My Miracle Journey

[SuperwomanTTC]

Sarah I know that pushing things back 2-4 weeks isn't going to be the easiest thing mentally or emotionally, but thankfully you only have to wait because they are making things as healthy as possible for the ivf procedure. I'm praying that you are surrounded with love, covered in peace, and blessed abundantly during the wait. Love you!

 

[BSelck24]

They didn't find polyps, but extra uterine lining that was growing. If I were to go through ivf with the lining like this, the embryo could implant in it and might shed and I would lose the baby.

I have to have a hysteroscopy to have the extra lining that is protruding taken out. This will push back my ivf cycle 2-4 weeks. Yay! More waiting

Stay strong gurl... The doctors are just making that uterus the perfect home for your babies to come!! Keep us updated and good luck

 

[VGibs]

Well I'm glad it isn't polyps. I had a friend who underwent IVF right after a hysteroscopy because she lost her first IVF baby to a massive blood clot. And when they went in they realized that the tissue that was growing in her uterus was the reason she had so many miscarriages and the reason her first IVF didn't implant properly. They told her that the tissue being gone gave her an incredible chance that the IVF would work that time and she had TRIPLETS! lol Two girls *Heaven and Miracle* and a baby boy *John*. They are very busy 3 year olds now. So maybe this little waiting period is God's way of asking you to be patient so he can have someone fix up your uterus for a baby.

 

[Godsjewel]

Well I'm glad it isn't polyps. I had a friend who underwent IVF right after a hysteroscopy because she lost her first IVF baby to a massive blood clot. And when they went in they realized that the tissue that was growing in her uterus was the reason she had so many miscarriages and the reason her first IVF didn't implant properly. They told her that the tissue being gone gave her an incredible chance that the IVF would work that time and she had TRIPLETS! lol Two girls *Heaven and Miracle* and a baby boy *John*. They are very busy 3 year olds now. So maybe this little waiting period is God's way of asking you to be patient so he can have someone fix up your uterus for a baby.

Awesome! thanks for sharing that with me hun

 

[Godsjewel]

Going in for my hysteroscopy tomorrow. Looking forward to moving along in this process.

I will update you when I get a chance.

Love you all dearly and am blessed to have such a wonderful support system

 

[Kuawen]

 

[No Doubt]

Hey hun, just checking to see how things went.

 

[Godsjewel]

I was still very tired from the anesthesia when the dr came in to talk to me, but I did hear him say there were a lot of polyps he took out and I need to boost my iron because I have become anemic ever since I was pregnant and it got worse with all the bleeding I had from the miscarriage D&C.

The normal iron levels for women are 12-16 gm/dl, mine was 8.4. He wants me to wait a couple if months to recover and get my iron back up before starting a new cycle. We don't have much time since my husband's insurance will cover 2 more tries this year and we need to make sure we get them in before December. My husband told the dr this and he said he doesn't feel comfortable with us starting so soon, but will discuss this with us at my post op appt on Monday. Sad thing is I just found out my regular fertility dr just retired this week and he understood our situation. This other dr who did my procedure is great as well, but I'm just hoping that he hops in board with our schedule.

Ultimately I leave it in God's hands, because His plans for me are perfect.

 

[Godsjewel]

The nurse told me to buy Floradix, it's a liquid iron and she said from experience it helped her iron levels come up quickly.

I have ordered it and it should arrive tomorrow. Please pray that the Dr's will be amazed the next time they check my iron levels.

Lord, I know you can do the impossible. Please touch my body and let everything get back to normal, from my iron levels to the healing of my uterus. In your precious name I pray...AMEN!

 

[SuperwomanTTC]

I'm praying for and with you that God will touch you from the crown of your head to the soles of your feet and make everything what HE needs it to be for this process to go swiftly and smoothly! Father God show yourself to be a healer, show yourself to be a provider, show yourself to be a protector, show yourself to be a comforter; show yourself to be the God that can do exceedingly and abundantly beyond all that we ask or think! Amen!

I thought of you all day at work. I was looking at all the different iron supplements we give patients for anemia and I'm glad you ordered the Floradix. You definitely need a supplement because diet alone won't make changes fast enough. Be prepared for constipation though lol. Love you Sarah!

 

[wristwatch24]

Praying that the iron levels go back to normal quickly so you can go right into the next cycle. Also praying that the cycle is successful and you have a healthy, full-term baby in the end.

 

[Godsjewel]

Praying that the iron levels go back to normal quickly so you can go right into the next cycle. Also praying that the cycle is successful and you have a healthy, full-term baby in the end.

