Mamas or soon to be mamas who are morbidly obese, lets be buddies!

[jessicasmum]

Hi everyone! Hello Lily how are you? Been a while, too long to write out again so easier to read my new journal which is at the bottom of my signature.
I really hope you are well and the boys, are you still TTC #3 this month?

 

[hello_kitty]

Heather! I've been wondering where you've gone. Glad that you are back! How are things now? Unfortunately we are not ttc yet until feb of next year, the soonest. We have plans to visit DH's family. Tbh, I no longer have a baby fever tho, which makes me feel like it may be awhile til I am up to it.

Good luck with your ttc journey, though. It must be an exciting time!

 

[hello_kitty]

223.4 today. Its going down but still so frustrating. Whoever said "water weight" is no biggie? To me, its the culprit and hindering me from losing proper weight. Being as overweight as I am, every lb matters. I hate it being the same damn cycle (sorry for the language) every month. So I lose 5 lbs first 1-2 weeks, gain ALL of it back due to water weight the third week, and spend the 4th week losing the 5 lbs that I supposedly lost in the first place. By the end of the month, turns out I really didnt lose anything.

 

[hello_kitty]

223.2 today, so 0.2 down from yesterday. didnt meet my goal of being 222 but getting there.

 

[jessicasmum]

Heather! I've been wondering where you've gone. Glad that you are back! How are things now? Unfortunately we are not ttc yet until feb of next year, the soonest. We have plans to visit DH's family. Tbh, I no longer have a baby fever tho, which makes me feel like it may be awhile til I am up to it.

Good luck with your ttc journey, though. It must be an exciting time!

Thank you It's strange I don't feel the same baby fever like I did when TTC Jasmine, I obviously want another but I think maybe because Jasmine is still quite young and I still see her as a baby it doesn't feel the same, I'm still excited though do you think that's the same with you because jayden is still young and you have Zachary close in age too? Do you still think you will have 4?

 

[hello_kitty]

Heather! I've been wondering where you've gone. Glad that you are back! How are things now? Unfortunately we are not ttc yet until feb of next year, the soonest. We have plans to visit DH's family. Tbh, I no longer have a baby fever tho, which makes me feel like it may be awhile til I am up to it.

Good luck with your ttc journey, though. It must be an exciting time!

Thank you It's strange I don't feel the same baby fever like I did when TTC Jasmine, I obviously want another but I think maybe because Jasmine is still quite young and I still see her as a baby it doesn't feel the same, I'm still excited though do you think that's the same with you because jayden is still young and you have Zachary close in age too? Do you still think you will have 4?

Heather, I definitely think so. In our eyes, Jayden is still a baby (although Zachary was a big brother at his age), I guess the youngest child always have that affect on us. He's also small for his age, which makes him cute as a button. Zachary and Jayden being close in age definitely makes me feel more laid back and not rush the ttc. I am not as adamant about having 4 as I once was. We'll definitely have a third and see if I am still up to it. Now that these two are older, I am beginning to enjoy myself a bit more. While they keep each other occupied, I can sit an play a game on my phone or read when they both nap. Its also easier to go places with them being a bit older.

 

[hello_kitty]

Ugghh, yesterdays splurge caused me to gain weight today. So sad. Time to eat "healthy" for the rest of the day and tomorrow...heck, the rest of the week. I am so disappointed in myself. One of the reasons I agreed to hold off on ttc for a full year was to lose as much weight as I can and hopefully be in the normal range or at least close to it by my birthday in December.

Just really disappointed in myself. I feel like no amount of working out would offset the eating.

 

[hello_kitty]

Havent gained or lost anything since last time I posted. I havent been able to stick to my eating plan though, but glad I am not heavier. Af started yesterday or the other day. I have been having really weird af for the past 2 cycles, and this cycle it appears to be the same. Its mostly spotting/super light, where I dont even need to wear a pad. Not even a panty liner, but I do see it when I wipe. I've had a history of irregular periods where it would be missing for 3 months at a time, and was put on BC pills until I decided to conceive Zachary.

I dont want to be put on it again because last time when I got off, it resulted in a chemical pregnancy, but we'll see how it goes. At least I am still getting a period.

Zachary has been a motivation to me losing weight. He's always asking me to dance "Mommy, are you going to dance? I want you to dance to What Does the Fox Say." Its really sweet that he wants to see me dance.

 

[MommyCandice]

I am so down about my weight late but more or less have not even tried or tried to care. I was 255 this morning. I have not been this high since October!!!! I mean I have not been much less just fluxuating between 240 and 250 but this is seriously awful. Here we are 3 months into the new year and I am higher than the beginning.

I plan to buckle down and start getting more motivated. It doesnt help that af is here right now. I have to go for a colonoscopy on Monday so I am nervous about that and stressing over that and stressing over court coming up next month and I was also just diagnosed with Hidradenitis Supertivia. I know everything will get better once I buckle down.

Now that hubby just started working till later I am forced to actually make more meals instead of relying on him getting home and us having take out as the kids now need to eay before he gets home so I am hoping this will help.

It also is starting to get a bit warmer so I can hopefully break out the running shoes I got for Christmas and finally use them and walk with the little one. I felt so great while I was walking to. The thought even makes me happy.

Im just having a crappy time cuz I feel so depressed in the winter!!!

I hope you all are doing well!!!

 

[hello_kitty]

mommycandice, I totally get it. Winter is just awful. Fortunately, its warming up over here. Still raining, but its not cold. I have a gym membership, so I try to go whenever I can. For this past week, I havent been going because I am studying for a finals that is this Saturday. I think my lowest weight ever was 219.8, I weigh on average 223-224 now, so I gained 4-5 lbs. I feel like it could've easily gone up to 230 if it werent for the working out and drinking green tea.

