July 2014 IVF Buddies

[Emmi]

Ahhhh Lizzie - I miss you on the other forum! I was chatting to you before all the others arrived. Some people just come on and just talk about themselves and I don't care for that but us old timers are really supportive. So please come and say hello!!!

Sorry that your situation at work is not great. Does your line manager know that you are going through IVF?
Yes - it is about minimising stress and anxiety so I really do hope that you find a way. Big hugs to you Honey!!

Oh and yes - am an emotional mess - the mixture of drugs, high hopes and hormones makes for a very weepy Becky!!!!

xxx

 

[lizzie78]

thanks Becky I'll definitely pop in and it's nice to know I'm not the only one already going around the twist!

My line manager knew about the IVF but has just gone off on long term sick (yesterday) and I'm expected to step up and deputise as head of department. Not brilliant at the best of times as I already have a stressful senior role. I'm meeting with my Director next week to discuss. I don't know him well as he has just replaced my previous Director so I'm not sure how to play things. I think I'll wait and see how the conversation goes but it's probably best that I tell him about the treatment and just hope that he can be understanding provided that I step up the rest of the time.

Sorry everyone else, banging on about me today, think I needed to get the worry 'off my chest'. Hope you are all ok too.

xxx

 

[Emmi]

Well that's good you have a meeting with your Director. I am sure that IVF is treated as a medical procedure so they really should be sympathetic to your needs. But I can understand the worry of it all - it's important that you are able to put yourself first without any unnecessary stress so see what can be sorted.

And it's good to share on these forums or else your hubby gets the brunt of it which can be difficult! I am so emotional at the moment with the 'what if's' and hubby can't listen to that especially after he has dealt with a whole load of needy students - he is a Fine Art Lecturer.

So care, share and rant away!

xxxx

 

[haleiwamama]

Hi ladies, may I join in?

Im currently on birth control pills so technically my ivf cycle started in June, but my transfer wont be until (probably) July.. Anyone else started already?

I'll be on the Ganirelix protocol.. not sure I know what that means yet and I dont have a real schedule yet... but very excited to finally have some real hopes about a BFP!!

 

[lizzie78]

Hi Haleiwamama of course you can join! My EC won't be until July either

Emmi - thank you. Little ray of hope on the horizon with a request from my ex director (via a 3rd pty) to call him as he has a job for me if I want it so I'm going to call him in the morning and find out more about it.

 

[amy8686]

Hey Haleiwamama! My ER will be mid-July too. Just birth control for now.

Lizzie - my next appointment is next week on Friday, my trial transfer with hysteroscopy. I'm dreading it... I don't do well with speculums and apparently I have a difficult cervix. But the end is in sight, at least, which makes it a bit easier to tolerate these things.

Turns out I'll need to travel while taking Lupron. Those of you who have taken it before: is it easy? On my injectibles IUI cycle, I had my husband do all of my injections so I could just look the other way and pretend it wasn't happening. I'm going to have to be a big girl and learn to do it myself!

Lizzie, good luck with the work stuff! At least being busy might make the time go quicker? Hope you can find a way to de-stress in the meantime. And if you do figure out how to de-stress, please tell us how to do it.

 

[lizzie78]

Amy - glad that at least they know that you have a naughty cervix and are doing a trial although I don't blame you for not looking forwards to it! Not sure about the lupron but I am going to do my injections myself. I love my husband but the thought of him pawing me to pull off a plaster makes me nervous never mind coming at me with a needle and good intentions lol. I have my injection teach tomorrow.

Xxx

 

[Emmi]

Morning Ladies - how are we all today??

Hello to you haleiwamama - how wonderful to be living in Hawaii!

Amy - it's tough doing the injections if you have an issue with it but you will be surprised what you will do and overcome for something you really want.

Lizzie - how did your teach go?? The nurses are so lovely at Care - really hope that it was okay?
And fingers crossed with the possible new job - that would be just great!!!

xxx

 

[lizzie78]

Emmi - teach is in the morning big needle day tomorrow! Injection teach at 10 am, acupuncture at 4pm and first injection tomorrow night. Everything feels a little bit surreal right now!

How are you getting on with your injections and moods?

 

[Emmi]

Crikey - busy day for you tomorrow Honey!!! But in some ways - that's good - it will be fresh in your head and you will just have to get on with it.

Injections are fine for me- I don't mind needles and as I have love handles, they don't hurt at all. Am very emotional but I don't think that it's the burserelin, I am just so scared that it won't work......I am trying to be so positive but you can't help but feel - what if.

But gotta be in it to win it - so on we go!

