Thank you so much for your wishes and prayers!!!! I think they really helped.
That was a long and scary few hours- esp when he doc told me she was concerned to see so much blood. But the most wonderful news is that baby is ok- perfect heart rate, size and baby was moving all around for us to see. The lab tech (everyone at the hospital in fact) was so wonderful. I'd been crying before going down to radiology for the scan- and he knew how anxious and nervous my OH and I were- so after lots of checking and scanning (felt like forever but was prob 10-15 min) he said that he's not the doc so he's not supposed to tell us anything but that the bleeding was from a sub chorionic hematoma so everything is ok. Then he did some more scans of the baby so i could see and even took some 3D scans of the baby and gave them to us. Doc said that they will just need to monitor to keep an eye on things but that right now this is all ok.
Exhausted and utterly grateful, relieved and happy.
How do you explain the chaos of a hormonal meltdown to a man? He seems to think I would still possess presence of mind enough to tell him what he should do to help me.
I don't even know what would help me.
He then launched into a 10 min condescending lecture that if I'm aware that it's night or that I prefer to be sitting vs standing then I must be aware enough to know what I want because I made choices to sit or stand in a certain place. (Actual conversation).
Prior to this wisdom.... he was upset that I was crying and couldn't tell him what I needed or wanted which made me worse because I felt like a failure for not knowing the answer to simple questions. He got more upset and started to cry himself, dropped to his knees and begged me to tell him what to do.... so that set me off more. Now not only do I have to calm myself down but him as well?!?! Good grief. He eventually told me he doesn't want us to scream and yell all the time (which we don't...first melt down in a few days actually.... there was no yelling after my chat with him about the drinking) so he wants peace and quiet was the moral of his story..... he gets silent treatment instead.
Mature I know. But I'll lose it if I try and talk to him right now.
Yeah. Men suck.
He's 7 years older than me and I'm 30. I feel like he's 15 some days.
JJ I don't think they ever grow up.
PS sorry for the Debbie Downer me lately. I'm hungry but no appetite to eat. I have cravings for impossible things at impossible times. When I finally did eat today I lost it soon afterwards. I hope that isn't something that keeps up. My blood sugar would be so low if it weren't for the popsicles that stay down. I just want to eat normally again. I hope that happens soon. What worked yesterday won't work today... what I could tolerate stops being tolerable. I'm to the point where I eat according to what won't be so bad to be sick with. I don't throw it all up so I'm grateful for that but I know I'm not eating enough out of fear of losing it. Which is almost as bad. *sigh*
My healthy, amazing little one~ 12w 6d. I got the best present I could ever have yesterday when I found out she/he is ok.
Happy holidays to all of you!!!!!!!!!!
My healthy, amazing little one~ 12w 6d. I got the best present I could ever have yesterday when I found out she/he is ok.
Happy holidays to all of you!!!!!!!!!!
Awww he looks like he is flexing his muscles! So cute!
Congrats!
On a side note- Is anyone else having problems fitting in their undies? Mine are beginning to pinch.