NotNic, Im back, thanks for the invite!
Ok, so I am now over 1 week since my chemical. I gave myself the week to be sad and the entire week, I just kept comparing this week to last week. On saturday and sunday, the days I got BFPs last week, it was very sad, but last night, when i was scooting around the kitchen, making dinner, cleaning up and full of energy, I thought back to myself last Monday night lying in a ball on the sofa crying and hurting so much, barely able to lift my head.
So, last week is last week, I will never EVER for get the feelings that I had when I got the bfps and the excitement of the new life that we had created, nor will I ever forget how much it hurt when AF arrived, regardless of the positive tests. However, I now feel a little more at peace with it, I will never forget what would have been my April baby, but I am ready now to focus on a May baby and hope and pray that if I am lucky enough to get another bfp in September, that it will be a wee bean that will stick with all it's mite!