Let us know how you get on Honey!!

xxx

 

[lizzie78]

Aww Emmi, that's just made me want to give you a big hug. You do have to be in it to win it and I really hope it is all worth it this time for you. Will let you all know how I get on tomorrow xxx

 

[amy8686]

Emmi - I'm plagued by the what if's too. It's hard to feel optimistic, having been on the journey for so long. Also, I think I'm remaining not-overly-positive partially to protect myself from getting my hopes up and having them crushed. The most positive thing I consistently feel about this is that at least we're doing what we can, so I won't have regrets later. If I actually got pregnant, then hey, that would be a bonus.

In other news, which I'm celebrating today, my doctor decided that I will just do progesterone injections, no suppositories. I've heard that the PIO injections are tough, but I hate hate hate suppositories. Did I mention that I hate them? They were the most stressful part of my IUI (they caused me so much irritation that it became hard to get them in). So, I feel relieved about that. If this works and I need to continue progesterone into the 12th week of a pregnancy, we can reevaluate the options in case I don't want to do the injections that long.

 

[lizzie78]

Amy - that is good news, let's hope it's the first of more to come!

Emmi - how are you feeling today?

Afm, I did my first injection so feel relieved to have got that under my belt so that I can stop imaging in it to be worse than it actually is.

Hope everyone else is doing ok?

Xxx

 

[Plex]

Hiya all - been awol for a bit so just checking in with you all Not much to report here unfortunately - working all weekend nights and looking forward to starting! Jealous of you girls already injecting yourselves (Never though id say that! ) Anyways, sorry this is a rambling/brief post - im at work xx

 

[Emmi]

Amy - it's so hard isn't it.....Getting the balance of being really positive but knowing the absolute heartbreak when it doesn't....My hubby is so positive and sometimes you need that blind faith that it will work to keep you going. But it's such a difficult journey.

And great news about no suppositories!!! Yay to that!

Lizzie - you go girl!! It does get easier so woop woop to you!

Plex - you will be joining us real soon!

Am feeling okay today - just very bloated really!!! But I was out with the girls last night which really cheered me up. I have told one of the girls who I am close to about the IVF. I said I would drink cranberry juice but tell everyone that I was on vodka and cranberry juice. They were on wine so I was happy to get my own drinks.....Until they all got so sloshed and wondered why I looked so sober and started ordering me double vodkas!!!! So my poor friend had slyly neck my drinks and lets say the pot plants got an extra watering!!!!

My lovely friend was totally wasted by the end of night - I felt bloody awful!!!

xxx

 

[lizzie78]

Plex - lol I know what you mean, I was always desperate to get started and it is nice to feel like I'm finally doing something!

Emmi - ha ha that has made me chuckle imagining your friend having to drink your drinks as well as her own. That is a friend indeed, I wonder how she feels this morning!

Hope everyone else is ok on what is a miserable rainy day in the midlands here

Xxx

 

[Plex]

Amy - Im on the progesterone injections too with a progesterone tablet aswell, i had intense - cant sit down type - internal burning on the suppositories, like (tmi) all the skin was peeling off from my insides I hate injections but would rather inject than go through that again!

I know what you mean about not wanting to get your hopes up too much - its damned hard not to hope when all we want is for it to work! xx

Emmi - ur poor friend lolol she took one for the team good on her! How u getting on with the injections? xx

Lizzie - Funny i feel the same about injecting, its a kinda love hate thing ive got going on with it lol xx

Well I have a day and a half left till my biopsy - not looking forward to that! Especially as I feel like ill need more than just over the counter pain killers beforehand!

 

[lizzie78]

Plex - just wanted to wish you luck for your biopsy tomorrow. When will you have the results?

 

[Emmi]

Hello Ladies - hope that you are doing okay?? I have just watched the film Beaches - am in bits! Love love Bette Middler.

Crikey Plex - that sounds awful with the suppositories!! Yay to the injections. And yes - good luck with the biopsy. Really hope that all will be okay.

How's you Lizzie today?? What crazy weather we have today - 4 seasons in one day! How are the injections going???

Am on day 6 down regging - feeling really bloated but in general, I have no issues or side affects from the whole thing so on I go!

How are you doing Amy??

xxx

 

[amy8686]

Plex - Good luck with the biopsy!

Emmi - Ugh, bloating. I should be more thankful right now for the fact that I'm not bloated, because I know it's going to change soon. Glad you feel ok otherwise, though.

I'm increasingly anxious about my trial transfer / hysteroscopy Friday. I hope the Valium works really well, and I'll take ibuprofen too. My husband is driving me and we're both taking the day off, so I'm hoping it isn't too traumatic and we can enjoy the rest of the afternoon together. A long walk and dinner out, maybe. We've been having positively lovely weather here in Oregon... sorry to hear those of you in the UK haven't been so fortunate!