Me again, so confused, think I may be in denial?

[TheNewWife]

I've been thinking about you. Please post after your scan so we can support you no matter what the outcome.

 

[Frippledip]

Oh sweetie I am so sorry you are going through this. I have no words but

 

[dan-o]

My scan is tomorrow morning now, not sure if I told you I moved it.
I'm looking forward to it in a way, for closure

I'll probably opt for the pills to try and induce a MC right after.
I decided I 100% don't want a D&C unless I have an incomplete MC.

I've dug out & washed all the old towels & I'm going to buy a waterproof sheet or something tomorrow. I've got all my sanitary pads in extra thick capacity all lined up too.
I'm told it will be bad *gulp*

Looks like I'm gong to have a rather unpleasant week coming up, ugh!

 

[dawny690]

will be thinking of you tomorrow hun, really hope you find closure or get a answer one way or the other lots of love and hun xx

 

[AP]

Dan-O i cant stress enough to drink plenty of water and keep painkillers to hand if you are allowed. xxxxxxx

 

[hopefulfor09]

Oh Dan-O. I have been thinking about you all weekend. I really wish I had some words of comfort for you but I'm afraid there aren't any....I think you are doing the right thing - you have to do what's best and what will help you come to terms with this. We are all here to support you....please post after your scan tomorrow. Big cyber hugs for you sweetie. You and DH are in my thoughts. How is he handling all of this?

I am so sorry you are going through this.

Hugs.

 

[TheNewWife]

 

[Rebaby]

I'll be thinking of you tomorrow

 

[Pippin]

Aww hon you sound like you are being very brave (sorry but I think you are) and I can't begin to express how much I hope this passes quickly for you. Just know that we are here for you and holding your hand all the way. As painful as it seems now, the closure you are after is a good thing. Good luck sweetheart. xxx

 

[lola]

thinking of you Dan-o, I think everyone understands your need for closure, I cannot imagine what you are going through, you are one brave lady

 

[babytots]

just came quickly onto here to see if you had posted and you have.

hunni you are not mad for wanting to have another scan just to make sure. after all you have been through with this pregnancy you need closure in your own mind and to know 100% in yourself that this is happening.otherwise that voice will eat away at you asking what if and it will tear you up inside.

when i had my mmc i went into denial too i kept telling myself but the baby was so perfect and was measuring correct for dates how can it not have a heartbeat and so i asked on the day of my erpc to have another scan to see for myself. at that one i just knew as the baby was measuring even smaller and had started to (and i hate this word but its the only word to decribe it) shrivel up and it wasnt moving just like at the first scan. even after the eprc there where times i had doubts and would ask myself what if that 2nd scan had got it wrong as well even though i had seen for myself it hadnt.

i'm sorry that you feel you cant go through with the eprc anymore i hope tomorow goes well as can be with the scan and i hope the medical management goes ok too. (though you know there is a tiny bit of me that is praying for a miracle for you tomorow).

and more coming your way my darling. know where i am if you need me ok! x

 

[dan-o]

Aww thanks guys

I'm about to leave now *gulp*

xxxxx

 

[Shazzy]

Wishing you the best.

 

[LoraLoo]

Thinking of you xxxxx

 

[toby2]

thinking of you today

 

[dawny690]

Thinking of you huni xx

 

[Schmelly]

Thinking of you and sending lots of

 

[babytots]

thinking of you sweetie! x

 

[dan-o]

Well I've just got back, what a miserable rainy day!

Baby dan-o has definitely gone

And to boot, we got a parking ticket

I had the same sonographer who did the scan which showed the HB before & she was really thorough. She even managed to show me a bit of tissue in the sac (remnants of baby dan-o )

I managed to hold it together & didn't cry I just asked loads & loads of questions.

The sac was a funny shape today, like a banana, which I'm told can indicate things are starting to droop & move a bit. The consultant reckons the MC will probably come within 2 weeks, which is a manageable time for me to wait.. I think.

I still have my ERPC slot booked for this friday, as the consultant didn't want to cancel it until the last minute (in case I changed my mind & do still want it) there's a 10 day waiting list at the mo.

I'm too far gone for the tablets now, they will only induce me if I stay in the hospital as the chances of a hemorrhage are too high.
I don't fancy that, I want babies, not a hystorectomy!!!!

All in all I'm OK now, I saw what I needed to see to feel 100% confident about whatever happens next. My next big hurdle is the MC itself, where I imagine all the emotions will flood out again

On a happier note, my OH bought me a Wii fit on the way home, to take my mind off waiting for it to happen.
Bless him, he might be quiet, but he must still be thinking about it

Over & out xx

 

[dawny690]

Awwwww huni im so sorry, your an amazing woman to stay so strong through all this we are all here to support you hun and I admire your strength and courage xx