Yay!!! only 4 1/2 hrs until my Dr appt....but who's counting
I think the Dr said he is going to measure my cervix today and hopefully we get another sneak peak at the babies. We listened to the heartbeats again last night, it's such an amazing experience. The thing I get excited about is that this is hubby's 1st time as well. He didn't know about Taylor until she was a month old, so he didn't experience any heartbeats, growing belly, ultrasounds and all the other wonderful stuff that comes along with pregnancy. It's nice that we have this 1st together
Plus it's pretty cool that Tay is old enough to understand what is happening. I can't believe she is already 11 and will be 12 a couple months after they are born. Since my Grandma was a fraternal twin, she had a brother, I kinda had it in the back of my head that I would have multiples one day. So a couple of years ago when Tay and I were talking about faith and how God knows what's best, I also said that maybe He was waiting until Tay was older because maybe I will have more than one and I need the help. I would of never guessed in a million years that there would be 3!
When I was pregnant in September with twins (Tay doesn't know about this pregnancy) she told me, wouldn't that be cool if you had triplets?!?!?! I was like girlfriend please, are you crazy?!?!?! I said why, you want one baby for each of us? lol! Then I said, maybe twins would be easier and she agreed.
It's funny to look back at my prayers and rants to God saying, "Lord...I'm just asking for 1 healthy baby, can't I just have that???" Then He probably laughed and thought....just you wait my dear, I have something spectacular in store for you.
People keep asking if I'm excited or how I feel and honestly, It's still surreal. I think the past miscarriages have put a shield against my heart to keep me from getting hurt. I don't know when it will become real, the sickness is real, the heartbeats are real and the little ones on the ultrasound screen are real, I pray that I don't waste one moment of this pregnancy falling back to the emotions of the past. I want to live in the now and right now I AM PREGNANT!!!
Thank you Lord for continually watching over us and being with us every step of the way. I pray for all of the ladies on this thread that have been such an encouragement to me, I ask that you give them a double blessing today. I also pray for any guests that come and read this thread, that you would touch them and allow them to feel your presence. Thank you for all your love and peace. In your precious name I pray, AMEN!