There is a complete lack of support here for pregnant ladies - I should have paid for private! So far this morning I had a lapse in judgement and decided to check my cervix. It was soft and a little shorter than the last time I felt so I simply called some places (such as the midwives at my f-ing hospital) for some advice. She sounded so bored and no joke said "I don't know, you shouldn't be able to reach your own cervix" and I said "well I can, is this a concern?" and she said "I don't know" and that was the end of the conversation... not "hrm, I don't know, I'll ask someone" or "I don't know, come in and we'll check" WTF. Then I called the hospital I work at and asked them; she sounded concerned and I had to keep pushing to get an answer and she said "well it varies". OK, so, it varies, WHEN? Ack! If something is changing, I want to catch it BEFORE it goes too far; how f-ing hard is it to get me checked by a professional; yes, I'm not suppose to be checking, so why can't they for me? If I was private, this wouldn't be a bloody problem. They'd LOVE to see me so they could charge more money. GAH!