Aww Helen, I know its hard finding motivation. It was really hard for me too, especially when I was constantly weighing over 230 when I first started. Last week, when I finally got myself down to 229, I realized now is the time to start before it goes past 230 again.
After that cleaning period, I dont know I became a bit weird though, afraid to put anything into my mouth. I suddenly realized how unhealthy and overweight I currently am, I mean REALLY noticed it and all the complications that could come with it. Last time at my u/s the suspect that I have a fatty liver...and at this weight, I am at risk for diabetes and other problems. I keep thinking that if I keep this weight, I will die young before I even see my kids married...so really, I'd rather spend the next year trying to lose this weight than do nothing at all.
My plan is to to go to the gym 6 days a week, and strength training at least 5 days a week. I realized that on the days I go to the gym, I tend to lose the most weight. On the days that I am eating normal, I will try to do intermittent fasting. Which means eat 1 main meal, and then eat fruits and veggies for the rest of the day. There's also the traditional low carb diet...I will just try to mix it up. Yesterday was cheat day for me although I didnt go all out, but I am not weighing myself today because I dont want to get discouraged if there's a weight gain. Whatever I weigh today, hoping that by next monday I can get down to 222 lbs.