Alright, I woke up this morning all super excited with rainbows shooting out my bum and totally looking forward to reading what all of you ladies have said and I can't help but admit to you ladies that I am completely butt hurt over the things that I have read this morning. I am going to tell you all exactly how I feel and I'm going to lay it all on the table so that everyone knows where I am coming from.
When I first joined this thread I will admit, there was a lot more chatter with a lot more people and it has since then died down. There were a few women who I felt ignored my posts or responded to those who have been here longer than those who were new. I still feel that way at times. But there are also women who I have become very close with and I couldn't imagine what my life would be like if I had never met you through this thread.
When trying to conceive I didn't really have that much faith in my self I guess you could say because I miscarried again. So, I tried the low dose aspirin on a whim and rarely had sex with my frankenstein husband. But lucky us, we conceived. I shared my BFP with you ladies out of excitement. I wanted you guys to do the happy dance with me, and for those who hadn't gotten their BFP's I wanted to give you all hope that yours is just around the corner and when you do get it, and you all will, we will all be here for you jumping up and down and being just as excited for you as you were for us, if not more.
I feel that those who conceived earlier in the months and are farther along are sort of exempt from these recent posts and it's directed towards the women who are in early weeks of pregnancy. That may not have been what you were trying to imply, but that is what I got out of it, when I read it this morning. This completely hurts my feelings only because us ladies in early pregnancy are still at risk of miscarrying and I feel as though, now that we are pregnant we should join a pregnancy thread, but what if we miscarry? I hope that isn't the case with any of the ladies that are pregnant or become pregnant. I feel we should all be there for each other no matter where we are on our journey. We're all here to give each other advice and help each other out TOGETHER. No matter where you are in your journey, EVERYONE needs that positive feed back.
There are women who have kept their distance because they feel that people don't answer their posts. I understand this. I myself, try really hard to include everyone because I know how it feels to be ignored or feel like you're being ignored, but I will admit there are times that I miss someones post and I don't see what they said, BUT when I see that someone else posts about it I'm reminded and I try to respond as well. I really think that they shouldn't let that stop them from posting though. What they post could help a future viewer or someone who is already apart of the thread.
For example. This last week, I have had "naughty poopies" in the mornings. I never really posted much on the thread because I thought it was embarrassing. Needless to say, it really freaked me out! So, I PM Kanicky because I saw she had something similar. Turns out her situation then was just like mine now. It put my mind at rest and made me feel a lot better. If she had never posted that she had something like that in conversation with Army, I would have never known.
I have just thought that those who aren't posting are just busy or taking a break. I had no idea it was because they felt ignored. That saddens me even more. Because I'm sure no one on this thread was doing it intentionally. I understand this thread is about TTC or that is what it's supposed to be about, but come on ladies. We talk about far more things than TTC and being pregnant. This is a fast moving thread, but I enjoy reading all of it and hearing every update, even if it has to do with the not so TTC things.
In closing this I'm going to tell
you, the one reading this, whether you are posting, stalking, or just browsing, that you in some way or another have affected my life positivity and I thank you for that. I encourage you to post more and be apart of the bunch. Smile and laugh with us all rather than feeling like an outcast. Whether, you're towards the end of your pregnancy, in the middle, at the beginning, trying to conceive, or taking a break from trying, we all need each other and we're all here for each other. I'll never really be able to find words to express the gratitude and love that I have for each and every one of you, but just know that it's there and it does exist for you ALL!
