Laparoscopy next month nervous! Anyone else?

[Kelstar82]

Oh hunni i know its all so stressful .... In fact the worst thing ive ever had to face ..... Lots of hugs xxxxx

 

[Kelstar82]

I think my husband must think im nuts the whole thing is an emotional rollercoaster.... one minute im upbeat next minute i think the worlds against me xxx im 31 this year and just feel like its all passing me by so quickly just pray a miracle happens xxxx

 

[Lazydaisys]

Vp1228. If doc didn't want to damage your ovaries it might not be hopeless with regard to your eggs and ivf. Maybe they could stimulate and harvest your eggs still if its just the tube thats damaged. It's interesting he wants to protect them from further damage. Just a thought x

Its the ovaries that are covered in scar tissue. I am confused about how they will retrieve the eggs if scar tissue is covering my ovaries. Ugh so upset you guys idk what to do anymore because I didn't want to wait until I am in my 30s to have kids but it seems that's what's going to happen. We will not have money for IVF or even with financial help we can't afford it right now.

I've heard of drilling ovaries. My friend had that after lap investigation and now has two. Sorry you are feeling like this at he mo, there's nothing really to say its all just so unfair and shit but you will bounce back and it will happen just later than you planned. I'm nearly 34 if I ever get to have kids the teachers will mistake me for gran! Ha ha xx

 

[Lazydaisys]

I think my husband must think im nuts the whole thing is an emotional rollercoaster.... one minute im upbeat next minute i think the worlds against me xxx im 31 this year and just feel like its all passing me by so quickly just pray a miracle happens xxxx

I'm the same! One day I wake up feeling postive and ready to try everything and anything and make it happen the next day I'm crying and can't get myself together. Dh is like but we talked about it yesterday and you were fine! This is definitely an emotional rollercoaster. I honestly had know idea how hard this would be

 

[VP1228]

I think my DF is a very strong minded man because I cry everyday when I talk to him on the phone and when we are in person I cry even more. He tries to assure me that everything will be fine and that if the fertility specialist and the TCM doctor can't help me then we will adopt but I want a newborn baby not a toddler or teen. I know I sound selfish but I want to go through the diaper changes and the bottle feeding and see the first steps. I am so broken physically and mentally that I can barely get myself to be intimate with him and I think that is unfair. When will this be easy for us?

 

[Lazydaisys]

I don't know when it will get easier, it's really hard. Your df sounds supportive.
You don't sound selfish to me, I feel the same I think this process has brought out the worst in me though. I think it's ok to think about yourself it's your job to think about you and your feelings and communicate them.

However I have developed very bad jealously and envy towards pregnant people. I was joking to dh that I think I need hypnotising to take these thoughts away! X

 

[VP1228]

My jealousy of pregnant women has gotten so bad that when my pregnant friend asks me how am I doing I say okay and do not start a conversation with her like I used to. I envy people that get abortions because there are so many people that can't get pregnant (us) but they get pregnant and kill the baby like it was the baby fault they got pregnant. God I just want to adopt a baby now like right now someone just leave a baby on my doorstep ugh

 

[Kelstar82]

Baby envy is unreal at the moment with me just waiting for a member of the family to announce their pregnant and i know im going to crumble xxx thats nice your partner is understanding ... My husband has had enough i think im hardly allowed to mention it as he says im not being positive and negativity isnt going to help... Thats all true but ive only just found out fairly recently that my tubes are blocked and that ivf is only option its killing me inside tbh ..... Xxxx

 

[VP1228]

My fiance is supportive but he also does not want me to be negative about the whole situation. He keeps saying to think positive and that maybe the fertility specialist may have more options besides IVF (he didn't say IVF but I know what he meant lol). I am afraid that since my ovaries are covered that clomid may not help and that I will be hoping and praying that I can one day afford IVF and have a baby from my own body. I know this has nothing to do with what is going on with us but I just want to say that my fiance did a magnificent job helping me be intimate with him

 

[VP1228]

I go see the fertility specialist Monday, I am so nervous ladies I feel like crawling under a rock and staying there while he gives me the good or bad news.

 

[Lazydaisys]

I know the rock feeling. Hope you get some good news! Xx

 

[Kelstar82]

Well girls I can't quite believe it I am currently 8 weeks pregnant was in actual shock when doing the test..... Had to have a scan last week as there was an extremely high risk of ectopic pregnancy but nope baby is in the right place had midwife thurs to get bloods taken and going for scan next Thursday to monitor a cyst on my ovary (apparently common in early pregnancy!) I just wanted to say don't lose hope the laparoscopy has clearly worked for me and the dr was wrong .... My due date is estimated 13th March 2014 please don't lose hope we are over the moon x /)))

 

[CaliDreaming]

Wow great news! Congrats!!

 

[Lazydaisys]

Great news. Congrats. Did you suspect you were pregnant last week? Did you get your period? Details please xxx

 

[Kelstar82]

Hi thank you so much x my last period was the 30th May 10 days after lap & dye it came as normal but I was then due end of June.... Had the usual menstrual cramps and kept thinking I was starting my period but 5 days later it still wasn't there so I took a test and it was a BFP. Was in total shock and phoned the early pregnancy unit to schedule a scan had to wait another 2 weeks (18th July) as baby was to small for ultrasound and had to rule out ectopic as I had a lap done and to our surprise we saw its heart flickering the only symptom I had was cramps and my boobs were usually agony after ovulating but this time nothing but started to get sore the day period due .... Still can't believe it xxx

 

[Lazydaisys]

Sooooo glad you got your bfp. You deserve it s enjoy every second x

 

[Kelstar82]

Honestly still can't believe it ... Just please don't lose hope everyone it does happen xxxx lots of love xxx

 

[VP1228]

Congrats Kel! I can truly say I am really happy that you are pregnant! My doctor said I have no chance of getting pregnant on my own since bth of my ovaries are covered in scar tissue so he suggested IVF. Oh well at least I don't have to waste any more money on ovulation tests or anything of that nature. But I will not have 10,000 anytime soon. I have to have a HSG done to see if my tubes are open but I can't have that done if my insurance doesn't cover it because I don't have $800. I have no hope anymore I just work and come home and sleep or cry.