Lost9's Long Term Trying To Conceive Buddies <3

[Lost7]

Of course you can join! The more the merrier.
It sounds like you've been through a lot, and no one judges you Hun. We're in this together and we all want the same thing! X

 

[fairyy]

Lupinerainbow: oh hun you are trying for so long sweetie. Hope your journey comes to an end with beautiful BFP. The TTC struggle breaks my heart.

Jessie: welcome here hun.

Hope you all are doing fine.
I think I am over crying and being sad and all negative emotions. I don't think I can deal with TTC anymore. It's been only 3months of proper trying. But I tired on my own (kind of TTC without letting DH know) for almost two years. Tried to bd as close to ovulation. Tried opk, charting and timing BD accordingly plus tried to get DH in the mood. Now I don't think I can do it anymore though DH is now 100 per cent in for baby making.

I don't enjoy sex anymore. I just focus on end result. I want to have sex for sex only. Discussed with DH and he said how about NTNP for two months and then TTC. But honestly I want to give up. I mean I would like to have sex whenever we want to and not time anything. In March or May we are going to the doctor for help. I think we might need fertilty drug or IUI that is my last hope. We won't be going IVF.

I want to relax till then and focus on other things.

 

[jessieles]

Fairy
would you think about going for testing earlier than that? incase there is a reason for it all? Why would you not try IVF? ttc sucks!!

Hi lupinerainbow!

 

[Lost7]

fairyy - I know exactly what you mean sweetie. I really, honestly do! Crying and disappointment is all normal part and parcel of TTC, I can definitely vouch for that. I&#8217;m glad your DH is now 100% in for the baby making and I really hope he and us can support you into TTC again hun.
I know what you mean about sex. I have often found that difficult. Trying to enjoy it when TTC and babies are on your mind 24/7 and that&#8217;s all your focusing on. I think in a way, that&#8217;s why we are NTNP now, so I can regain my love and strength for our relationship, without &#8216;&#8217;just sex&#8217;&#8217; or &#8216;&#8217;baby dancing&#8217;&#8217; we need to Make love. We need to focus on us too! We&#8217;re all important here!

Maybe do what I&#8217;m doing and try a few months NTNP to regain your TTC strength that&#8217;s needed with such a stressful journey? Going to the doctor is definitely a good idea. Good luck.


Hope we're all okay ladies, I was in hospital until 1am last night!
Sorry it's been a little quiet on here, I couldn't really use my phone in the hospital.

 

[jessieles]

why were you at the hospital? hope all is ok xx

 

[fairyy]

Jessie: Had all the testing in April. Nothing seems wrong. But that was done in India. HSG was done here in October or November 2014.

So DH wants us to wait, be calm and be positive try for few months and then go for testing again. Honestly I am losing interest in TTC. So far we are thinking we might go to the extent of IUI. That might change and we may want IVF. But now not mentally ready.

Lost you are right. I need few months of break (true NTNP), then if I gather my strength back then will be back to TTC again. But for now giving up and leaving everything on God's timing.

 

[busytulip]

Wanted to pop in here as well. I'll be cheering you lovelies on.

 

[jessieles]

Fairy- I think you get to a point where you really have had enough, im now in fertile week and i feel so diff to usual. dh said las nite we need to bd and i was like aw really im not in the mood, and usually i lay afterwards for hours but after 10 mins i got up, ive lost all oomph in trying!

 

[Lost7]

Aww ladies!

Yeah, sorry. I was admitted into hospital for heavy . So much so, I could just sit on the toilet and it was like a tap.

Understandably I've been very unwell with it, light headed, dizzy, sickness, headache, heart palpitations, weakness and the usual stomach ache.
Having a CP only the month before the doctor I spoke to was concerned about 'retained tissue' which was causing the pain - especially since when I was on the toilet I felt 'pressure'. However, gyne who didn't even bother to come and see me just said it is a heavy and prescribed me some tablets, which seem to have very little effect.

No ultrasound or internal was done - I am kinda thankful for that mind!

Feeling much better now and bleeding has definitely eased compared to what it was!

I'm feeling really good with NTNP, It's what I need. We've given it our all for so long now and I'm feeling really relaxed. Not wondering about OPK's let along CM and HPT testing. I really don't care any more. I feel so much more relaxed now.

If we've had no luck with NTNP by January we'll actively start again but this way we can enjoy the next few months and Christmas without all the added stresses on top.

Hope you're all okay, I've been offline today - jewellery making!

 

[busytulip]

Praying you are feeling much better. NTNP sounds like a great plan, TTC gets very stressful long term.

 

[Lost7]

Absolutely, feeling less stressed now! If we're blessed we'd be over the moon, in the mean time less stressing is so much better to be living life with!

 

[Nurse1989]

Hey guys after reading your thread its made me really admire you all! I've been TTC for 19 months. I got pregnant in September last year but I miscarried at 5 weeks. For 19 months Ive always used an app on my phone that predicted ovulation so I tried to bd during my fertile time. Here the last 2 months Ive really started to pay attention and try harder. Last month I took prenatals every day quit smoking cigarettes ate healthier and tried to monitor my temps. When AF showed up yesterday I lost it...but reading this thread seeing you guys that have been trying longer than I have has given me some more hope.
I hope to keep in touch with you all.

 

[Lost7]

Nurse1989 - Hi hun! :wave: I&#8217;m really sorry you miscarried in September.
I&#8217;m sorry has arrived hun.
Which app are you using? Are you using OPK&#8217;s too?
I&#8217;ve only been trying for 12 months, with 3 losses too. I&#8217;m sorry you&#8217;ve been trying for 19 months, I really hope this is your rainbow cycle!

 

[Nurse1989]

Thank you Lost!
I just started using fertility friend last month to track my BBT. I also use My calender to track my periods so I can get an idea of when I need to BD. I ordered some OPK's off amazon and those should arrive on the 31st. Im excited to try those lol. Also today I made an appointment with the infertility clinic in my area but that appointment isnt until Oct. 2nd so I'll have one more cycle just in case I get to cancel it Have you ever gone to a specialist? Im curious to see what they do or if they just take my money lol.
I could not imagine having three losses. Im so sorry

 

[Lost7]

Yeah, I've been referred to a Fertility Specialist but the waiting list is 6+ months.

In total, I've lost 9 babies now. It is a painful experience, you miss them each and every day.

Good luck with this cycle, I'm around CD 8/9/10 ish lol. I'm really not trying this month, beauty of not trying and not preventing. In fact, I'm organising our next trip away, only 11ish sleeps now, exciting. Packing lots, buying lots

Makes a change buying camping gear, rather than wasting my money on OPK's and HPT's. I'm happy, relaxed and happy.

 

[busytulip]

Good luck with NTNP Lost

And spending money on camping gear sounds like loads of fun.

 

[Lost7]

Oh yes! Can't wait!

Hope you're all ok ladies x