IVF until we all get our bfp! 2012-present *13 w/twins & 1 w/triplets!*

[BabyOnMyOwn]

I FULLY agree Stinas!

 

[MrsC8776]

Wow, a lot went on in here today! Just to add my two cents, ill tell you all something I was thinking last night but felt silly posting it. I have come to really love this thread. When I'm feeling down, or excited I love to share it in here. So much so that I worry that I won't get pregnant until you all have had your babies and I won't be able to share it with you. This is the only place I feel that people understand what I'm going through... The ups, downs, and everywhere in between. I can completely understand Ash that it is sometimes difficult to have all the pregnancy talk, but I still enjoy it. I love hearing about everyone's appointments and seeing scans and pictures. Gives me such joy!

I hope that didn't sound silly!

That doesn't sound silly at all. It makes me so happy to know that this is still a place you can come to to talk and also vent. I love following you through everything.

bubumaci - FX this FET will bring your little miracle!

Lindsay - Sooo happy the spotting stopped! Probably just some old blood coming out to make room for the little prince!

TwoRdue - Yay!!

jchic - I cant believe it either! I am going to take that day off, but thats it. My fresh cycle I had a couple of days off and it didnt work, so I figured I want stay in my normal routine.


Lots of drama in here today....lol

I guess ill add my thoughts as well.........
I understand that hearing about everyones pregnancies can offend/upset some of the NEW members of this thread. I totally get it....BUT...I am one of the "older" members of this thread...a NON PREGNANT one....and I have gone through pretty much every pregnant members journey in this thread. I LOVE seeing updates because I know when my time comes I will be going through the same and you will all be here to support me, as you already have through my journey. Mine might have failed, but seeing all of your successes gives me the fuel to keep my chin up high and keep on pushing for my miracle.

MrsC - I think you have done an AMAZING job keeping this thread updated and very thankful for brining all these wonderful ladies together!

ALL PREGNANT LADIES - You all BETTER stay on this thread or else! lol

To Non Pregnant ladies - I am one of you and I know there are plenty of days where it all just sucks! Just remember, everyone on here has been there before.

This FET is going to be it for you. I was hoping that all the success would still give people hope. Maybe it still will. Thank you for your kind words. Also your wonderful threatening words!

To the both of you... You will get pregnant and we will all share your journey with you as well! Don't think any differently! Thank you for sharing how you feel and sticking around. I love hearing from you both and can't wait to see you get your bfp's.

For the other ladies still TTC~ I hope you are ok and that you will continue your journey with us. to everyone!

Tomorrow is a new day!

 

[Stinas]

MrsC - Thank you! Your the best!

I guess every so often with a thread full of hormonal bit**es drama is a given lol hehe Me being one of those bit**es. hehehe
You have to laugh at life sometimes. Suck it up and go with the flow ladies! Life has its good times and its bad times...you just have to go with it. There is always someone out there going through much worse.

 

[Pink gerbera]

Oh my goodness so much happened whilst I was sleeping. Well trying to! Couldn't get comfy last night.... Sooo tired now!!

I'm on my phone and can't reply to everyone individually!!
But
Two - huge congrats

MrsC - I love this thread and the awesome job you are doing with it!

I've totally forgotten who had a scan today but good luck!!

Have a good day everyone today.

Pink xxx

 

[bubumaci]

Just wanted to add quickly (am late for work )

I am completely with Stinas on this. I joined the thread in May as well and have followed the success stories (which I am thrilled about). I guess, I feel a little stab of pain each time I see that someone is trying IVF for the first time and is successful the first time - happy for them, absolutely, but feeling it is unfair.

I love the women on this thread, love hearing the positives - look forward to having my own negatives and being able to share with you all here to offer and get the support that seems to have an endless source!

And TBH - I feel it would be a huge effort to join a fresh thread (for the autumn, since we are now well into October), introduce the whole story, get to know the new people - when we have followed and supported each other for so long. (I also have that fear that you will long be Mummies, while I am still struggling to get and keep a - but that fear aside)...

Ash - I am terribly sorry that you feel you are not getting the support you need. Unfortunately, I am not able to give you advice / tips / experience because I went down a totally different route in the stimming process

And to all the pregnant ladies on this thread - I am thrilled that this thread has been such a lucky charm for you and I hope - even if the thread was until September - that that luck might just be extended to a couple of us going into our FETs this / next month...

 

[TwoRdue]

It shows that this tread is full with, strong, wonderful and caring woman who all share a ivf bond and can't wait to see more BFP

 

[Jenn76]

Bubu: I will follow you until you get your BFP! You have had such a positive attitude throughout this whole process, I know that you will be the best mom ever! I've been in this thread since early on too and I can't wait to share in all of your happiness when you guys get you BFP!

