Hello!
My name is Jill (27 years old) and I've been browsing these forums for about 5 years. Very useful for information and other peoples stories. I'm posting today because I have just about had enough of this TTC process, and we are moving into IVF upon my next day 1...Maybe....if I can make up my mind before then.
My husband and I are seemingly healthy people, not overweight or have any long term issues. At the start of TTCing back in 2009 we were hopeful like any couple, hopeful that it wouldn't happen immediately so we could have some "fun". UGH! After a year and a half we decided to sit down with an RE. We were given information that everything going on with me was fine, a little lower progesterone than they would like but nothing that would prevent a pregnancy from sustaining itself, and male factor was a lower than desired morphology, again nothing that would prevent pregnancy.
Fast forward another 2 years, we have now been TTCing for 3.5 years without luck. We both lost our insurance so there is no trip to the doctors until 5 years.
5 Years TTC we were able to see a new RE who did some repeat tests. We found out I have a thyroid issue, hypothyroidism specifically. We had my primary run some more tests to confirm and it turns out I've had Hashimotos this entire time. I am now currently on levothyroxin. My thyroid is currently very healthy, but I am still very much positive in thyroid antibodies. Skip ahead by 7 months or so, with 3 times repeated day 3 tests, 2 HSG tests, I have a blocked tube. They don't know why. I'm pretty positive I suffered an early miscarriage back in 2011, perhaps it was eptopic, causing a build up of scar tissue in the tube. After all is said and done, my FSH is 14.9, my LH is 3.2, my AMH is 0.0224 anf my AFC is less than 5, and ovarian assessment reports scored me a 3. Conclusion: I am suffering from a diminished ovarian reserve, which goes hand in hand with my 23-24 day cycles, down from 31 days 6 years earlier. Husband is working with well below average numbers across the board. He is currently seeing a urologist, will update when we have some information.
February of this year, I went in for Laparoscopic surgery to check for endo and to clear out my blocked tube. Endo free, tube is now clear. We are waiting to start IVF in April. I had to wait one full cycle before starting after surgery (I love my RE, hes awesome!). My period never came, and my husband and I were elated to have a our first ever positive pregnancy test mid April. Probably the happiest moment in my entire life. My OB was very accommodating with my requests for blood tests to ensure HCG was rising properly and early ultrasound, and I was lucky enough to get to see my baby at 6 weeks. Measured 6 weeks and 3 days. Unfortunately that was the last time I was going to see my child. We went for a repeat ultrasound to find a heart beat 10 days later, and found out that my baby had died shortly after my first ultrasound. We moved forward with a medically assisted miscarriage at what would have been almost 9 weeks. I am now almost 2 weeks post-miscarriage waiting on results from a chromosomal test.
My husband and I are kind of lost on what to do. I know with my diagnosiswe have thyroid antibodies to worry about, we do not have a significant chance of success with IVF, but we also have a much higher risk of miscarriage should it be successful. And I honestly don't think I could handle it again. I haven't even fully recovered from it yet. Half of me is ready to just go to IVF, and do whatever it takes, and the other half of me just can't bare the thought of losing another child.
Thoughts? Stories? Anything right now is greatly appreciated.
to you!!!!!!!!
