It's 5:23 am in the morning. Really can't go back to sleep.
Well, the toilet and I have become very good friends...
Although, I was pretty good yesterday it seems to go in waves, I read that when that happens its you usually getting sick on the days that your levels get higher. I don't know how much higher I can get though. At 6w 1d I was already at 90,000 LOL. However, my stomach is still touchy even on the days I'm not vomiting so can I can and cannot eat really just depends day by day. Right now I'm eating almonds and drinking some raspberry leaf tea (the box said it was safe during pregnancy). I figured almonds are good for you and probably won't come back up. LOL
There is a girl on my fb who said she was 12 weeks along and her doctors appt today they couldn't find the heartbeat. She said her dr was like "well, they can curl up so it can be hard to hear, lets get you in for an ultrasound on the 24th" Whhaaaaaaaaat?!!!!!!! Why wouldn't you get her in asap? So lame. Ya know, I am tempted to private message her encouraging her to get an earlier ultrasound, but this is her first pregnancy. I don't want to be the one to blow the whistle and probably scare her half to death, ya know?
Yesterday was my son's dance class. Totally spaced it. UGH.
Took Haylie shopping for some clothes yesterday. She got a CUTE outfit (man, it's SO darling!!) new capris for only $11.00 from this DARLING grey/hot pink shirt for $14 both from JCPenney. Got her a pair of new TOMS shoes and a pair of cute little girl earrings from Clarie's for her "back to school, first day of school outfit" today! Cute, right? Yeah, no. I logged in her school website this morning to what? ugh, find out her first day of 2nd grade doesn't start until NEXT Wednesday.
... I give up. Apparently my memory is shot. lol
DH and I started arguing last night when we went to bed. He informed me that he isn't sure if he wants to take the possible promotion + raise because we'd have to move about an hour south. (Coy, about 15 minutes past Provo). He rather would stay here in the SLC valley/ SLC county but I'm all for a 3.00 raise AND it's a little cheaper to live down there since it's not metro. And, if he started he probably would start in December and he's complaining because our lease isn't up until Feb, and we'd have to stay with his MIL (who doesn't live any farther, but not any CLOSER either) for a month or two while we try and buy a house down there. He isn't sure about gas and yadda yadda yadda. I say it'll be worth it in the end. Than, he tried to say it was MY fault we don't have extra spending money because I "pushed" him into buying a car and renting this apartment. First off, before we had two cars...we had one beater with a heater. I was always stranded at home with kids because I had no car. His credit is good, but has bad history so the only kind of car he could get was one that was 3 years or newer. As far as moving, I love my MIL but living her in basement (remodeled into an apartment, separate entrance) for a year wasn't fun. She would walk right in, it was really dark, hardly any windows... I was getting depressed sitting in dark all day because the lighting totally sucks down there.
We are not LDS Mormon, but my daughter feels terribly left out because A LOT of people here (it's the staple of the state..really). She has gotten the "Are you Mormon?" "No, but I'm Christian" "Oh..." and after that never invited to one single birthday party. She's only been invited to one girls house before, and that's only because I'm pretty sure my daughter invited herself by asking "can I go to your house?" AND because the girl is from a family that just moved here from Mexico. The ONLY one that spoke English was the girl. I know moving to Utah county (away from the metro) will only be worse, with honestly, only a handful of really small non LDS churches down there, and with the rest of the Utah County Valley/Canyons statistically being 95% LDS. I yelped at my husband that he either needs to suck it up and join the church (we were going to start going and joining but DH than stopped it after awhile) or he needed us to move away from the state. Haylie is wanting to join so she doesn't feel left out, and she's too young to know anything about theological differences between Mormonism and Orthodox Christianity.
Have you ever seen the show Big Love? The fundamentalist mormon (not mainstream) modern polygamist family? How about Sister Wives? Heh....
My husbands parents are now divorced, but he grew up in a plural family and had three moms. They were "modern" so you'd really never know. They went to the same church as "Sister Wives" are from. In fact, DH's grandpa, now deceased, used to be the prophet of the church that his family was from, and that "Sister Wives" are from. (No kidding). DH left the church when he was 17. And while it has VAST differences from the mainstream mormon/LDS church, they are similar in a lot of ways.
I don't know. Sorry for the rant. I just needed to talk to someone. LOL
....I am calling the doc....
OK! 
NUTS! 
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..... I am worried about you.... What does the second scan say? Why are you having fever and breathing problem? Sorry if I am ranting.....feeling so helpless....I wish I could be of some help
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Cant believe he is graduating already. It doesnt seem like he has been in there for like 3 weeks now. Time surely is flying. Speaking of time, I am already on cd14. I havent been really paying attention to my cycle at all. I just want to say that Im going to miss every last one of you. Im so glad that I have you women in my life going through my journey as well as letting me into your journeys. We have been through good times and bad and even whacky times 
