Im soo sorry!
).....then I go in for bloods and another scan on the 16th, which is when I will know when transfer will be. 
Jess - OMG YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY CONGRATS!!!!
michelle - FX third time is the charm!
PRAYIN4BABIES -
BabyOnMyOwn - Thats great news!!
Well ladies....I am officially on the FET train!
Even though AF is oddly light, doc said everything inside looks normal, even showed me a weird looking blob on the screen saying thats going to shed and then af should be done lol ummm ok.
I started my estrogen tablet today...tue of next week I will up it to 2, then next sat up it to three(yay
Its exciting to finally be back in the swing of things, but im super scared. After leaving the doc office this am I got super overwhelmed. What if it does not work again? DH is under a lot of stress with work and all this IVF expenses on top dont help. I know if it turns out to be a BFP it will make all his stress somewhat go away. I know he feel like he has let me down, I just want to make him happy. Know what I mean? It was just emotional today. Like why the hell cant I catch a freaking break? My cousin sent me one of those funnygram pic joke things(i forget the real name of it, the ones the entire world seems to be posting on FB).....it said.....Why is it that the worst mothers are always the most fertile......something like that. I just laughed because seriously 90% of the time, its the truth.
Sorry for my rant. Im just annoyed today. To top the cake....I got excited my iPhone 5 came in....45min before I had to go to work.....while trying to sync.....I got a message basically saying my computer is too damn old! Grrrr!!!! Off to the Apple store I go tom am. FML!
Would've been cool though!
I just need to think positively. Jess - OMG YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY CONGRATS!!!!
michelle - FX third time is the charm!
PRAYIN4BABIES -
BabyOnMyOwn - Thats great news!!
Well ladies....I am officially on the FET train!
Even though AF is oddly light, doc said everything inside looks normal, even showed me a weird looking blob on the screen saying thats going to shed and then af should be done lol ummm ok.
I started my estrogen tablet today...tue of next week I will up it to 2, then next sat up it to three(yay
Its exciting to finally be back in the swing of things, but im super scared. After leaving the doc office this am I got super overwhelmed. What if it does not work again? DH is under a lot of stress with work and all this IVF expenses on top dont help. I know if it turns out to be a BFP it will make all his stress somewhat go away. I know he feel like he has let me down, I just want to make him happy. Know what I mean? It was just emotional today. Like why the hell cant I catch a freaking break? My cousin sent me one of those funnygram pic joke things(i forget the real name of it, the ones the entire world seems to be posting on FB).....it said.....Why is it that the worst mothers are always the most fertile......something like that. I just laughed because seriously 90% of the time, its the truth.
Sorry for my rant. Im just annoyed today. To top the cake....I got excited my iPhone 5 came in....45min before I had to go to work.....while trying to sync.....I got a message basically saying my computer is too damn old! Grrrr!!!! Off to the Apple store I go tom am. FML!
This will be your time! I know my hubby was really down about all this when it was determined to be male factor. He was so proud after we had a good fert report and now that two took he is on 
his boys did good. Your DH will feel the same when you get your BFP!
... really horrible dream 
This huge spider was right in front of my face and I woke up throwing my duvet at it, so that it would land far away. Used to have some spider dreams in Australia (being an arachnophobe) but haven't dreamt one in at least a decade! ... aren't vivid dreams meant to be a good sign? .... but hey ... who's SS? 
