I am having such a hard time right now. I just don't know what to do. Bren is not a good sleeper. he will sleep for a few hours and then start thrashing around in and wake himself up. It is so frustrating. I have tried to swaddle him, and that pisses him off and he still wakes up fighting the swaddle. I have tried just holding him in his sleep, and that works for a bit, but he still keeps thrashing. It is like he is fighting something, and I just can't figure it out and I don't know what to do. I wonder if it is the reflux, but we have him on medicine and he sleeps on an incline. I really wonder if something is wrong. Is this normal baby behavior while sleeping? He is just a demanding baby. I have been attachment parenting my ass off. When he cries, I always respond as quickly as I can. I feed on demand. I let him comfort suck. I rock I bounce I swing...I do everything I can think of to comfort my child. Last night after he woke up, I nursed him back to sleep, twice and the third time he woke, I laid there shhhhing and patting and talking to him, trying to calm and settle him. Well he cried and cried and cried. It took over an hour to calm him after that, so the whole crying it out method, so won't work for me. He only escalates his crying. Laying him down when he is still wake but sleepy won't work because he immediatly starts crying. My mother is blaming me for his behavior, saying that is what I get for holding him all the time and catering to him. Well fuck, he is still little. She just don't get it as evidently I was the perfect easy baby who slept all night from 10 days old, she could lay me down with a few toys and I was happy. Well my son is just not like that. He likes to be held and entertained and gets bored and frustrated easily. Is it because he is a boy? I just don't know right now. I feel like there is no right way to parent, but there are a million wrong ways. I feel like I must be doing something wrong here. I do all I can to make sure I have a happy baby and he still cries. I know I am not the only one going throught this. I know he could be a much worse baby. I am just tired. I now dread any car journey as he HATES the car and just cries and cries in it. I have bought a car seat cover to make it softer and more comfy. I bought a mirror that has lights and plays music to entertain him. I bought a toy bar to play with. I bought a little roller blind for the window to help keep the sun off him. I have talked to him, I have ignored him. I have played every type of music from rock to rap to classical, I have even played an off station for the white noise. I have sang to him, made animal noises. Nothing works once he starts crying. Surely he will outgrow this. I told my Dh and my parents we won't be visiting them anytime soon as they live a 4 hour car journey from us,and I just can't take being in the car with him that long. If you have made it this far through my ramblings, bless you!