Hey everyone im still here, glad everyone is doing ok.
I have nothing really to report just wanted to stop by and say hi.
I freaked out the other night like really bad, i went out for a few drinks with a friend and she said lets pop to a friend of hers house she's pregnant so she didn't want to go out to the pub (ive met her once before that's it) so we take a bottle of wine for us. She proceeded to drink wine, and i was biting my lip so bad i thought i cant say anything in her own home but then she started smoking and i'd had a few glasses of wine and i flipped out, there were tears and insults the full shebang. I felt bad the next day, and told my friend to apoligise but im sorry but i think she's bang out of order, i did everything right, no drinking no smoking, took my vitamins everything that your supposed to do i did and i stopped everything i shouldnt' do and I lost my baby and she's smoking and drinking and she has 2 beautiful boys and one on the way, selfish, just plain selfish!
Im botter and twisted and i don't know how not to be.