IVF until we all get our bfp! 2012-present *13 w/twins & 1 w/triplets!*

[TwoRdue]

Wow this thread really moved when I was sleeping.
Thank you all for your comments. I am a little disappointed in myself and I was so excited about the scan but as I was so sick and tied I didn't get to fully enjoy it and even had a little cry about it and I think worry is still there and stopping me from fully enjoying this time. After a great night sleep I am feeling more excited.

Swep - that is great need and I hope that all goes well with the transfer.

Michelle - hope you feeling better.

How is everyone today?

 

[never2late70]

Hello Lovely's. Just jumping in real quick to say:

BOMO: I am so sorry that you're feeling down. Do something special for yourself. My guilty pleasure are mani-pedi's

SWepka: 11 eggs is amazing. I would have put back all 3 of mine.

Parayinforbabies: I totally missed your loss I am so so sorry

Michelle: Sounds horrible what you're going through. Atleast they caught it early enough. Stay strong.

DrS: Youre posts ALWAYS make me smile in one way or another

Tworude: Congrats on your sticky bean. Great news!

MrsC: I think you're doing an amazing job and I appreciate you.

Ash: I can totally relate to what you were feeling yesterday. None the less we got to have faith and these ladies give me that. We all have bad days. Please don't leave!

Everyone else: Happy Thursday! lol

Having said all of that, My husband and I have decided to give it one more go. Yep you heard right. We have an appointment with our RE/FS tomorrow to even discuss donor egg options. I am thrilled. Worried. Concerned about finances. You name it!
We both were trying to pretend like we were fine without another try..lol

So here we go again! I really need you all I am scared to death!

Prayers and Blessings to everyone,
~Angie

 

[ashknowsbest]

Never - so happy you've decided to try again! I'll be here to talk whenever you need and I have my FX'd for you so tight that this one works!

 

[drsquid]

never- thanks =) and congrats for giving it another go!

bubu- yeah i tend to look for my last post... which doesnt always end up being THE last post

 

[TwoRdue]

Never - that is great news and I hope it all works well for you.x

 

[GettingBroody]

Swepa - congrats on 11 eggs!! Looking forward to your fert report tomor Rest and relax for the evening

Ash - fx'd you get to start soon!

Never - good luck with your apt! I'm so excited you're giving it one more chance!

Michelle - so sorry you're in such pain

Stinas - good luck with the PIO tomor!

Az - keeping my fx'd for you

 

[Pink gerbera]

Never - Yey for starting again Got everything crossed for you.

Swepa - congrats on the 11 eggs. Fingers crossed for a good fertilisation report tomorrow.

Ash - glad you're feeling better and hopefully more supported. Fingers crossed you get to start really soon

Pink xx

 

[ashknowsbest]

thanks pink!

 

[MrsC8776]

Wow this thread really moved when I was sleeping.
Thank you all for your comments. I am a little disappointed in myself and I was so excited about the scan but as I was so sick and tied I didn't get to fully enjoy it and even had a little cry about it and I think worry is still there and stopping me from fully enjoying this time. After a great night sleep I am feeling more excited.

Swep - that is great need and I hope that all goes well with the transfer.

Michelle - hope you feeling better.

How is everyone today?

Don't be disappointed in yourself. The worry will always be there it just turns into a different kind of worry as time goes on. I'm glad you are more excited and able to enjoy your time now.

Hello Lovely's. Just jumping in real quick to say:

BOMO: I am so sorry that you're feeling down. Do something special for yourself. My guilty pleasure are mani-pedi's

SWepka: 11 eggs is amazing. I would have put back all 3 of mine.

Parayinforbabies: I totally missed your loss I am so so sorry

Michelle: Sounds horrible what you're going through. Atleast they caught it early enough. Stay strong.

DrS: Youre posts ALWAYS make me smile in one way or another

Tworude: Congrats on your sticky bean. Great news!

MrsC: I think you're doing an amazing job and I appreciate you.

