature take it's course and if it happens it does and if it doesn't then I will try not to beat myself up about it . How are you getting on Minno? I actually can't believe how quick it has all come around for you that's fantastic news that Dundee are going to give you a scan! X
V hope your well and your wee man is coming along well , oh dear really??? I love soup!! Its weird Its silly things, like I normally use finish dishwasher tablets and the Ariel was on offer so I picked them up.... Wow I wish I never I must have had them when I went through all the sickness as the smell makes me want to run to the toilet haha! Also I got a hand soap off my auntie last year from her holiday and I loved the smell of it! I had to bin that a while ago as it made my stomach churn as soon as I smelt it haha! Amazing how it effects us eh!! X

Well my two aren't well they both have cold and very out of normal character! I feel so helpless, bless them! Lots of pj days and cuddles just now for them! Hopefully it passes soon! Can't believe how much they have come on! Both rolling over.... They are moving about so much! I come in and there at the other end of the carpet from where they were!! Getting so many stories! Laughing away! Loving there door bouncer!! Freedom in there eyes I have started weaning them too, they do say 6 months now but I feel they are needing it! That's them 5months now.. Where has the time gone?? It has flown by so fast! I feel I was hanging over the toilet with sickness just a few months ago! A whole year???? Feel like I've blinked and its passed me! X

Funfair hope your well and your lo is fine after his op x

Hope everyone else is well? X

 

[V2R]

H4M-I would love to have another baby now, but I don't think I could put us through ivf again. I'm very blessed to have my wee boy & like you if it happened naturally it would be amazing. I do feel I was on edge being pregnant I wonder if I would've been like that if it had happened natural. My oh says only one!! I just look at my boy & already I'm saying where's my baby gone he's growing up far too fast, he's such a mummys boy. Have you tried baby groups yet? We have started trying them it's nice to get out & mix with other mums.

Minno any update? Howz everything going? I hope it's all full steam ahead. I think on your two week wait I might just pop in half way through to say hi or you will be sick of me asking how you are. xx

 

[V2R]

Hugs to your twins H4M hope they get better soon xx

 

[H4M]

Aww I'm the same V, I feel I never enjoyed my pregnancy and that I was always feeling negative and like it wasn't real, and I often think if it happened naturally would I have felt different? We go to a toddler group have been going for a few months it's good, we are taking them swimming too , I'm going to look for more groups around and different things to do. I'm glad your enjoying your group, I know I can't believe how quick they grow up! I look back photos and can't believe how tiny they were, and I look at there first outfits and they are half the size of them now!! They are both still unwell it's the worst thing ever! I feel so useless and like I can't do anything for them , hopefully they feel better soon though . I've started back exercise! Oh man ! Sore is not even the word hahaha! Crazy how unfit I am with no intense exercise in over a year!! Xx

Hope everyone's well, how you feeling Minno? X

 

[Minno]

Ladies, it all goes in the blink of an eye and before you know it they are 13 and descending on you with two of their friends having a rowdy sleepover!! Think I got two hours sleep last night and they ate me out of house and home lol but I wouldn't have it any other way
Enjoy your time with the little ones girls. It's a special time. Hope the twins feel better soon H - it's hard when they can't tell you what's wrong.
V, you never know, it could happen naturally! That applies to you too H

Afm, had scan on Friday and lining at 8mm so good to go. All booked and organised. Fly out on wed and back Friday. Fet on Thursday all being well. Getting a teeny bit spotting just now of course - hope it stops now I've started cyclogest. Remember the lovely drugs ladies? Do u remember if u took cyclogest front or back door? I think I will alternate in case it irritates.

Will keep you posted as to how it goes. V feel free to check in with me anytime - I'll be freaking in the 2ww!!
Xxx

 

[V2R]

H4M- Oh no your babies are still unwell they wont know if they want cuddles or left alone. So many bugs just now. The groups are good to get out the house, I'm trying as many as possible.
I feel my bingo wings flapping exercising & I think where the hell did they come from ha I've gone terribly untoned. It's hard going!

Minno Good luck for this week your mind will be racing. Whats Cyclogest? I don't think I had that. How is your o/h is he ok or a bit nervous? Have youz any plans while in Prague any site seeing? What about your son does he go stay with his gran? xx

PS - I've got a meeting at work next week about going back!!!!! Dreading it I actually might cry....

 

[H4M]

Wow Minno that is so exciting not long at all!! I don't think I had that stuff either? Sorry can't help. Remember and try to relax as much as you can . Aww I'm glad I still have a while to wait before a sleepovers lol! It'll be total chaos !! Hahaa! Xx
Haahaa v I have bingo wings just now and I hate them.. They appeared from nowhere and very quickly at that hahaa ! A meeting with work already??! That's quick! I'll need to get in touch with my work and see what's happening, I've been in a few times with the twins for visits ect. I don't think I'll be back there, it's a lot of travelling so when I add that up and the cost of childcare for my two I probably would be paying out more that what my wage would be. I have a few plans on what I can do though . I definitely wouldn't go back full time. What's your thoughts v? Xx

 

[Minno]

Cyclogest is progesterone. Have to take it to maintain the lining. Nasty stuff but necessary.
I'm goin by myself V as DH is looking after DS and also has to juggle work etc. Went myself last time and it was fine. Bit of a thought but needs must. Leave at 6 am tomorrow so up at 3. Best get some sleep then.
I'll be in touch girls xx

 

[V2R]

H4M I just need to get in early to my work as my mum needs to request a day off then I want to get nursery sorted. I'm going back 3 days BUT it might change I'm not forcing myself to go to work if it's making me or my baby upset. Nursery is expensive eh! Childminders are a bit cheaper.