Stinas: I can't wait to share in your positive as well, I really hope this FET is it for you!

BOMO: I will follow you too until you get your BFP! I know it won't be much longer fo you either.

I don't blame anyone for feeling jealous from time to time in here. As I struggled to save up for IVF I too was jealous of the ones that had insurance for up to six times. I was just mad at the health care system not them. We all have different reasons that is causing our infertility and unfortunately some will have higher chances of success with IVF for that reason. Myself being one, our only issue was low sperm count all other factors with sperm were great.

 

[Swepakepa3]

Off to ER!!! Have a great day everyone!!

 

[bubumaci]

ooooh ... Swepa... how'd it go? Can't wait to hear your report and look after yourself this afternoon Chick... get yourself a nice hot water bottle and be pampered silly by DH (or whoever is looking after you)

Jenn ... thank you!

 

[ashknowsbest]

Ok so since I was up pretty much all night crying and upset about what happened on this thread yesterday I figured I'd clear things up one last time and hopefully you will all hear where I'm coming from instead of just hating on how I'm feeling.

My problem ISN'T that there are still pregnant women on this thread. Yes, it is hard to see them talking about their symptoms and buying clothes, etc. but that IS NOT the problem. The cause of my negative feelings towards this thread came from the fact that I felt like I wasn't getting the support I felt I needed. I would see all of you ladies supporting one another, asking how one was doing, how far a long they were in their cycle, etc. and not once did anyone ask me in the 11 days that I've been on lupron how it was going. I think gettingbroody asked me the other day maybe like 4 or 5 days ago how I was. I'm not going to go through every page of the thread but not one of you asked me how I was doing except her. Call me needy, call me whatever you'd like but it's the truth of how I felt and that is what really upset me. If we're all here to support one another why was I not getting supported. I know there are so many people on here too, I get that but I would respond to other people, just yesterday saying how I was happy Lindsay's spotting stopped, how excited I was and how great it was that stinas was starting her FET cycle and that I wished her the best, and how jchic was having morning sickness ... and how bubu was going to start a FET ... I mentioned how I was on my 11th or 10th day of lupron and nobody asked me how I was doing.

I then blew up because I felt like I was giving support and encouragement where it was needed and I wasn't getting any in return.

Let me reiterate, my anger towards this thread is NOT about pregnant ladies. I do love hearing their stories about how they got there and it is very encouraging to see that but I was feeling like I was not getting the support I felt I needed.

I now feel like I have nowhere to go to get support for my IVF cycle as most of the ladies on here have made it very clear that they do not agree with me in any way however I find that ridiculous. We've all been in my shoes, we've had angry days, hurt days, jealous days, sad days, etc. and I've been having some of those and I seriously feel so alone now. Also, you guys took what I said and ran with it being negative instead of actually hearing what I was trying to say. People assumed first that I was leaving because of the pregnant talk and while that does upset me at times, that IS NOT why I did not want to be a part of this thread anymore.

I really hope some of you can understand better where I am coming from. I did not mean to hurt anyone's feelings or make anyone feel like they couldn't post about their pregnancy as that is not the issue.

Sorry for the long post, I just had to get this off of my chest so that I can stop being upset about it.

 

[Swepakepa3]

Thanks bubu!! Last time I was fine actually went to a friends campsite the whole afternoon!! Ill let everyone know as soon as I know anything!

 

[Swepakepa3]

So sorry ash..... I find this thread very hard to follow, the posts move so fast, I can speak for myself.... I do not read every single post, I just skim threw things (for example i missed all of this yesterdsy) and I apologize for not providing you support, it breaks my heart to think you feel this way, I'm sure no one intentionally "ignored" your posts.

again I'm sorry to hear about the way you feel.

 

[MoBaby]

Good luck today swepakepa3!

 

[jchic]

Swepak - Good luck today!!! Cant wait for your report.

Two - One perfect bean is WONDERFUL! Huge congrats girl!

Drs - I am sorry you feel this way. Listen, you are going to be a WONDERFUL mom to your 2 gorgeous babies, and they are going to LOVE you for it. So please dont think this way. I am 1,0000000000000 times closer to my mom than my dad

 

[ashknowsbest]

Thanks swepak and good luck with your ER

 

[michelle01]

Swepak - Good luck today

I may not post a lot on this thread anymore, however, I read all the posts from yesterday and Ash, I am sorry you feel that way. I have had my days and now starting my 3rd IVF cycle; it seems so unfair that some women have to do multiple cycles, but I figured if this is something that I really want, I have to keep trying. This thread has been wonderful! I feel like I have made so many friends on here and I love hearing about everyones journey, whether you are just starting, in your 2ww, just got your BFP or further in your pg. It gives me hope that this does work! I will be staying and hoping for support during my upcoming cycle. Since I am just in limbo waiting, I just don't post as much.