Ash: I can totally relate to what you were feeling yesterday. None the less we got to have faith and these ladies give me that. We all have bad days. Please don't leave!

Everyone else: Happy Thursday! lol

Having said all of that, My husband and I have decided to give it one more go. Yep you heard right. We have an appointment with our RE/FS tomorrow to even discuss donor egg options. I am thrilled. Worried. Concerned about finances. You name it!
We both were trying to pretend like we were fine without another try..lol

So here we go again! I really need you all I am scared to death!

Prayers and Blessings to everyone,
~Angie

Thank you!

I'm so glad you guys are going to give it another go. I know there is so much to think about when it comes to going to donor route and also finances but everything will work out. We are all here for you! I look forward to hearing how the appointment goes.

 

[BabyOnMyOwn]

Angie... I'm meeting with my RE today to discuss donor egg options. I am feeling very similar!

 

[MoBaby]

yay for 11 eggs swep!!

Never: Glad you are trying again. It will happen!!! Maybe they can switch protocols??

AFM: Had my WTH appt with RE today. He said just what I thought he was going to say. I asked if additional testing was necessary for me and he said no as he doesnt think it has anything to do with anything else. He said my uterus is no cause for concern. It could be a hormonal imbalance causing these things not to implant which is where the FET comes into play. He went over all the cycles with me and said everything has been pefect (except the part where I dont take home a baby). He could sense that I was a little annoyed (he said I feel like there is something you want to say) and I HATE I was that way but I had to be that way in order not to cry in front of him again. I didnt want to cry and I didnt. DH wasnt there with me as I went right after work (I work in the same building). I did get caught off guard when he said he only wanted to transfer 1 embryo. Yep, just 1!! He told me its ultimately my choice as we could do 2, 3 or 4 which would probably result in a small crop of children and would be bad (and I would never do more than 2), but he strongly recommends only 1. He said my situation is a little different now. (Yay I am in the multiple failed IVF category now, sigh). He went over all the risk of multiples, which is increased in a patient with a unicornuate uterus. I dont know how I feel about this right now. I have to try to absorb what he said because I have been soooo focused on transferring 2 that I haven't stopped to think about just 1. I told him I would let him know soon (but how do I do that when I never get to talk to him on the phone?? I dont want to tell the nurse!!!). DH is on board with 1. I have had my heart set on twins and maybe thats the problem. He said there is a high chance that if 2 take and I start to miscarry 1 then both would be gone and he does not want to see this happen. I asked him what happens if I transfer all 4 and we dont have a baby?? He said he didnt like to think that because he believes that one of those 4 will be our take home baby but he started talking about what to do briefly and it was to much to take in. So he said he is being very optimistic right now and I should be to. I am trying to be and I am glad he is hopeful. He asked if I needed a break, and I dont. I would be more of a basket case if I had to wait! (And I may have to if miss AF doesnt cooporate)!

 

[michelle01]

Thanks for the info MrsC with the cyst! It is good to know and I certainly do not want it if/when I get pg. I hope that yours isn't causing you any more pain or issues.

DrS - I never even thought about that the fluid may be caused by the current cyst that is draining. The pain is still there and hopefully in the next day or so it goes away.

Never - I am glad you are giving it another try; that is great. We are all here for you.

Swepa - Yay on 11 eggs

BOMO - Good luck with your appt!

Ash - Definitely check out that other thread. I was on lupron on my first cycle and it took like 7 or 8 days before my AF started and it was more like a normal flow, if I can remember. I am glad you get to continue even if you do not get AF.

Mobaby - Hopefully you have a little time to decide how many you want to transfer; you should think about all the pros and cons and do what you and DH feels right.


I talked to the nurse; she said to give it a few days, if the pain is worse or not better they can rescan me. She thinks it may be related to ovulation since I am mid-cycle. Let's hope it goes away by the weekend!

 

[MrsC8776]

Angie... I'm meeting with my RE today to discuss donor egg options. I am feeling very similar!

