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I've reached the point where I just need a friend, or someone to talk to, that understands what I'm going through.
My husband and I have been trying for almost 12 years now to have children. Rather "seriously" for about 6 or so I would say. I've done temping, suppliments, and the like. I was "officially" diagnosed last month with pcos but of course we kinda knew this the whole time.
I was put on metformin and I'll save you the story but it nearly killed me because I didn't react well to it. I had a blood pressure of 69/45 and a blood sugar of 69 the day they rushed me to the ER. (which was -2/16 and just happened to be my husband's birthday so... yeah happy birthday to him )
Then to top it off my husband has been tested twice now. The first time half of the sperm was dead and the motility was 2+ (moving but not in a straight line). Now he got retested and his counts and all that were normal but the motility went down to 1+ (they move but they really don't go anywhere).
Honestly I (we) feel crushed at this point. My husband is now active duty Navy and we don't have the money to go for ivf or the like. Adoption is an option but (and I hate to say it) a last resort for us. The last time we considered adoption we were foster parents and they took the child from us (simply because the lawyer didn't like us) and that just crushed us.
Now I have an appointment for March 1st to go back to my doctor and we're probably going to do clomid. (my doctor is a jerk fyi) I'm terrified my stupid body is going to have another fit. Oh and the metformin threw me into a constant period for awhile, but it seems to have stopped. Unlike a lot of pcos women I still have periods, granted they are on average 35 days and not always best. I used to have constant periods, but the past two years I have been more "normal".
All my hormones are normal except my fsh to lh ratios which makes me even more confused. My doctor simply says "oh you're for sure pcos". I've seen my ultrasound so I can believe it. 42 and 35 follicles.
I dunno I guess at this point I really just need people to talk to. I've reached that point where I cry, feel like a failure, cry some more, and repeat. My husband and I just stood in the kitchen last night crying our eyes out after talking about it all. Everyone I know either has children (whether they wanted to or not) or have no desire for them. Well that an family members, but I'm sure we all understand how awkward that gets.
My husband and I have been trying for almost 12 years now to have children. Rather "seriously" for about 6 or so I would say. I've done temping, suppliments, and the like. I was "officially" diagnosed last month with pcos but of course we kinda knew this the whole time.
I was put on metformin and I'll save you the story but it nearly killed me because I didn't react well to it. I had a blood pressure of 69/45 and a blood sugar of 69 the day they rushed me to the ER. (which was -2/16 and just happened to be my husband's birthday so... yeah happy birthday to him )
Then to top it off my husband has been tested twice now. The first time half of the sperm was dead and the motility was 2+ (moving but not in a straight line). Now he got retested and his counts and all that were normal but the motility went down to 1+ (they move but they really don't go anywhere).
Honestly I (we) feel crushed at this point. My husband is now active duty Navy and we don't have the money to go for ivf or the like. Adoption is an option but (and I hate to say it) a last resort for us. The last time we considered adoption we were foster parents and they took the child from us (simply because the lawyer didn't like us) and that just crushed us.
Now I have an appointment for March 1st to go back to my doctor and we're probably going to do clomid. (my doctor is a jerk fyi) I'm terrified my stupid body is going to have another fit. Oh and the metformin threw me into a constant period for awhile, but it seems to have stopped. Unlike a lot of pcos women I still have periods, granted they are on average 35 days and not always best. I used to have constant periods, but the past two years I have been more "normal".
All my hormones are normal except my fsh to lh ratios which makes me even more confused. My doctor simply says "oh you're for sure pcos". I've seen my ultrasound so I can believe it. 42 and 35 follicles.
I dunno I guess at this point I really just need people to talk to. I've reached that point where I cry, feel like a failure, cry some more, and repeat. My husband and I just stood in the kitchen last night crying our eyes out after talking about it all. Everyone I know either has children (whether they wanted to or not) or have no desire for them. Well that an family members, but I'm sure we all understand how awkward that gets.