So we have been home for about a month..well a month exactly today..yippe! But its been a long time coming and it has not been without it's up's and down's. Down's being that its very hard to SLEEP, not that I am complaining but Kyle is the one losing out the most. I stay up with Lakai till his last feeding is done at 1:30 am and then we go to what is called "bed" but mostly Lakai and Kyle sleep while I have on my new found mom ears, so I'm half awake and half not really asleep. Lakai is a noisy sleeper and when he isn't I start to freak out a little, wondering why he is so quiet. He typically sleeps from 1:30 am to about 4:30 am where Kyle gets up and takes him to the couch, where they both sleep..cute!
He eats every 3 hours after that, so basically there is 1.5 hours between each feed where we can do things. So not much gets done if it's just one of us awake. Kyle is still working from home which is an utter blessing while trying to sort out how to sleep. I am secretly dreading him going back to work full time. But I know sooner or later he will have too.
Oh how your life changes after a baby...I swore it wouldn't happen to us, but it did. There is NO time for 'us' anymore, we cannot have a date night or do anything alone together. Either because we are too tired or because there is no one else to help us. No one else knows how to run the feeding pump, and frankly neither of us know who we would even ask if there was someone to ask. But at some point we will need to figure something out because we can't just let our relationship dwindle otherwise Lakai will suffer if his parents cant get along! NOT to say we are fighting, we aren't remotely...but if you have no alone time...its bound to happen!
I am not complaining just stating the facts, the facts of being new parents! Eye opener indeed.
Lakai has had a few appointments, one his Grandma took us too which was with his pedi and the rest his Grandpa Kraft drove us too..who is going to be our new Grandparent Taxi =) as my parents are no longer able too due to health reasons...get better soon!
All of his appointments have gone really well.
We also had a review with the At Home program lady, Laura and we were approved, which is good because they will cover the cost of all of Lakai's medical supplies and equipment until he is 18 should he need it. But its also disheartening since it means he has enough special care and possibly special needs enough to warrant it. So its happy and sad that we were approved. I know it only was approved due to the gtube, so its a short term thing. They are not saying long term he has special care needs.
And they are certainly not saying he is special needs...the future will tell that.
I am a little shocked that so many people cannot believe the amount of appointments he has, but you cannot walk away from being born at 24 weeks..and 4 months in the hospital to a get out of jail free card! There is follow-up and we are so thankful for it. Not all of it is bad (pokes, needles and tests) most of it is actually just seeing where Lakai is at developmentally.
I have learned in this short little time being home that everyone wants to know "will he be ok long term?", I will just answer it here once and for all....we won't know until he is older, and like this whole roller coaster...if he isn't "ok" we will deal with it like we have dealt with everything else. I dont believe you go through something like this and walk away flawlessly. There is always something, be it little or be it huge...there is something to conquer outside of the hospital.
But I can update this...
So far Lakai is showing off developmentally he is tracking along the developmental chart extremely well. And while so many people say/know and so do we, that every baby is different and they will do their own thing at their own pace. It is something that the doctors do follow so it's haWrd to just ignore!
Right now he is tracking, he will social smile but its very random (he likes when you play with his mouth, like put toys on his lip, touch his mouth..), he is doing mini sit ups, sucks his hands/fingers sometimes, following dangling toys, sometimes responds to sounds by moving his head towards them, trying out new sounds like ahhh and cooing, he can hold his head very still and at a 45 degree angle, he likes tummy time and really likes to do it while on my chest so he can look right at my face.
Plus other things that lack of sleep is causing me to forget...opps!
What else? Well I am now typing one handed...feeding time at our zoo.
Lakai's dog Nu was diagnosed with Stage 1 cancer but it sounds like they will just remove the three (so far) lumps and she may be ok...fingers crossed.
I must say lack of sleep, lack of me or couple time aside...being a Mom is awesome and so rewarding. Every day he does some thing new, something amazing. Some days I cannot believe we made it this far...it seems like the hospital stay was a dream.
Its pretty amazing to be some else's reason to stop crying, to smile, to cuddle and snuggle with.
I would rather never sleep again than miss a moment with him =)
He is 9lbs 10 ozs by the way!!!
I think for now thats it...especially since typing with one hand is rough =)
PS Wubbanubs....are the best things ever!