Just thought I'd swing by and let everyone know how I am

I'm doing ok, it still feels a bit like it hasn't happened. His funeral has been arranged for the 24th, which gives relatives in Scotland time to come down if they want to.
My OH point blank refused to not be here for the funeral. We tried to get it arranged for tomorrow, but the crematorium was fully booked. He's managed to change his flights, but it has put a bit of a spanner in the works. He's flying out a week later, then flying to Thailand the same day as before, so he misses a week in Hong Kong

But he's managed to extend his Thailand stay by a week, so he'll still be gone for a whole month

I'm glad he'll be here for the funeral, but I feel guilty that its cost him £330

His insurance wouldn't cover it, because my Dad was already sick when he booked the trip. Which is a load of bullshit, because my dad has been seriously ill for 4 years!!!
Will be hard saying goodbye to him so soon after the funeral, but at least he'll be here for it I guess, and its better that it happened before he went, as it could easily have happened when he was already away.
We also found out that the hospital had decided his dialysis wasn't working, so there were going to stop his treatment, and would have had 6-8 days to live. So at least this way it was his decision when he went, and he wasn't scared. He just went to sleep and didn't wake up again
I had a bit of a scare on Valentines day too

Possible TMI!!
OH and I had some quite passionate sex, and when OH pulled out, his cum was slightly reddy brown tinted :s was quite worried about it, as he'd been on top for a while, and I worried he'd squashed my tummy. I had a little bit of pain that night, and didn't really feel very much movement all day yesterday. Had the odd flutter whilst OH and I were in the cinema, but nothing like the huge kicks I'd been feeling before. Decided if I woke up today and wasn't feeling right I'd ring the hospital, but bumpy has been moving around more again today

Still having to use panty liners though, as I have a lot more discharge than usual, and its still slightly tinted brown/red. It also smells quite periody? Do you thin I should contact the hospital, just to be on the safe side?