I know nothing we can say will truely ease your pain but just know it's not your fault and you arnt alone. I found that although sad certain music helped me heal some and I would just blare the music so loud and sing to the top of my lungs and cry at the same time. Here's a song that helped me and I hope it helps you sweetie.
https://youtu.be/VLuaGiu73jc
I do want to be honest, although time does heal your pain, I now am pregnant again and still think of what could have would had been if I was still pregnant with the last baby, but what keeps me strong is looking at my daughter knowing that if she wasn't born when she was, she wouldn't be the same child who I love more than life itself. That's the way I look at this, once this baby is born there will never be another child like it. Take care hunnie! We are all thinking of you