My Miracle Journey

[Godsjewel]

"Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord, and in the power of his might. Put on the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil. For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.
"Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.
"Stand therefore, having your loins girt about with truth, and having on the breastplate of righteousness; and your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace; above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked. And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God: praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, and watching thereunto with all perseverance and supplication for all saints; and for me, that utterance may be given unto me, that I may open my mouth boldly, to make known the mystery of the gospel, for which I am an ambassador in bonds: that therein I may speak boldly, as I ought to speak.”
— Ephesians 6:10-20.

 

[markswife10]

Just seeing this, I am very very sorry for your loss Big big big hugs!!!!! May God comfort you in this. Your rainbow WILL come!

 

[Alr83]

Was praying for you & it occurred to me that I never asked if they are having you take progesterone and if they are then taking you off??

 

[Godsjewel]

Was praying for you & it occurred to me that I never asked if they are having you take progesterone and if they are then taking you off??

They had me stop the progesterone injections the day we lost the baby, which was on Oct 10th.

 

[wristwatch24]

My heart is still hurting for you, Sarah. I cannot imagine what you are going through, and it is completely understandable that your faith has shaken. I am always praying for you and think of you often.

 

[Alr83]

Was praying for you & it occurred to me that I never asked if they are having you take progesterone and if they are then taking you off??

They had me stop the progesterone injections the day we lost the baby, which was on Oct 10th.

Ok. was wondering if they were taking you off early and that was causing mc. I would say pretty positively that prog is the reason C is here and wasn't delivered really early. I had full on contractions starting at 16-18 wks, so my prog was upped to help keep them from doing anything.

Anyway, when you're ready to try again don't let them take you off until wks after 1st tri with your sweet rainbow baby...they could switch you to oral or suppository. And when you do come off, make sure they slowly wean you off. Better yet, would be them letting you stay on full term. A sudden drop in prog can cause mc as a normal cycle this drop is a signal for your body to start af.

Just my thoughts. Heard so many stories of ppl being taken off too soon or quickly.

Have you said, able to mc naturally this time?

Still praying for you.

I read other threads on bnb but really the only thing that keeps me coming back is you. You are so amazing and I can't wait to hear what amazing things God has in store for you!

 

[Godsjewel]

Was praying for you & it occurred to me that I never asked if they are having you take progesterone and if they are then taking you off??

They had me stop the progesterone injections the day we lost the baby, which was on Oct 10th.

Ok. was wondering if they were taking you off early and that was causing mc. I would say pretty positively that prog is the reason C is here and wasn't delivered really early. I had full on contractions starting at 16-18 wks, so my prog was upped to help keep them from doing anything.

Anyway, when you're ready to try again don't let them take you off until wks after 1st tri with your sweet rainbow baby...they could switch you to oral or suppository. And when you do come off, make sure they slowly wean you off. Better yet, would be them letting you stay on full term. A sudden drop in prog can cause mc as a normal cycle this drop is a signal for your body to start af.

Just my thoughts. Heard so many stories of ppl being taken off too soon or quickly.

Have you said, able to mc naturally this time?

Still praying for you.

I read other threads on bnb but really the only thing that keeps me coming back is you. You are so amazing and I can't wait to hear what amazing things God has in store for you!

They keep you on prog injections until 12 weeks and check your levels to make sure your body is continuing to make it on it's own.

"Have you said, able to mc naturally this time?" I was angry and was pretty much saying why did I have to pay money for 2 IVF cycles only to miscarry. If I was going to get pregnant and have this happen, why couldn't it of happened before spending thousands on treatments. Again, this was the bratty, angry, life's not fair girl coming out of me. Thankfully I'm getting better day by day.

 

[Alr83]

How are you doing Sarah?

 

[Godsjewel]

How are you doing Sarah?

I'm actually doing really well. I have my moments, especially because I'd be a month away from giving birth to my 1st angel, but other than thinking about that, I'm good.

There is nothing I have in my life that I can complain about, I'm really blessed. I have to keep my eyes on Jesus and not let what has happened to me in my past effect my future.

