LTTTC #1 - Support Group *Please share your story

[Ella_Hopeful]

AF arrived today! Going to call the clinic tomorrow and ask if I can do a clomid cycle this month...

 

[pipilotta]

Sorry AF showed Ella, have you talked to your doctor about the clomid?

Lots to do at work, it will be a full on 4 weeks, and dh is out of town now. I hope I either ovulate early or late.

Hope everyone is doing ok.

 

[Ella_Hopeful]

Thanks pipi! Actually they won't let me take clomid this month.. they want me to wait another month!

 

[Myshelsong]

Hey Ladies, Well I am back and feeling better.

We have both decided we are still going to not "plan" this month at all. Going to relax and work on health and weight this month as well. Hubby is getting eye surgery this month and we both think it will be way to much stress.

This month went really well with the parents. I feel so much more relaxed than I have in a long long time and even though I am starting AF at this very minute, I am not even upset about it. Weird that that is even possible to not feel like crying when AF gets here!!!

Sorry to hear about everyones ups and downs. Ladies I am inspired by your positivity everyday. It is so hard to continuously see on the bright side, I am glad we can all support eachother in this journey.

 

[pbl_ge]

Hi Myshel! Great to hear from you, especially since it sounds like you're doing so well. Hope the relaxed approach works for you, and if not, at least it will be a nice break.

Ella, giving your body a month to recuperate seems like a good idea. I assume you'll still try a la natural? Hope you're doing okay.

Pipi, hope the timing works out for you!

Serenyx, all better now? Hope you're okay.

Flou, hope you caught the egg!

How's everyone else?

AFM, I'm waiting on AF, who should arrive tomorrow. I've had some really terrible days of hopelessness recently, in part because I've been in a whirlwind of pregnancy announcements. Third in a week came yesterday. I also read up on IVF stats for my age group and realized that cumulative success is only about 50%. It's been a rough few days. But the good news is that I'll be starting the IVF protocol by the end of the week.

Trying to stay hopeful ladies. You know what it's like!

 

[flou]

Sorry AF showed Ella.

Myshel welcome back!

Pbl sorry about all the pg announcements. It can definitely be tough when everyone around you is getting pg and your struggling. Good luck with IVF. Hopefully it will be your time soon!

Im 4 dpo today. Trying to relax through the tww. Its so difficult though!

How's everyone else doing?

 

[Ella_Hopeful]

My neighbor across the hall from me had a baby today, and my brother in law's baby is due any day now, so things are getting very baby related around here as well!!! Oh, and one my good friends looks about 5 months pg but hasn't told me yet - I guess she's trying to be sensitive...

I'm very happy for my neighbor because although she now has 4 kids, she did have fertility struggles for a quite a few years before her first was born. It's great to see she hasn't had problems with the others - there's hope for us all!

 

[pbl_ge]

Ella, that's a lot of babies! Sorry you're surrounded by all that.

Flou, hope this is your last TWW!

AF came for me today, so the IVF process is starting! Not much will happen for the next three weeks.

 

[pipilotta]

Wow, Pbl_ge, you have started ivf, how exciting!

 

[pbl_ge]

Wow, Pbl_ge, you have started ivf, how exciting!

It's a little hard to get excited about taking BCP, but at least it's starting! I just keep telling myself "one in three...one in three...one in three..."

 

[dovkav123]

when I hear that baby's are born everywhere but in not my home, I am upset. However; all these news motivates me to go forward with assisted conception and don't ever give up and quit on it... WE all doing everything in our powers and dr. powers to reach this goal and yes, we'll be mommies if not this cycle, than another one.
I'll not be like my sister,she quit her firtility treatments and she never had children.

pipi, I hope your O will delay this month and your DH will be back home

flou,
finger crossed for you this cycle!
pg_l,
don't be discouraged with a low IVF success. All those studies may not be accurate. So many variables,,, On the other hand, to conceive naturally you have 0%.
myshelsong,
I am soooo glad you are happier and feeling better!

Hello to all I missed.

I am going for ultrasound and bloodwork tomorrow and egg retrieval probably will be next week. I am taking maca root powder 1-2 gr a day, I have horrible headache.

 

[Myshelsong]

One in Three is great, much better than no chance at all my friend.

Dovkav I totally understand, It pains me when I see babies all over the place and I just cant have my own. I am trying not to let it get me down but how can it not?

Good luck on your egg retreival!!!

 

[pipilotta]

Pbl_ge, I guess it does not feel exciting if you are taking Bcp, but every day you are getting closer to egg collection, fertilising, transfer and I think with one in three you have a good chance of it being successful. Dovkav is right, your chances are shooting right up at the moment.

Myshel, welcome back from me too.

Dovkav, I hope you have a nice egg growing and they are able to get it this time.
Hope the headache goes away soon.

 

[dovkav123]

Update from a visit to RE
We found beautiful round follicle 18mm on my left side(last month was on the right).
I wish O'ed on right side one again. If there is any damage done to the ovary during a procedure at least I have one healthy, left one. I am happy anyways

Blood tests were great. My LH hasn't spyked yet.
HCG trigger shot on Saturday 11pm
Egg retrieval on Monday at 10am.