Minno you will nearly be there! You will be fine yourself & your oh is just a phone call/text away. Once your wee embie is snuggled in you can relax a bit, treat yourself to a nice tasty cake. Take care of yourself. I'm never going to be off of here checking on your updates.

xx

 

[Minno]

I'm here! Arrived this morning after a bit of flight connection nightmare - same company but the first flight was delayed as they had to de-ice the plane and then I only had 30 mins to get from that flight to the next one at the other end of a huge airport! Talk about stressful. I managed it just as they were closing the gate - I was the last one on board! Grrrrrrr Brussels airlines - not impressed!

Anyway, on the nitty gritty. Arrived at the clinic and had my check up - all good there. Lining is now 11mm and the right structure etc. Doctor didnt say much about my on and off spotting. He was a bit grump actually. I asked about one or two back and he replied abruptly with 'two'. No discussion, nada. I asked about multiple risks (apparently about 6%) and also said about the possibility of my immune system attacking two. He completely dismissed me and stuck to his guns. I was quite annoyed. Man, in the UK they push for one back and over here it's at least two!
I am having a very hard deciding what to do. I've said to the coordinator that if they thaw two and only one looks good then one is going back. I don't want them thawing the other two if they decide to keep going until I have two to put back. I'm happy to go with one and if it doesn't work I could potentially have another go later in the year with the remaining two frosties.
On the other hand, if both thaw and look good - ladies what should I do? He said categorically best chance of one is with two back. He said small risk of twins. I'm not so sure!
Your thoughts please!
Xx ps sorry this message is all about me! Can't believe you ladies are having to think about work already. Less is more - if you can afford it!
Xx

 

[H4M]

Hi Minno! I am so glad you have arrived safely! What a nightmare about flights but at least it all worked out . What a nasty man! That's not very good, nothing like making you feel shitty, especially when your on your own . I personally think if two are good then go for that ! Will give you a good chance and if you end up with twins then that's two wee miracles! And honestly it's not as bad as you think . so when are they thinking for transfer? Xx

Hi v, Aww it's a horrible thought. Yes nurseries are absolutely ridiculously priced!! childminders are cheaper and when they are so little I think childminders are good as they get that little bit more attention in my opinion. But it is entirely upto you. I hate the fact I work in childcare... It makes me 1000000% more picky!!! I'm actually thinking about starting childminding myself! That way I don't need to go back to my job and I get to look after munchkins myself. Tbh I've wanted to childmind for years, but timing has never been right or I've been in flats, now I have a house and its big enough and I have my babies! I feel its a good move. But will see xx

 

[H4M]

Oh and Minno I got progesterone It was front door I took it x

 

[Minno]

Thanks H. It's such a hard decision. On the one hand I want to maximise chances of a success, on the other I worry about risks of having two at my age. my doc also happens to be the director of the clinic so you wonder if he is motivated by keeping success rates high no matter what the best option is for the patient? Could be off the mark there but he was just so quick to shoot down any suggestion of one back that it made me wonder. You'd hink he would at least be prepared to discuss it!

Childminding a a great idea H - flexible hours to suit you and you can see your little ones every day. Sounds like a great idea. Go for it I say.

Just been to Wenceslas square shopping - needed to give my brain a rest lol! Xx

 

[H4M]

Awww Yeh Minno that's not so good, you would think they would be helpful and answer any questions or worries to help, should ask them if there is anyone else that you can talk to? Aww did you buy much? Lol!! Xx

Thank you 😊 xx

 

[Minno]

I'm going to be speaking with the embryologist tomorrow morning - our decision might be made for us if one doesn't look as good as the other after thawing. I'm thinking that if we transfer one and it doesn't take then we can come back for a final go later this year after our holiday.

I bought some perfume and some vitamins the doctor recommended. That was it! Then came back to hotel and ordered room service for dinner as quite tired now after getting up at 3 am this morning to fly out. Current,y in my warm comfy pjs in bed watching Harry potter on my iPad lol! X

 

[H4M]

That's good, Yeh just see what they say tomorrow. Aw that's good nice wee treat for yourself haha! Do you not mind being there on your own? I'll be thinking of you tomorrow, Good luck and I'm sending loads of baby dust! Xx

 

[Minno]

Id prefer DH here with me but it just didn't work out this time with childcare and work etc Will let u know how it all goes - will depend on what thaw report is x

 

[H4M]

Hi Minno hope all is well? Xx

 

[Minno]

Hey H, thanks for checking in on me. Transfer went well and was v v quick and straightforward. So in the end my decision was made for me as one of the embryos dos not survive the thaw well. The other one was perfect grade - A- so we went with one back. Otherwise it would have meant defrosting my remaining two embryos and if it doesn't work that's it for is. This way at least I can have another go later this year if this cycle fails. I actually feel happy and calm about putting one back. What will be will be I guess.
They switched my meds and gave me crinone gel instead of cyclogest. Ever used it?
So now I'm back at the hotel resting up and will fly back tomorrow and two weeks off work - yippeeeeee. I'm prepared for failure but obviously I really hope it works.
How are your little ones today? Hope they are feeling better and more like themselves.
V how did your work meeting go?
Xxx

 

[H4M]

That's fantastic news Minno congratulations on being PUPO!! ! Just relax now and take things easy! And keep positive! Let your little bean snuggle in well . Ahhh it was crinone gel I had!! Don't know what I was thinking I used that from day of transfer until test date x
My two are feeling a bit better than what they were, still not 100% but getting there! They are taking more of there milk which is good as they had gone off that and hadn't put on weight the last couple of weeks ! X
V hope your meeting went well? X