I know what you mean about being nervous to test. I wasn't tracking O very well this month, so I made the mistake of testing too early. It's definitely disappointing.
I am sorry you feel like giving up sometimes - I think that is a normal feeling that comes and goes for a lot of women. I'm glad you aren't giving up though, and I am praying that your month comes soon too! I'm sending good vibes, sticky baby dust, and positive thoughts your way!
TTC is emotionally exhausting, but luckily we have amazing women on here to ride the emotional roller coaster with!
That is good that you have an appointment with your OB/GYN on Monday! Will they test you then? I know every time I go in they do a urine pregnancy test. I'm praying that AF doesn't come for you and you find answers soon! It sounds like you have been feeling a little differently this month?! I think sometimes the "mild" symptoms can be a good thing!!
As for me, I am cycle day 37 right now. My cycles are usually 28-30 days, but I know I likely ovulated late this cycle. When I got pregnant and miscarried in January I didn't O until CD25, and didn't get my BFP until CD38. I am trying to hold out hope that maybe I will get another late BFP, but I really don't know
As for symptoms, my temps have been high (unfortunately I didn't start temping until half way through my cycle though). My areolae have been a little bigger and darker (off and on), and I have had off and on dull cramps. It really felt like AF was coming earlier this week, but that feeling has gone away. No other real symptoms. I've been waking up really early all week, which happened with my first pregnancy. It's not really a "symptom", but I am a heavy sleeper and almost always sleep in way past my alarm. Lol. I don't know...I'm going crazy. I just want to know one way or the other. Waiting is hard.
Good luck to you, once again, I truly hope this is your month!