Good luck today! Please let us know how it goes.

yay for 11 eggs swep!!

Never: Glad you are trying again. It will happen!!! Maybe they can switch protocols??

AFM: Had my WTH appt with RE today. He said just what I thought he was going to say. I asked if additional testing was necessary for me and he said no as he doesnt think it has anything to do with anything else. He said my uterus is no cause for concern. It could be a hormonal imbalance causing these things not to implant which is where the FET comes into play. He went over all the cycles with me and said everything has been pefect (except the part where I dont take home a baby). He could sense that I was a little annoyed (he said I feel like there is something you want to say) and I HATE I was that way but I had to be that way in order not to cry in front of him again. I didnt want to cry and I didnt. DH wasnt there with me as I went right after work (I work in the same building). I did get caught off guard when he said he only wanted to transfer 1 embryo. Yep, just 1!! He told me its ultimately my choice as we could do 2, 3 or 4 which would probably result in a small crop of children and would be bad (and I would never do more than 2), but he strongly recommends only 1. He said my situation is a little different now. (Yay I am in the multiple failed IVF category now, sigh). He went over all the risk of multiples, which is increased in a patient with a unicornuate uterus. I dont know how I feel about this right now. I have to try to absorb what he said because I have been soooo focused on transferring 2 that I haven't stopped to think about just 1. I told him I would let him know soon (but how do I do that when I never get to talk to him on the phone?? I dont want to tell the nurse!!!). DH is on board with 1. I have had my heart set on twins and maybe thats the problem. He said there is a high chance that if 2 take and I start to miscarry 1 then both would be gone and he does not want to see this happen. I asked him what happens if I transfer all 4 and we dont have a baby?? He said he didnt like to think that because he believes that one of those 4 will be our take home baby but he started talking about what to do briefly and it was to much to take in. So he said he is being very optimistic right now and I should be to. I am trying to be and I am glad he is hopeful. He asked if I needed a break, and I dont. I would be more of a basket case if I had to wait! (And I may have to if miss AF doesnt cooporate)!

Sounds like a lot to take in. I'm glad that you went in there ready to tell him how you feel. They need to know how you are feeling and know you are fighting for this. Maybe it is the hormones that is causing the little ones not to implant. Even if it is it doesn't make it any easier. I really hope that this FET is going to be it for you and you can save the other 3 for siblings. I know you will get your take home baby very soon. I can't wait to see your bfp! Come on AF show up so things can get started!!

Thanks for the info MrsC with the cyst! It is good to know and I certainly do not want it if/when I get pg. I hope that yours isn't causing you any more pain or issues.

DrS - I never even thought about that the fluid may be caused by the current cyst that is draining. The pain is still there and hopefully in the next day or so it goes away.

Never - I am glad you are giving it another try; that is great. We are all here for you.

Swepa - Yay on 11 eggs

BOMO - Good luck with your appt!

Ash - Definitely check out that other thread. I was on lupron on my first cycle and it took like 7 or 8 days before my AF started and it was more like a normal flow, if I can remember. I am glad you get to continue even if you do not get AF.

Mobaby - Hopefully you have a little time to decide how many you want to transfer; you should think about all the pros and cons and do what you and DH feels right.


I talked to the nurse; she said to give it a few days, if the pain is worse or not better they can rescan me. She thinks it may be related to ovulation since I am mid-cycle. Let's hope it goes away by the weekend!

No more pain for me but it did last a while. I could feel it up until a few weeks ago. Hopefully yours goes away within the next few days. I could see how it would be related to ovulation. FX!

 

[Swepakepa3]

Michelle: Best of luck to you!!

Never: i'm so happy your not throwing in the towel yet. I totally understand i might be in the same boat if this cycle doesn't take

MoBaby: go with your heart! try to stay positive (I know easier said then done) best of luck!