I keep telling myself, if I love eating so much, least I can do is workout a bit to burn even a few hundred calories, otherwise I really am going to balloon. I honestly wanna try as best as I can before the summer because I remember how miserable I was the past few summers.

 

[hello_kitty]

Still 223.2 lb, ughhh, cant wait to lose more. I havent been able to hit the gym as of late because I have a final coming up this saturday, so been busy studying. Once Saturday is over, I will go back to the gym.

Going on a salad diet today...not by choice. Our fridge is empty except for some salads so eating that with 3 boiled eggs. Its kinda a cleanse for me. Hopefully will be able to see the numbers go down tomorrow.

 

[Eve]

I'm down 1.5lbs and weighed the day AF arrived so will weigh again after the weekend and see if there is any more difference.

 

[jessicasmum]

Hi lily how are things going? How's the family and dieting going? My dieting all over the place and I've not even weighed myself in ages, I'm making a stand though that tomorrow I'll weigh myself and start being serious about being healthy. I'm in the tww now so I need to get a weigh in before either AF (hopefully not ) or

 

[hello_kitty]

Eve- yay! Small, steady steps is the way to go!

Heather- Hopefully you get your bfp soon! Fingers crossed for you. My diet has gone downhill ever since I went on vacation almost a month ago. I havent been dieting nor active at all. I need to do something about this because I am gaining back all the weight that I lost. My heaviest was 235 and now I am back at 229...When will you be testing? Such an exciting time isnt it? Sometimes I miss holding a newborn but my hands are full right now. If you recall, I wanted all my kids close in age, and ideally I would like 4, but somehow, I am so happy with just these two. I am kind of scared of this content feeling, because I definitely want more but I am afraid if I am feel content it may be a very long time til I ttc again...like a few years.

 

[jessicasmum]

Thank you. I was going to leave testing until the 23rd April as my cycles have been anything between 30-37 days and the 23rd would put me a day late at 38 days. But I've used opk's this cycle and got a peak last Sunday morning so I'm guessing I ovulated Monday or early Tuesday the latest so was thinking of testing on the Wednesday 20th maybe if no AF. When do you normal wait to test? Do you wait until you are late?

What does you husband feel about if and when to have more children? I think because your 2 are close in age makes it a bit less feeling of wanting another as quick, like with me it's different because my 2 are so far apart in age.

It's so hard isn't it to get and keep the motivation for dieting. I'm heavier now than when I conceived jasmine and I was big enough then my dieting has been like going mad and losing too quickly as I'm always looking for a quick fix but I was talking with my husband and he was like we need to stop doing that and eat enough calories because it will never work.

 

[Eve]

Dropped 14lbs as of my last post but it wasn't from sunshine and rainbows Super bad gastro hit my daughter, then I had wisdom teeth removed and had a horrible healing time with that (still going through it and had a second procedure 3 weeks after initial extraction) so it's been a little rough.

FX for a BFP soon jessicasmum!

Thanks HK!

 

[jessicasmum]

Thank you Eve gosh you've had it rough, 14 pounds is a lot to lose.

 

[hello_kitty]

Poor Eve! I hope you get all better soon. 14 lbs really is a lot though, minus all the pain and discomfort, I think I would be pretty happy afterwards.

Heather! My fingers are crossed for you, I cant wait til you get your bfp! Its so exciting isnt it? Remember how last time we were pregnant months apart? I was really hoping we could be buddies again, but its just not time for me yet. I usually test at least 14 dpo, but for both pregnancies, it didnt show up until 17 dpo. Dh has been hinting at a longer wait. I think he feels content with just these two right now, but he did say he wants one more. To solve the big age gap dilema, he initiated waiting for another few years, when these two are around 6 (Jayden) and Zachary is 8 and then having 2 more back to back. It sounds reasonable and I wanted 4 to begin with, but I really miss having a newborn.

I try telling myself that the perfect time will come eventually. To just get pregnant because I miss having a newborn is kind of irrational, because the newborn/infant phase doesnt last long, and soon I'll miss it again. Its really a never ending cycle. There are some people I know who has 7-8 kids because they get baby fever again right after their kids turn 1...and I know I would never be able to afford or handle that many kids. Dh said the soonest that we could try is next year (based off my ticker) because visiting his parents is priority now, as soon as that is over with, and I really want to have another he wouldnt resist, although his ideal preference really is a few year's wait time.

 

[jessicasmum]

It's hard thing to decide isn't it, maybe when it gets closer to next year time your feelings will change. What age gaps are between yours and your hubby's brothers/sisters? Are they close together or spread out a bit?

I didn't test until 24dpo with Jasmine because my cycles were more all over the place and I wasn't using opk's then. With Jessica it was crazy as I don't know how many tests I went through but didn't get a positive until I was over 7 weeks pregnant, don't know if it was anything to do with start ttc straight away after coming off the pill.

Well I got my positive opk at 8 am in the morning so I could of actual ovulate that day so I'm 9dpo at the most today but was thinking I was 8dpo.

 

[MommyCandice]

Good luck on the testing.
I Have bad baby fever but I need to lose some weight before I consider it.

I have fallen off the earth in regards to losing weight. I have been rele stressed lately and have been comfort eating. I am up to 260 which is almost my highest.
I plan to start walking again next week and now that today is almost done I am feeling alot less stressed so I am hoping I can buckle down with eating better now