odelay770
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Hello,
I really need advice as to what someone would do in my situation.
My husband and I have wanted children for years and years now. We've been ttc for almost 6 years. About 3 or so years ago I was diagnosed with a closed Fallopian tube, at which time they recommended surgery. Well, I got freaked and ran- I thought the clinic was pushing me into IVF without exploring any other option.
At any rate, we've been trying naturally since then with no success. I went for a checkup with an ob/gyn, and she did an AMH blood test in which I found out that my number was on the very low side of normal (.88). It seems like AR is the way to go. If I'm not pregnant this month (which I completely gave up on- I used to poas so often but after this news I'm convinced that I'm not), my husband and I agreed to immediately start trying clomid (I did one round a while ago, but then after my trigger shot my husband freaked out and started crying and it was absolutely a wasted month).
This morning my husband seemed so sad. Yesterday he was going to pull money out of our IRA to pay for the procedures; today he is full of doubt. I feel TERRIBLE because I feel like my body has failed the relationship. We agreed on kids and if we can't have kids I feel like I have no right to make him stay with me. I feel as though I deceived him in some way. I can't even be around him right now- I feel ashamed, like I lied to him. Logically I would have never known this was going to happen, but emotionally I want to divorce him so that he can find happiness and children before we get even older. His 39th birthday is in two days; I'm already 37. I wanted two beautiful children and now even one seems so unlikely.
Any advice? Am I wrong in wanting him to leave and find happiness?
I really need advice as to what someone would do in my situation.
My husband and I have wanted children for years and years now. We've been ttc for almost 6 years. About 3 or so years ago I was diagnosed with a closed Fallopian tube, at which time they recommended surgery. Well, I got freaked and ran- I thought the clinic was pushing me into IVF without exploring any other option.
At any rate, we've been trying naturally since then with no success. I went for a checkup with an ob/gyn, and she did an AMH blood test in which I found out that my number was on the very low side of normal (.88). It seems like AR is the way to go. If I'm not pregnant this month (which I completely gave up on- I used to poas so often but after this news I'm convinced that I'm not), my husband and I agreed to immediately start trying clomid (I did one round a while ago, but then after my trigger shot my husband freaked out and started crying and it was absolutely a wasted month).
This morning my husband seemed so sad. Yesterday he was going to pull money out of our IRA to pay for the procedures; today he is full of doubt. I feel TERRIBLE because I feel like my body has failed the relationship. We agreed on kids and if we can't have kids I feel like I have no right to make him stay with me. I feel as though I deceived him in some way. I can't even be around him right now- I feel ashamed, like I lied to him. Logically I would have never known this was going to happen, but emotionally I want to divorce him so that he can find happiness and children before we get even older. His 39th birthday is in two days; I'm already 37. I wanted two beautiful children and now even one seems so unlikely.
Any advice? Am I wrong in wanting him to leave and find happiness?