 

[wantbabysoon]

So today was the most horrific experience of my life...
I was at work getting ready to leave for lunch with my colleagues... I get up and felt something coming out from down there and rushed to the restroom... And to my horror... it was a gush of blood that had soaked my underwear and pants within the walk from my desk to the bathroom.... Needless to say I panicked... I just picked up my car keys and just started to drive home.. I called my doctor for an emergency ultrasound.. My husband rushed home as well.... We had the ultrasound some time ago and the baby is doing fine but the doctor thinks that the other sac which stopped developing couple weeks back is starting to shed... I still have bleeding but it is nothing like what it was this afternoon...
I am still nervous since for about an hour I had thought it was all over... Thank God the bean is doing ok!! But until this bleeding stops I am going to continue worrying.
I will do personals later.... Just going to put my feet up and rest for a while.

 

[MrsC8776]

So today was the most horrific experience of my life...
I was at work getting ready to leave for lunch with my colleagues... I get up and felt something coming out from down there and rushed to the restroom... And to my horror... it was a gush of blood that had soaked my underwear and pants within the walk from my desk to the bathroom.... Needless to say I panicked... I just picked up my car keys and just started to drive home.. I called my doctor for an emergency ultrasound.. My husband rushed home as well.... We had the ultrasound some time ago and the baby is doing fine but the doctor thinks that the other sac which stopped developing couple weeks back is starting to shed... I still have bleeding but it is nothing like what it was this afternoon...
I am still nervous since for about an hour I had thought it was all over... Thank God the bean is doing ok!! But until this bleeding stops I am going to continue worrying.
I will do personals later.... Just going to put my feet up and rest for a while.

So sorry you had that scare. I hope everything continues to be ok. Thinking of you. Just keep your feet up and get some rest.

 

[Swepakepa3]

Want: so sorry to hear about your scare, I'm glad that the little bean is ok.... Take it easy and keep us posted

 

[drsquid]

want- *hugs * how scary. glad to hear your bean is doing ok in there,

 

[Jenn76]

Michelle: Sorry to hear about your pain from the cyst, my cousin went through that too. Her doctor left it as is and told her it wouldn't interfere with her getting pregnant. I have dermoids ones in my two ovaries, they aren't painful though. I was able to complete IVF with them. I hope they don't delay your cycle.

Prayin: I'm glad you are still fighting, and I pray that you get your BFP soon. Are you doing another cycle?

Swepakepa: 11 is fantastic! Congrats! Are you doing a 3 day or 5 day transfer?

Two: Sorry to hear you weren't feeling well during your scan I know how that feels you want to be excited but you feel like crap. I had a reaaaalllly bad headache at my last one and I could barely focus. This should pass soon. This will be your forever baby!

Angie: I am so glad you are trying again! I was really sad when you said you were done. Everything is crossed for you.

Mobaby: Go for two, if you are ok with twins. My RE really tried to push for one too, but my thought was if I did that and it didn't work I would totally regret it. Not to mention the cost of the failed cycle. FX that AF cooperates. Good luck!

MrsC: You are the glue that holds this thread together, we all appreciate all the work you do here to keep the front page up-to-date.

Ash: When you posted your update yesterday you didn't give people time to respond it was only an hour later that you said you were leaving. Many of us didn't even see your post since we were at work. I would have replied to say that I hope AF arrives soon. You don't post in here everyday like many of us do and when you do you don't comment on all of us. You never commented once to me when I was stimming and got my BFP. I have commented on many of your posts, and you've never thanked me for my comments.

This is a busy thread and nobody should take to heart lack of responses to posts, we've all missed things. It is hard to do personals for everyone. I know that this process is hard and we all go through hormonal changes with this. I read through several posts in here and I don't agree that you haven't been supported. Many of us have commented on your posts. I'm sorry you feel this way I know that nobody in hear meant to make you feel unsupported. This is by far the best form in here, I've been in many others reading and I never see as many personals and support as this one has.

 

[ashknowsbest]

Jenn - I wasn't here when you were stiming ... when I joined you had just gotten your bfp but okay.

Want - so sorry you had that scare