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[kmpreston]

I'm not sure what I am going to do if I am not pregnant by May. My 4th was the due date and I was so excited because that is Star Wars Day and my hubby is a huge nerd and it would have been awesome to have that day as his/her birthday. And that is when Canada's mother's day is as well (well it's the second Sunday in May). So it would have been my first mama's day and my birthday is May 12 and I turn 38.

and that's only a month and a half away. It is amazing how time flies.

Time really does fly. I spend a lot of time thinking and planning about being pregnant again or wore, not being. My life is totally revolving around whether or not I will be pregnant/have a child by a certain event. For example
- I can't go to a family wedding in Cyprus in summer IF I'm pregnant (previously it was if I had just had a baby)
- IF I'm pregnant in April I can't go on rides at Disney (in September it was "if I get pregnant now I can't go to disney", in December it was "I'll be 20 weeks pregnant so I'll get loads of bump pics done with characters")
- don't give me A level on my teaching time table from September at work, what if I am pregnant and have to leave my classes mid year

The one that fills me with most dread is of course making it to my first babies due date in August and not being pregnant again. A definitely possibility. That and my friend having her baby in July and me still not being pregnant then - I didn't take the news of their pregnancy well, I haven't coped well with her constant whinging, I can't see me coping well with the baby once she's here (hope I surprise myself)

 

[kmpreston]

Wow I was chirpy yesterday...ha!

Feeling much less doom and gloom today!

 

[mrs.green2015]

So glad you're feeling better km. I think I've taken over for you. I'm super grumpy and just don't feel good.

 

[kmpreston]

So glad you're feeling better km. I think I've taken over for you. I'm super grumpy and just don't feel good.

What's wrong? By better I mean I'm not feeling insanely low, just normal level of fed up.

On an unrelated note your temps look promising

 

[Aayla]

That's good. Wish I could say the same. It's been a shit day from the time I woke up and nothing is making it better. I'm seeing birth announcements left right and center on my fb feed. I'd have to unfollow everyone to not see them.

I'm trying to find a new job but it's tough going. right now I am off for 2 weeks for medical reasons. But after that I will likely just go back to my 2 days a week. which isn't anything to live off of. We've been supplemented by employment insurance after I was laid off from a good paying job. But that ends in 2 weeks. I will be losing about $1000 a month if I don't get back to full time hours. so I'm stressed to the max.

My brother decided he's going to get married in Las Vegas. So now I have until August to try and save at least $2000. and then I have to take time off work to go. If I don't get full time work we can't afford to go.

 

[mrs.green2015]

Thanks on the temps! But they're in the pre-ov range. With completely negative OPKs all month so I'm sure it'll be an anovulatory cycle again.

I'm just negative and upset this weekend. I'm frustrated (which is normal) that we haven't gotten anywhere yet and we're officially lttc which I never thought we'd get to. But also sad that everyone around me is having kids or planning to shortly and everyone I know seems to be extremely fertile. They get pregnant on the first try or with missing one birth control pill!!

 

[kmpreston]

Thanks on the temps! But they're in the pre-ov range. With completely negative OPKs all month so I'm sure it'll be an anovulatory cycle again.

I'm just negative and upset this weekend. I'm frustrated (which is normal) that we haven't gotten anywhere yet and we're officially lttc which I never thought we'd get to. But also sad that everyone around me is having kids or planning to shortly and everyone I know seems to be extremely fertile. They get pregnant on the first try or with missing one birth control pill!!

Yep what you're feeling is definitely normal and exactly what I'm feeling. I was ltttc when I got my first BFP so even longer now. It's not a nice feeling with pregnancies and babies being born everywhere. I feel both your pain

Aalya that's a bummer about the job, I hope you find something soon. I'm lucky in that my job is very stable, stressful, but at least secure. One less thing to worry about. I'm pretty sure I couldn't cope in your position

 

[mrs.green2015]

Aayla- we must have posted at the same time I'm so sorry you have so much stress going on. I hope you get a new job soon!

 

[Aayla]

Aayla- we must have posted at the same time I'm so sorry you have so much stress going on. I hope you get a new job soon!

thanks. I have had that happen often on here. lol Sometimes I have conversations have gone for a page before I realize it. Then I'm like, what are they talking about? and it turn out I missed a post cause it was posted at the same time. lol so it's all good.

Thanks ladies. Sometimes it's just nice to know others feel my frustration and pain. It's why I don't think I could ever give this site up. Besides, I've begun to make friends that have crossed over into FB and near RL. I know I have people to visit if I ever get to the UK. and as sad as it can be to have so many move on I am so super happy they are getting their rainbows. and seeing the ultrasound pics and finding out gender is so exciting. Just waiting on my turn.

 

[kmpreston]

Aayla- we must have posted at the same time I'm so sorry you have so much stress going on. I hope you get a new job soon!

thanks. I have had that happen often on here. lol Sometimes I have conversations have gone for a page before I realize it. Then I'm like, what are they talking about? and it turn out I missed a post cause it was posted at the same time. lol so it's all good.

Thanks ladies. Sometimes it's just nice to know others feel my frustration and pain. It's why I don't think I could ever give this site up. Besides, I've begun to make friends that have crossed over into FB and near RL. I know I have people to visit if I ever get to the UK. and as sad as it can be to have so many move on I am so super happy they are getting their rainbows. and seeing the ultrasound pics and finding out gender is so exciting. Just waiting on my turn.

Ye I feel the same. It breaks my heart that I'm watching people move on but then it brings me hope and joy too. This site keeps me sane

All of the thread I started on here with, which was a charting one, have got pregnant now. In fact all but one of them has given birth. One had a loss, got pregnant again and just gave birth. And yet I feel like I haven't really moved on in 21 months

 

[mrs.green2015]

I know how you feel km. It's like I'm in the exact same position I was when i started this journey. But today in hopeful. In waiting for a call from the RE nurse to schedule out first appointment.

 

[Aayla]

Totally there. I have a thread that we all suffered a loss in august. Most are now pregnant. Many have been pregnant multiple times and suffered losses. I'm glad I haven't suffered so many losses in a row but at the same time I feel so stagnant.

 

[mrs.green2015]

Well ladies I have some good news. Our appointment with the Infertility specialist is next Thursday! I feel like we're finally getting somewhere.

Based on all the tests are possible problems are either hypo thyroid and blocked right tube.

 

[Aayla]

Yay for getting an appt.

Thyroid issues are huge in fertility and even the most minor deviation can cause miscarriages. I was only 2 points off and while it is classified as normal for everyday living and not classified as a problem it was enough I got put on synthroid by my fertility doc.

 

[mrs.green2015]

Aayla- can I ask what your tsh level was?

 

[Aayla]

My thyroid was at a 5. but I was told it should be at 2 or 3. I think. It was awhile ago and before i started looking up my results online. What the measurement was I can't recall.

 

[mrs.green2015]

Ok thanks! Mine came back like 3.7 and then two days later 3.4 I think. I'll know more in a little over a week!

 

[kmpreston]

So pleased that you are getting somewhere with your appointments. Hope it's just a blocked tube though!

 

[kmpreston]

I mean obviously I hope nothing is wrong but the tube thing seems to be pretty certain from your hsg

 

[mrs.green2015]

Km- I knew what you meant lol! I don't know what they'll do for a blocked tube? The doctor who did the procedure said they wouldn't do anything.