My Miracle Journey

[Godsjewel]

I don't think I've really seen my husband cry, but the other day he reached out his arms to hug me and I noticed he was tearing up. He told me he really wanted us to have a child together. I felt so bad and sometimes feel like it's my fault because of my endometriosis and whatever else is preventing me from sustaining a pregnancy. He had Taylor from a one night encounter and everything with him is perfect.

This journey isn't just about me and my desires, my husband and Taylor would love to expand our family as well.

Lord, you know our hearts and what's best for our family. I pray that you continually watch over us and give us your peace and comfort when we don't understand why things don't go the way we want them to. Thank you for having our best interest at heart.

I believe you forgot to add me to that list Sar!, you, your husband, taylor AND me too There's a real soft side to your hubby isn't there ? Do you both have similar personalities ?
Hey sar, our trip is booked for san fran! woo hooooo. If we're driving from LA to San Fran, San Jose is on it's way yeah? I am going to get a better indicator of our trip details. I will have that cup of tea with you sometime this century! lol

xxx

Wow Bec, your picture is gorgeous!!!

Yay!!! We definitely have to get together since you will be so close. San Francisco is only 30-40 minutes from me. Once you get the details, let me know and we can figure something out.

 

[xxx_faithful]

Ohhhh i would so love love love it if we could organise something !!! My mum actually prompted me this time (last time it was hubby) "Isn't your friend from that website, doesn't she live somewhere near where we are staying?" i dont think she knows just how big america is ha ha ha. But thankfully 30mins isnt far at all


xxx_faithful

 

[xxx_faithful]

Hmm i had the best image to upload for tonight but i cant seem to figure it out, how to upload an image as a url ! lol Ah well i'll just send some love instead *LOVEEEEEEEEE*

xoxoxo

 

[Godsjewel]

Hmm i had the best image to upload for tonight but i cant seem to figure it out, how to upload an image as a url ! lol Ah well i'll just send some love instead *LOVEEEEEEEEE*

xoxoxo

https://s11.postimg.org/9xn92i7bj/faith2.jpg

Had to try it out before I told you

1- Go to Postimage.org and upload the picture and click "upload It!"

2- Once uploaded it will say "Upload Completed"

3- There will be multiple codes to chose from. Copy to clipboard the one that says, "Thumbnail for Forums (1)" and paste it in the message.

That's all

 

[wristwatch24]

Thinking of you today and every day Sarah!

 

[Godsjewel]

Please pray for Taylor, she told me yesterday that she has been feeling sad and one of the reasons is because she wants me to have a baby so she can have a sibling.

Her birth mom, Adrianne, has a son who is 5 yrs old and Taylor wishes she could see him more often and have a relationship with him. His name is RJ and he lives with his father which is 2 hours away from us and we only get to see him every couple of months. Sadly, Adrianne doesn't take care of any of her children.

Tay came into my room last night and hugged me. I heard her start to cry and asked what was wrong. She rubbed my belly. I told her that I was sorry that things didn't go as planned and we just have to trust that God knows best. I also told her that God already blessed me with her and we need to be thankful for all that we have.

Taylor said, "It's unfair that Adrianne gets to have kids that she doesn't take care of and you're a good mom and you can't have any!". Honestly, that breaks my heart. It's like, don't you hear this God, don't you know this family longs to have a baby! Can't you grant this child's desire?

As of now, we are still waiting for the results from the fertility clinic on if the baby had chromosomal issues or not and when my period comes, we may give it our last shot, if insurance approves it.

Thank you all for your continued prayers for my family and I. Love you all

 

[No Doubt]

So sorry to hear this hun. That breaks my heart too. We think because they are young they don't know or don't fully understand, but kids are smart and know a lot more than we give them credit for. Pray for you and your family.

 

[xxx_faithful]

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Reading your post about Tay was really sad to hear i cried when she didn't say anything but rubbed your belly. She is more aware of whats happening then we assume. When will you find out about the results from your Dr and if #3 is optional?

XXXXXXXXXXX

 

[Godsjewel]

The results from the chromosome analysis came in today. I got a call from the Dr saying that there were chromosomal abnormalities and that's why the baby didn't make it

It made me sad and upset because I prayed and prayed daily that this baby wouldn't have any deformities or abnormalities. I just don't understand sometimes.

 

[uwa_amanda]

to you Sarah! Praying for you sis!

 

[SuperwomanTTC]

Praying for you Sarah

Psalm 126:4-6
And now, God, do it again—
bring rains to our drought-stricken lives
So those who planted their crops in despair
will shout hurrahs at the harvest,
So those who went off with heavy hearts
will come home laughing, with armloads of blessing.

 

[Godsjewel]

Hey ladies!!! Lawrence and I have talked and have decided to go ahead with our last chance at IVF. After the miscarriage and D&C, the Doctor said we would have to wait until my period came. Last time it took 5 weeks and I've read too many forums where some ladies it can take up to months to get their period back.

Well, 5 weeks will be on Monday and I just went to the bathroom and noticed I'm spotting, which means I will need to call the Doctor and let him know on the 1st cycle day. This also means that the cycle can start as soon as next week!!! I got super nervous when I saw the spotting. I wasn't even thinking about when I would start, I have been busy getting healthy and couponing

Please pray for me that I will feel God's peace and comfort through this.

 

[uwa_amanda]

Praying hard for you sis! The third time will be the charm!

 

[Alr83]

Praying for you Sarah!

 

[No Doubt]

Glad things are moving along. Good luck hun, praying for you!

 

[Regalpeas]

Hi! Read through your thread. Encouraged by your tenacity. Just wanted to say I am praying all goes well with IVF#3. Best wishes.

 

[wristwatch24]

I am praying with all I have that IVF #3 brings you your rainbow baby.

 

[Godsjewel]

Thank you all!!!

I went in yesterday for a baseline ultrasound and everything looks like it's suppose to. No cysts on my ovaries or polyps in my uterus My blood work came back good as well, so last night was the first night I started the stimulation medications. I can't believe how quick this happened.

We had to get this 3rd cycle in right away since hubby's insurance will no longer cover the cycles starting in January. We are very blessed to be able to do it again and I'm so grateful that my body bounced back and I got my period so fast after the miscarriage. We are doing a different protocol this time, as in we didn't do a month of birth control or Lupron, we went straight from my period into the stimulation meds.

Really, really praying this is it!

 

[QueenKingfish]

Praying this is it for you guys, Sarah!

 

[PrincessBree]

Praying for you hun xxxxxx