hey girls, how is everyone doing? can't believe the holidays are around the corner, not sure if thats a good or bad thing for me right now..
i had my first blood draw on wednesday, no one has called me about the results, and they never told me what they were to start with..i go to the dr on tues so maybe he'll have my pathology report and tell me about the blood work...i dont even want to know what my levels are, i think ill obsess over them =( i've been so depressed lately, i dont know if im more upset that i cant try right now, or more scared that i could need chemo and i keep thinking what if i die from this, stupid thing to think (i hope) but i cant help it, im so scared of all of this and its just the beginning...sorry to be such a downer, i've been reading all of these posts from the beginning and its the only thing that makes me feel better, just hearing all of your stories...i hope a year or so from now this will all be a memory, unfortunately not something you forget...