Babee- Aw I'll bet it feels great to reach such a significant milestone in your pregnancy. I pray you keep sailing nicely along.
Pad- Woo woo! Congrats! I hope and know your scan will be fantastic.
Iluv- I agree with MMM (I know late response) I have that uncomfortable feeling around this time as well (9 1/2 weeks), and it becomes even more prominent the further I get.
AFM- I agree with all of you ladies about making it past your personal milestone, and start feeling more confident. I am unfortunately not looking forward to 2nd tri that much because I am so terrified I will deliver early again... So my milestone is making it to 24 weeks with no hiccups! It seems so far away, but I just pray time keeps on going by fast for me... I can't wait until January (which coincidently is my B-day month
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We have our results finally from the pathologists, and just as we thought... she was a perfectly normal growing baby girl with NO problems. The doctor said that it is very unusual to give birth at 18 weeks with the baby still living. I had a live birth with her, and that is why I knew all along that she was fine... it was my stupid body that messed everything up. I am dealing with those feelings though, and I promise I do not fully blame myself anymore, but it will take some time for me to not blame myself at all.. It's only been 3 months since we lost her, and now we know she was our little strong angel. As far as being able to change the papers and Ern and all of that over to the girl's name, he said it will take a couple of months because the delivering doctor has to amend her death certificate, and blah blah blah. Fortunately, we don't have to do anything except wait so I feel better knowing that because I don;t know if I could have handled having to go to different places explaining the story over and over again. So we have a bit of closure for her now, and I feel more confident about this pregnancy because I know she was a healthy growing baby and I believe this one is too.
But I won't breathe again until I get to at least January. I was thinking of a way to celebrate her actual due date Dec. 5th, but am unsure what to do... Don't want to breakdown.
at your alarm! I actually feel quite refreshed this morning. Think my iron tablets are finally kicking in! Yey! 
those will be my famous last words :haha;
but at least I have some energy now. Just having some muesli and yoghurt for breakfast. I'm determined not to put in too much weight the time x