Thanks my dear

I sure hope this cycle is the one as well. I think my life book has enough chapters in it, it now needs a happy ending

You are almost ready to pop, aren't you? Is the baby's gender still a secret?

 

[Godsjewel]

I need some prayers...the past couple of days my heart has been saddened by the loss of my baby. I rub my tummy thinking I would be half way through my pregnancy right now and coming up with a cool way to announce the baby's gender.

It's definitely been hard knowing how far along I would be, seeing some maternity clothes hanging in the closest and stumbling upon my pregnancy journal. I look at those things and don't feel that faith I once had. I knew it was going to happen the first time and that's why I started to buy all those things. I'm nervous it won't work and sometimes think that all these stumbling blocks are subtle ways to let me know a child isn't in the plan for me

I just had to let this out...I know this is just my crazy emotions talking and probably the low iron...lol! I know I just have to keep pressing on.

Thank you Lord for the amazing women on this thread, that I can come in here and share my heart with them and know they don't judge me for how I feel during my low times, but are here to pray and help encourage me through your word. I ask that you touch every single person that is reading this message, that you will bless them over and abundantly. I love you Father and thank you for my BnB family. Amen

 

[SuperwomanTTC]

Sarah I'm sorry that you are experiencing this. Thank you for praying for us and feeling comfortable enough to tell us how you are feeling. The grieving process is a process. Some days will be better than others. At times you might think "I thought I was past this," but know that it is all normal. Cry, punch a pillow, scream, vent... Whatever you need to facilitate your healing process.

We love you and we're praying for you. Matthew 5:4 is actually the verse of the day on my Bible app. From The Message translation it reads "You’re blessed when you feel you’ve lost what is most dear to you. Only then can you be embraced by the One most dear to you." May you feel God's embrace stronger than ever and may your faith and joy be restored!

 

[VGibs]

Grieving a miscarriage is so hard and no one seems to understand it. It's also one of those things that no one ever talks about. Most people who have never experienced it think "Well you'll get over it when you finally have a baby." but it may not be that easy. I think having those sad days are totally normal and feeling the fear and the loss of faith is very normal. It's a broken promise. And I still don't understand why it happened to me, but I keep the idea in mind that I will again see my children. And I strive to be worthy of heaven so I can see them again.

 

[wristwatch24]

I need some prayers...the past couple of days my heart has been saddened by the loss of my baby. I rub my tummy thinking I would be half way through my pregnancy right now and coming up with a cool way to announce the baby's gender.

It's definitely been hard knowing how far along I would be, seeing some maternity clothes hanging in the closest and stumbling upon my pregnancy journal. I look at those things and don't feel that faith I once had. I knew it was going to happen the first time and that's why I started to buy all those things. I'm nervous it won't work and sometimes think that all these stumbling blocks are subtle ways to let me know a child isn't in the plan for me

I just had to let this out...I know this is just my crazy emotions talking and probably the low iron...lol! I know I just have to keep pressing on.

Thank you Lord for the amazing women on this thread, that I can come in here and share my heart with them and know they don't judge me for how I feel during my low times, but are here to pray and help encourage me through your word. I ask that you touch every single person that is reading this message, that you will bless them over and abundantly. I love you Father and thank you for my BnB family. Amen

It is a deeply emotional thing that has happened to you and you will have some sad days and some better days. It is all normal and part of the grieving process.

I think of you often and pray that you'll get your miracle. You are so deserving, and you're right, your book has so many chapters, now it's time for the happy ending.

Love love love.

 

[Godsjewel]

Today is my post op appt and cycle review. I had my procedure done on Wednesday and started cramping and bleeding on Saturday, yesterday and today. It's like a period, but I've been on the active birth control pills since June 15th. I'm kinda nervous because I have no clue where it could be coming from.

I will find out in about 3 hours. I pray that everything is ok and that I can get the green light to proceed with the 2nd cycle.

I will update you when I can.

 

[Alr83]

Praying everything goes well Sarah.

 

[Godsjewel]

Everything went great! The bleeding that I'm having is my period, which I thought was strange since I'm on the active birth control pills. Dr did an exam to make sure that's what it was, so that's good.

I will be starting up my 2nd cycle in a couple of weeks. The crazy thing is, I will know if it worked or not a day before my birthday. That makes me really nervous. I just have to keep trusting in God and His plan, even if it doesn't work out this time. But it would be an awesome birthday present

 

[uwa_amanda]

That would be a wonderful birthday present! My fingers are crossed and my prayers for you are being lifted!