 

[Godsjewel]

TODAY’S SCRIPTURE

“Though the fig tree does not bud and there are no grapes on the vines, though the olive crop fails and the fields produce no food, though there are no sheep in the pen and no cattle in the stalls, yet I will rejoice in the LORD, I will be joyful in God my Savior.”
(Habakkuk 3:17–18, NIV)

TODAY’S WORD from Joel and Victoria

We all face challenges, difficulties and times when things don’t go our way. God doesn’t send these storms, but He will allow us to go through certain things in order to shape our character and prove our faith. Really, it’s in our times of difficulty that we grow and develop.

God wants to use the tough times in our lives to do a work in us. He wants to strengthen and develop us. Our attitude in times of adversity is the evidence of our maturity. Are we going to treat people right even when we’re being mistreated? Are we going to stay full of joy even when the bottom falls out? Are we going to be faithful even in the dry seasons of our lives when we don’t see anything good happening?

It may take more effort. You may have to work harder to keep a good attitude, but remember, attitude and faith in God is the key to your promotion. As you keep that positive attitude of faith and expectancy, even in times of adversity, God will deliver you and move you forward into the destiny He has prepared for you!

A PRAYER FOR TODAY

Father, I want to grow spiritually and be more like You. I choose to trust You in times of adversity knowing that You are working things out for my good. Renew a right attitude in me by Your Spirit in Jesus’ name. Amen.

 

[Godsjewel]

On our way home from a basketball game the other night, I was thinking to myself....when Tay grows up and has a family of her own, I won't be able to relate to her when she becomes pregnant. I wouldn't be able to tell her how it feels and what to expect in each trimester, I wouldn't be able to explain to her what a contraction feels like or express how I felt once the baby came into this world. That made me really sad

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[FutureMommie]

I've been away fro Bnb for a while and I logged in and see that you have suffered a loss and I'm sooooo sorry. But I want you to know that I logged in today out of frusturation to post in my journal, and I did that and then decided to come over and check on you, only to be blessed by something you posted after losing your babies. You reminded us that we need to bring God into remembrance of his word, and when we feel like complaining we instead need to say "but God you said!" You are such a strong and faithful person even in the midst of your losses, and not understanding exactly what God's plan is for you. I just want you to know that your journal blessed me today and let me know what I need to do; bring him in remememberance of HIS word.

 

[Godsjewel]

I've been away fro Bnb for a while and I logged in and see that you have suffered a loss and I'm sooooo sorry. But I want you to know that I logged in today out of frusturation to post in my journal, and I did that and then decided to come over and check on you, only to be blessed by something you posted after losing your babies. You reminded us that we need to bring God into remembrance of his word, and when we feel like complaining we instead need to say "but God you said!" You are such a strong and faithful person even in the midst of your losses, and not understanding exactly what God's plan is for you. I just want you to know that your journal blessed me today and let me know what I need to do; bring him in remememberance of HIS word.

Praise God!!! If my journey or what I've learned from it has touched anyone in any way, then my journey is not in vain.

It's not easy switching your complaining to speaking faith filled words, but when you do, it starts to lift your spirits and feels so good!

 

[Alr83]

On our way home from a basketball game the other night, I was thinking to myself....when Tay grows up and has a family of her own, I won't be able to relate to her when she becomes pregnant. I wouldn't be able to tell her how it feels and what to expect in each trimester, I wouldn't be able to explain to her what a contraction feels like or express how I felt once the baby came into this world. That made me really sad

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Aww, Sarah....i just want to give you a big hug.

Hang in there. God has a special plan. We just don't know what it is...but when we do we will see it is so much greater than we ever thought for ourselves. Our hurt, anger, sorrows, failures are prep toreally see the great in our path....they just don't make it easy.

 

[No Doubt]

So sorry to hear that hun. I know that's a hard thought to process, and I'm sure those are all things you want to know and feel just for yourself, let alone being able to relate to your daughter. But I refuse to believe that you will never experience this blessing. But even if you never experience this for yourself you will be able to tell her how special a child is from the simple fact that you have her. You will be able to tell her how special pregnancy is from the simple fact that you yourself had such a longing to have a being growing inside you. You will be able to support her and be there for her and go through it with her. A lady I work with who is very close to me was never able to have children herself due to severe endo, so her and her husband adopted. She said she didn't care how she got the baby as long as she got one. Her son now has 4 kids of his own and she believes that God planned for her to adopt him so she could be there for those 4 grandchildren. She said she feels so blessed that even though she was never able to carry a child she has these 4 wonderful grandchildren to love and cherish. Then when I was preggo she helped me with everything from picking out the furniture to my shower and the first person to visit us at home after we brought Virtue home, and she said she felt so blessed again because she has a son, and I was able to give her all those special moments a mother looks forward to doing when her daughter is pregnant. I say all of this to say not to discount yourself simply because you haven't experienced what Tay will. Even if you don't ever have a child yourself, you will be so much more than your currently realize and able to be there in such a way that you're not even thinking about right now. The experience will not be lost. But still, don't lose faith. No, things haven't worked out for you...yet...BUT GOD! Your story is not finished yet. God has finished the novel, but you have to keep reading to see what's in store.

