Just when your getting yourself back to 'normal'! UPDATED

[sarahhoney]

Hi Ladies,

Right I was one of the very lucky girls who hasn't had a traumatic time with my m/c, so much so I actually haven't posted on here much as I feel a little guilty, in comparison to some of you ladies who really have been through the mill.

However today (3 weeks after scan to confirm miscarriage & 2 weeks after everything going through me naturally) I had to go to the hospital to confirm it had all left me because I'd chosen the natural route.

So I go, I pee in a pot and the test says I'm pregnant, apparently this isn't un-usual and I've had to have blood tests to confirm it now.

I'm really annoyed with my body! I just feel if its done.... let it be done, why does this need to carry on forever! Out of the whole process this is the one thing that has really bugged me, though I don't think having to go to the hospital where there are loads of babies and pregnant women and where my miscarrriage was confirmed helped!

More than anything I just wanted to vent and this seemed like the most appropriate way, did anyone else feel it was more about your body than your mind?

Also there is a small part of me that wonders if I'm pregnant again?! - silly part of me possibly best to ignore!!

UPDATE - Right the hospital have just called and my levels were higher than they should have been. So what do they say... take a pregnancy test in 2 weeks and give us a call back! Lovely of course I jump on line and find out it can take 6-8 weeks for the hormone levels to drop!!

 

[dizzynic]

Hi are the hospital checking your bloods again in 48 hrs? If so you would know for sure the answer to whether you are pregnant again or not it isnt impossible x

 

[sarahhoney]

Yeah depending on what these blood test results are thats what they would do. Don't get me wrong I would love to be pregnant again but its too soon and I would know WAY too early! My worry would be on overload!

 

[dizzynic]

I hope all goes well for you x

 

[susan_1981]

I had a MMC so I was angry that my body hadn't done it's job properly when I miscarried. I hate to say it like this, but I was carrying a dead baby for 5 weeks without any signs, no bleeding, no cramping, etc. I felt extremely angry, especially as I found out at my 12 week scan on 23 December. It ruined my xmas and I couldn't help but think if my body had done it's job properly, I could be pregnant again now.

I think it's completely natural. I'm over it all now and, like you, I didn't suffer too badly emotionally. It was more the thought of having to go through the first 12 weeks again and this potentially happening again. I had a positive pregnancy test for 2 weeks after my miscarriage so maybe you still aren't completely back to normal?

I hope you get things sorted soon.

 

[Jessa]

I feel like it very much is about my body as well. I'm having a difficult time moving on to the emotional healing because my body is still reeling from the physical part. First it was trying to miscarry naturally (which was excruciating), then getting over the D&C, and now it's trying to wrap my head around the fact that my milk came in and my breasts are leaking. I just wish that my body would hurry up and go back to normal physically so that I can start dealing with the loss better on an emotional level.

 

[BunMum]

I can totally sympathise with you girls. My hormones are still raised 6 weeks after a missed miscarriage and a D&C. I've had a molar pregnancy though so it can take a lot longer for my levels to reduce. I have to wait for at least 6 months before I can TTC again to check my levels have stayed normal. I feel that the emotional healing can't begin because I'm still dealing with my body getting over it all. I have weekly urine tests so I can't even try to push it to the back of my mind.

Take care and I hope your body and mind are healed very soon.

xxx