I found this forum yesterday afternoon, and I read posts all afternoon and evening. My husband and I just started ttc this past month. I am 30 (I know not high risk age yet), but I have always been concerned about my fertility due to several women in my family having issues in the past. Surprisingly, I tested positive several days ago and was over the moon! I took another test two days ago,and the line was lighter. Yesterday morning I woke up feeling crampy, and I started spotting not long after. Full blown bright red and clots came next along with a lot of abdomen and back pain. I am assuming this is a chemical (only because of internet research), but I have a physical scheduled this week where I can get more details. My husband was very excited to hear we were positive, but the loss has not been hard on him. I had a good cry yesterday, and he was very supportive...just not able to relate. I tried to explain to him that I have this constant reminder in the form of pain and blood, but I am happy to know that we are able to conceive. I know there are people who have been trying a lot longer, but we have been together almost nine years and were waiting for the right time. I am so ready now (almost obsessing.) It's been a really strange couple of days. I just knew something was different about two weeks ago and was waiting for AF. It never happened, so I tested when I was two days late. I have this side of me that feels like I'm being dramatic and making this all up, but I just know my body is not having a normal cycle, and I definitely had three bfp that got successively lighter over two days. What is happening now definitely feels different then a regular period. I am new to all of this, and everyone in both of our families have just had surprise pregnancies over the last ten years when they weren't even trying or ready to conceive. I am learning a lot through my research about ttc, but I would feel a little odd talking to these girls that it just seemed to take nothing to become parents. Reading the posts on this forum helped me feel so much less alone, and I would love to have this place as somewhere to have discussions with people who understand my emotions.
dont know why they just cant design something that says it clearer or is it just me lol 
and sorry for your loss