I realy feel this time we'll be lucky and an egg will be matured and ready to aspirate.

Also on the same chair my RE did a pap smear(cervical cancer screening). It was the most gentle one in the whole world!

I hope you're all enjoying a wonderful and warm weekend!

I called the pharmacy and order meds today, I want to avoid the stress we had last month.
I hope you're all enjoying a wonderful and warm weekend!

 

[pipilotta]

Dovkav, that's wonderful. Everything is planned for, so you can relax. I cross all my fingers for you, I so want to see a bfp in our group again.

It looks like I'm lucky and will o late this cycle, so we might still have a chance. But lots of stress and long hours at work, I hope that this doesn't affect my chances. I try to be positive though, listen to good music while at work. I will go for a long walk at the sea today, the bright spring sun is out, and it looks like a cold but wonderful clear day.

Wishing everyone a great weekend.

 

[Senny]

Hi all, Im finally here. My husband and I have been "not been careful" for 4 years now and NOTHING. We havent tried EVERY SINGLE month religiously due to thinngs like getting married, vacations etc. But the longer it goes on the more AF starts to upset me and today it KILLED ME.
I think I hit some kind of emotional wall today.
We have both been checked out and I have a minor defect with my lining but nothing major. Tried 3 rounds of Progesterone and now planning on moving to Clomid.
I am also making acupuncture appointments .

I have finally started telling people who Im close to whats going on. That for 4 years ALMOST every month Ive been disappointed.
Its such a mind game, thats the part I hate.
I build up all this hope each month and then get crushed with hopelessness.
The only time I feel relief from my obsessive brain is the weeks I KNOW Im not ovulating.
People say, "dont think about it" or "stop trying, thats when you get pregnant"
HOW THE HELL CAN I NOT THINK ABOUT IT
I know they are trying to help but sometimes I just need someone else to say
"IT SUCKS" I just need someone who understand that this roller coaster is hard and disappointing and thats it!
I have faith that it will happen for us but thats not the point, its just so upsetting EVERY month and I cant turn my brain off.

Anyone else feel this way?

 

[flou]

Hi Senny im sorry that you find yourself here. I think we can all identify with the disappointment month after month

Good luck with catching the egg pipi!

Good luck dovkav, hopefully this will be your bfp!

Im 8dpo and not many symptoms just the usual ones sore bbs and cm.

How's everyone else doing?

 

[StorkStalker]

Hi everyone...

I am returning to bnb after about 2 years where I couldn´t even come here anymore.. The pain was so much I became numb... I so wish none of us would have to be in a LTTTC situation..

My story short, is, got married at 25 and waited TC, which now I wish I didn´t but who´d knew... Then we began TTC and nothing happened, I began to worry at 6 mths.. I went to my obgyn at 11 mths TTC and he found a fibrome, but then I got a BFP that same month, unfortunately I mc at 7 wks... Then nothing, for 4 yrs, unexplained infertility, other than the fibrome.. Finally a RE decided to take the fibrome out last year.. Then I got a BFP last April but unfortunately it was an ectopic pg and had a left tube removal in an emergency surgery due to rupture... We began this month with our first IVF attempt and today I discovered I am in risk of OHSS so probably will have to cancel.. It is been so hard!! I can not bear another baby, one of my friends has had 4 babies (single pregnancies) since we first began TTC...

Anyway I know I do not need to explain the feeling of this road given to us.. I just wanted to share my story and know yours.. Hopefully we will all graduate from this LTTTC soon.. For me right now if this IVF is cancelled I think I will stop TTC altogether I am through and done for now.. But I always say that and then I´m back... Also I´m 33.. DH is 40.

Hugs to all..

 

[Ella_Hopeful]

My BIL and SIL just had a baby boy. I feel like such a jealous cow... I'm not even a drop happy for them, just crying my eyes out here... it's my DH's identical twin brother... and the baby is a boy... so it might look exactly like my DH... I'm scared to see pictures, it's just reminding me of what I haven't got...

I feel so bad for not being happy for them... I mean, I feel jealous that everything went so smoothly. She got preg. after only a few months TTC, no morning sickness, tiny neat baby bump, was totally happy and had an uneventful pregnancy, she even managed to keep going to fitness classes when she was in her 9th month! Then she gives birth on her due date, in a record breaking only a few hours of labor, even though it's her first, and the baby is perfect, dainty and small... to top it my BIL called my DH to say he was so worried about his wife being in labor and my DH had to give him support... really rubbed it in - to think about what we have to worry about.

And here I am after 2 m/cs in 2 yrs TTC and a bunch of clomid, and who knows what's to come?!

Sorry for rambling, being selfish and negative. I think I'll stay away from bnb until I feel better, you don't want my crazy lady rambling lol

 

[flou]

Ella. How you feel is perfectly normal. You probably feel guilty about feeling the way you do but allow yourself time to be angry and upset. Your bil and sil have been very lucky and people who do not understand the struggles others go through sometimes ca not comprehend what it feels like to lttc or mc. Take care and sending you strength to get through this time.