Ash - there is a thread that I have been on for IVF oct/nov/dec, that you should check out; most of the women in there are just starting their cycles like myself.

MrsC - I just want to say you have done a FABULOUS job with this thread

I am having sort of a dilema and maybe someone has some insight.....Tuesday evening I started having HORRIBLE back pain. It was still bad yesterday and started having pain in my lower right abdomen. I finally went to the walk-in clinic yesterday afternoon and ruled out my SI joint which I thought it was. They sent me to the ER; so I went there, they did an u/s, ct scan, etc... They found a 2cm cyst on my right ovary and some fluid around my uterus. It is causing me so much pain, they had to give me morphine and sent me home with pain meds. This morning my entire back is achy. I have to follow-up with my OB today, but last year I had a 4cm cyst on my left ovary and never felt a thing. SO why would this small cyst bother me this bad and now I am so scared it will post-pone my cycle; I have an appt next Wednesday for blood and to start lupron. Anyone have this before; I am really worried. Thanks in advance!

 

[MoBaby]

michelle with the cyst they will check your e2 levels and if they are okay then you can start. 2cm is small in comparision so I bet it resolves in the next week or so. And being on the lupron will calm things down as well. I hope you feel better soon! That really stinks all the pain

 

[bubumaci]

Sweetie,

First of all - I think it is very good, that you have got it off your chest (I am a firm believer in not letting things well up) and I am very very sorry that you had such a bad night!!!

Perhaps you can explain something for me - because I am not at all familiar with the protocol you are on / what the procedure will be / is...

What is Lupron? Is it something to do with the down regulation (just reading your signature says wou are doing IVF with down regulation and estimated ER is 29th October) ... or is it a FSH, similar to Gonal-F?

How are you feeling? Do you need to go for check ups? I can't remember what your question was (and to be honest, when I logged on this morning, when I was late for work anyway I really floated over the 7 (!!!) pages that had built up since my visit. I remember seeing you say something about Lupron So I am sorry.

I do understand what you mean, and I have seen you comment on other people (including myself - I have, I believe, always thanked you for your comments?) and be supportive!

And one thing that you mustn't forget - this whole journey doesn't just cost us all money and nerves and maybe be painful, it is a physical and very very emotional journey... perhaps (and I don't want to belittle your "outburst") but perhaps the emotions / the frustration is also that much more overwhelming, because you are putting hormones in yourself and we maybe are a little more sensitive to certain situations than others. ... I hope that's come out right - it's meant to sound understanding (when I re-read it, it sounds condescending though and it's not meant that way!)...

Anyway, what I mean to come out of all this babbling is ...
I am sorry, that you've felt unheard!! And I really do hope that you change your mind and feel OK to stay on this thread, as I would like to know how you are doing!!

 

[jchic]

Michelle,

Hmmm, cysts hurt, I am hoping that it goes away for you with the Lupron and that it doesnt delay your cycle. Your follow up appt is today right? I agree with Mo, have them check your E2 levels as well, just to make sure.

 

[PRAYIN4BABIES]

drsquid I also saw where ash is coming from. I guess other things that I saw upset me more than what was put in this thread. I just figured since we all started together we would all finish together. Now I feel like the ladies who are still moving forward are all going to leave. I don't want that to happen. I really wanted us to all finish together and move into pregnancy together. I felt like I built a friendship with everyone in here. I tried to have it inviting for all and make everyone feel comfortable. Like I keep saying... I just wish something was said before it got to this point thats all. I didn't want to have the girls with bfp's leave because that isn't fair. I didn't want to just limit the thread after everything everyone has been through. Everyday I look at the front page while doing update and get so excited to see that the list of ladies still moving forward to their bfp is shorter and shorter. Ash I'm sorry if something I said today upset you. I should have said that I see where you are coming from instead of trying to figure out why nothing was said earlier. I don't know what else to say... I just hope that everyone stays, continues to support each other and get support from others.

Everyone here is a wonderful group of ladies....although my result ended in a miscarriage I didn't want to leave because of the tremendous support I received from this thread. I am still fighting for my BFP and will continue to do so until I get what I want I love to read everyone's post because it actually helps me to keep fighting for my baby.....it gives me hope.....

Keep up the great work MRsC This is an AWESOME thread!