sunkiss
Fayth's Mommy :D!!
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i have been so down lately missing my baby especially with the holidays and all..i was suppose to be very pregnant right now and was looking forward to my baby growing inside me. i was doing good but these past few weeks have been the worst. i try not to bother anyone with my sadness and go on business as usual, even around OH. behind close doors when i am alone, all i do is cry n think of my baby...i just wish this pain would go away, i'm sick of being down n feeling sorry for myself !! i love the holidays but i cant even bring myself to shop this yr, i dont want to celebrate at all!! i have to say my biggest fears are not being able to conceive again and never having a chance to be a mommy. i am 40 and my last pregnancy was my first...i didnt plan her n didnt know i could get preggo until it happened. i lost alot of weight n that must have been the issue for me, cause that was the first time ever in my 39 yrs to ever get pregnant. i just dont know at my age if i will have another chance, i am praying that God will bless me again !!
Well my OH must know how i am feeling cause today he told me, out of all the christmas gifts he will give me this yr, a baby will be the biggest and best one of all, i just started balling lol, i thought it was so sweet of him to say. it helped lift my spirits a bit and gave me hope for this cycle, i am having a good feeling. last cycle was my 1st one after my loss and it was all over the place. my AF was so light and lasted for 2-3 days then i had mid cycle brown spotting all the way from 2dpo til AF showed again. this time i am flowing the way i normally do and i am hoping my hormones are back to normal now. my doc said this is totally normal after a loss and it should be ok this cycle.
well ladies i just wanted to share my thoughts with u, i know so many of u are going through the same and can relate to my feelings, we just have to find ways to focus on the positive and keep ourselves uplifted, especially with the holidays coming
Well my OH must know how i am feeling cause today he told me, out of all the christmas gifts he will give me this yr, a baby will be the biggest and best one of all, i just started balling lol, i thought it was so sweet of him to say. it helped lift my spirits a bit and gave me hope for this cycle, i am having a good feeling. last cycle was my 1st one after my loss and it was all over the place. my AF was so light and lasted for 2-3 days then i had mid cycle brown spotting all the way from 2dpo til AF showed again. this time i am flowing the way i normally do and i am hoping my hormones are back to normal now. my doc said this is totally normal after a loss and it should be ok this cycle.
well ladies i just wanted to share my thoughts with u, i know so many of u are going through the same and can relate to my feelings, we just have to find ways to focus on the positive and keep ourselves uplifted, especially with the holidays coming