IVF treatment not going well, looks like they will cancel

[Sinead]

Good luck for tomorrow, hope you get good news

 

[Omi]

Good luck, hun!!! Fingers crossed for you, very tightly!!!

 

[waiting4u]

Thank you all for your well wishes and messages of support.

With a heavy, heavy, heart, I am sad to say our treatment has been cancelled. The scan today showed great improvement with the growth of my follies, but there are too few and we have stimulated them for long enough now ( Day 15 of injections) The conclusion is that I was on too low of a dose of the menapur and next time need to double to dose. I am waiting for my consultant to ring (saw the nurse for my scan today) to say when we can start again. My nurse seems to think that I could start again once they "induce a shed" (sounds nice!) of everything they have grown. I guess this means a few days of tablets.

I knew this was going to happen, so did my husband. My mum came with me today and I was absolutely fine until we got home and she had made me some lunch. I just sat at the table and cried my heart out. I am just so sad that I have fallen at the very first step. I am so desperately sad that we did not even make it to egg collection. I suppose it is very hard to understand the grief of something that we never even had! I certainly feel like I have failed.

On the positives......at least we have direction for our next treatment. I have a great hubby and a fantastic family supporting me. I am lucky to be surrounded with messages of support from you ladies who understand the emotion of all this. Like all of you, I will pick myself up and start all over again; because, like you, I want to be a mum and will give it all I've got.

But for today.....I think I might just cry for a long time.

 

[Stardancer]

I'm so sorry

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[maz]

Oh no!! I am sooo sorry to hear your cycle had to be cancelled. I really feel for you. Cry as much as you need to hun, it will help in the long run.

Have a huge hug from hubby when he gets home, and one from me.

 

[Helen]

I'm so sorry to hear this. Glad you had your Mum along for support. When is hubby home?

 

[Sinead]

 

[FJL]

I'm so very sorry, this is truly devastating

I'm here whenever you need to talk. I just wish we lived closer so I could come over and give you a real and have a few bottles of wine with you

You're NOT a failure, I know that it feels like you are but you're NOT. You had no control over the outcome, your in the hands of drugs and Drs and next time i'm sure your body will respond and produce more follicles.

Please be kind to yourself and take care of yourself, we're all here for you x

Now is YOU time. You cry as much as you want and do anything you need to, to get through this awful time. And it is a loss - grieve as much as you need to. There is grief for something that may have been but isn't.

Thinking of you with much love and support x

 

[Beckic]

I am so so sorry sweetheart - you cry as much as you need to hunni - it is perfectly understandable for you to feel disappointment and grief.

I am so proud of you for your strength to be able to say you will pick yourslef up - you are amazing and wonderful and I pray and hope that the next cycle will be yours.

Bx x x

 

[waiting4u]

Thanks so much ladies. I am still feeling pretty emotional about it all but today I feel like I am able to gain a bit of perspective. We will just have to try again and soon.

Physically, I have to admit that stopping the treatment is pretty awful, sore boobs, very swollen belly, very tender tummy - this is all quite normal according to Dr. My face has broken out in a lot of spots too - I never get spots so it is quite a surprise! Although that could be from all the tears I have cried!!!!

Just popped in to thank you for all your support, messages, and understanding. xxxxxxxxxxxx