 

[Godsjewel]

So sorry to hear that hun. I know that's a hard thought to process, and I'm sure those are all things you want to know and feel just for yourself, let alone being able to relate to your daughter. But I refuse to believe that you will never experience this blessing. But even if you never experience this for yourself you will be able to tell her how special a child is from the simple fact that you have her. You will be able to tell her how special pregnancy is from the simple fact that you yourself had such a longing to have a being growing inside you. You will be able to support her and be there for her and go through it with her. A lady I work with who is very close to me was never able to have children herself due to severe endo, so her and her husband adopted. She said she didn't care how she got the baby as long as she got one. Her son now has 4 kids of his own and she believes that God planned for her to adopt him so she could be there for those 4 grandchildren. She said she feels so blessed that even though she was never able to carry a child she has these 4 wonderful grandchildren to love and cherish. Then when I was preggo she helped me with everything from picking out the furniture to my shower and the first person to visit us at home after we brought Virtue home, and she said she felt so blessed again because she has a son, and I was able to give her all those special moments a mother looks forward to doing when her daughter is pregnant. I say all of this to say not to discount yourself simply because you haven't experienced what Tay will. Even if you don't ever have a child yourself, you will be so much more than your currently realize and able to be there in such a way that you're not even thinking about right now. The experience will not be lost. But still, don't lose faith. No, things haven't worked out for you...yet...BUT GOD! Your story is not finished yet. God has finished the novel, but you have to keep reading to see what's in store.

Wow!!! Thanks sweetheart

 

[Godsjewel]

I don't think I've really seen my husband cry, but the other day he reached out his arms to hug me and I noticed he was tearing up. He told me he really wanted us to have a child together. I felt so bad and sometimes feel like it's my fault because of my endometriosis and whatever else is preventing me from sustaining a pregnancy. He had Taylor from a one night encounter and everything with him is perfect.

This journey isn't just about me and my desires, my husband and Taylor would love to expand our family as well.

Lord, you know our hearts and what's best for our family. I pray that you continually watch over us and give us your peace and comfort when we don't understand why things don't go the way we want them to. Thank you for having our best interest at heart.

 

[uwa_amanda]

That's how I feel when I think about why we could never conceive. I wanted so bad to have a child with my husband and it never seemed to work out. It does make me sad at times because I wanted to have my husband's babies. to you and your family Sarah.

 

[xxx_faithful]

I don't think I've really seen my husband cry, but the other day he reached out his arms to hug me and I noticed he was tearing up. He told me he really wanted us to have a child together. I felt so bad and sometimes feel like it's my fault because of my endometriosis and whatever else is preventing me from sustaining a pregnancy. He had Taylor from a one night encounter and everything with him is perfect.

This journey isn't just about me and my desires, my husband and Taylor would love to expand our family as well.

Lord, you know our hearts and what's best for our family. I pray that you continually watch over us and give us your peace and comfort when we don't understand why things don't go the way we want them to. Thank you for having our best interest at heart.

I believe you forgot to add me to that list Sar!, you, your husband, taylor AND me too There's a real soft side to your hubby isn't there ? Do you both have similar personalities ?
Hey sar, our trip is booked for san fran! woo hooooo. If we're driving from LA to San Fran, San Jose is on it's way yeah? I am going to get a better indicator of our trip details. I will have that cup of tea with you sometime this century! lol

xxx

 

[Godsjewel]

That's how I feel when I think about why we could never conceive. I wanted so bad to have a child with my husband and it never seemed to work out. It does make me sad at times because I wanted to have my husband's babies. to you and your family Sarah.

You definitely know how I feel as you have been on this journey for many years as well. Just like "No Doubt" said, our story isn't finished yet. I pray for fireworks finale at the end of ours