Life can just be so unfair sometimes, its just not right that this would happen to you especially at what should be a special happy time for you. My thoughts are with you, I hope that you don't feel too conflicted and have time to grieve and time to be happy. When you lose a child, you can feel so guilty afterwards for feeling happy, I hope that you can still feel happiness for Callum. I hope the birth goes well for you and Callum xxxxx