Need some buddies 1dpo, its a waiting game!

[Brayr08]

No symptoms, but I'm trying really hard not to think about it. I'm sure if I sat and paid attention to everything my body did (like I've done a million times before), I could probably come up with at least 10 things that could possably be symptoms, but I don't see the point in it anymore.

So what makes you think you ovulated?

 

[HWPG]

dude, did you see my temp jump? that is the real reason why - but also i was really tired yesterday, and having sore breasts (not to the touch, but like throbbing sort of.....). and now it's all Saharan down town. although, if i had not had the temp increase, i would have just dismissed all those other things as "nothing". so who knows, ha!

 

[Brayr08]

I just looked at it. Yey!!! The TWW wait begins!

 

[Brayr08]

So, I'm feeling a little bummed. I'm pretty sure that when I wiped after going to the bathroom, there was the very faintest of brown. I really hope my mind was playing tricks on me.

 

[HWPG]

No bray no! I say no! It was just your mind...

 

[Brayr08]

Not just my mind. I'll still test tomorrow, b/c I love nothing more than to torture myself. I already know it will be negative. On to another month of wasting money on something that won't work. Sorry for the downer attitude...I'm just so tired of all this.

 

[HWPG]

I was just thinking that the best thing would be if one of you (women on BnB) were really in my life. Because while OH's are supportive and great, it would be so great to have a girlfriend that you can go to, to give/get a hug, truly a shoulder to cry on. Most people wouldn't understand, or would be uncomfortable. Right now, I wish that I could just give you a big hug. A hug that lets you know that I get it, that I'm here for you, and that I'm so so sorry. Hugs Rach.

 

[Brayr08]

I know. It'd be nice to have support like that. I have friends who really do try to be supportive, but they don't know what it's like. They all have kids and didn't have to try for them.
Well, I'm still spotting and had a BFN this morning. So I'll probably take one more pill tonight and that's it. I've already ordered my meds for this next cycle and set up my appointment to make sure I don't have any big cysts so I can do the IUI again. Like I said before, it probably won't work, but I have to try.

 

[Brayr08]

I am totally stressing right now! I keep thinking about how there's a VERY good chance that DH and I are going to have to do IVF in the next few months and all I can think is, how can we afford it??? Unfortunetly, we don't have $5-7,000.00 just laying around to pay for it. Why does this have to be so hard and so freaking expensive?! Our only option is probably going to have to be to beg DH grandfather for the money. How humiliating!!! I guess I could start stripping on the weekends. I hate this! I HATE this!! I HATE THIS!!! Why can't we be a NORMAL couple and get pregnant the normal way?

Sorry...rant over...

 

[HWPG]

Oh! Rach! No need to apologize. I'm so sorry you have to face this (and Laura also, as I'm sure she's crossing that bridge also). You would think in this day and age, we would have figured out a better system, something less expensive, faster, more reliable. You are hot little chick though, you could get good ones are you close with the grandfather? Does he have the money? I don't know your family, but as hard for me as it would be to ask, I know everyone would rally for this investment. Payment plan thru the clinic? Baby registry for cash? I know couples who have done that for adoptions... Let me know where I can send my check, I'll be the first to donate!

 

[Brayr08]

Aw, thanks Mirolee. DH and I are very close with his grandfather and he definetly has the money. I talked w/hubby over the weekend about it and he's willing to ask if it comes down to it. It's just hard, begging for money like that. I've other family members mention that we should do some sort of donation drive. It's just embarrissing. I know ppl would help out, but still...I'm not one to announce that I need help.

I'm going to ask tomorrow when I go in for my first internal ultra sound of the cycle if they have some sort of payment plan...but I sort of doubt it.

How's your TWW going?

 

[HWPG]

it sounds like you are having good conversations about everything, and are talking with your drs office and being proactive. i love proactive!
bah! no tww here! my cycle is cray-crazy this time 'round. not sure whats going on! i think i scared my egg twice now with fake temp spikes. omg, i cant imagine when it really happens, i'm going to be octomom releasing 8 eggs. OH was away this weekend so we need to get it done tonight just in case.... i just updated my journal also with a loose plan: basically, wait until cycle 9 and then get some tests done (basic stuff like b/w and SA). i'm trying "deep breath in, deep breath out" mantra to keep calm and carry on. will talk drugs (clomid or the like) when i see the doc in cycle 9.
i wonder what laura is up to......

 

[Brayr08]

When would cycle 9 be...approx?

I've wondering about Laura too..

 

[HWPG]

i'm hoping march.... although i need to freakin finish cycle seven (current one!)

 

[Brayr08]

lol...that has got to be so frustrating. Sorry it's taking so long.

 

[laustiredttc]

hey ladies sorry i have been away, I have been looking for jobs, jobs and more jobs. There a little scarce here atm so been putting all of my efforts into looking.

Rach, i'm soooo sorry huni and i'm sorry for not being here either, like mirolee said i wish i was there to give you a huge hug and have a glass of wine or two. I know what you mean about asking for the money, me and dh are the same. It's a horrible position to be in but just know that we're here for you huni

Hey mirolee, gosh i hate it when cycles go i think you are amazing and very very fit to bd all this time. cheering you on sweetie until that eggy comes

well, i am cd4. AF got me on sat to be honest though i am fine because i have come to terms with the fact that it will have to be an ivf jobby and if that is what it takes then so be it... Still bding each month though and taking vits, also this month gonna try a mini experiment. Gonna do an at home insemination and see if it works? Also still doing my acupuncture, got another app on mon. drinks with the girls this weekend as well.

I still wish though more than anything that we all can just get our this is one hell of a journey, but i'm glad i'm going through it with such awesome ladies

 

[HWPG]

i got an appt with an acupuncturist in feb! i'm excited!

 

[Brayr08]

I'd be interested in trying acupunctur. I think I'd enjoy it.

Went to the docs today and my right over has a ton of cysts, but my left is completely clear so they're going to let me go on with the meds/IUI this month. Was a little nervous. The biggest cyst was much bigger than the last one. I go back on Tuesday to see how everything is developing. So I would guess I'll go in for the IUI on the 6th or 7th of February.

Laura, how are you going to do the at home insemination?

 

[LadyinWait]

Hello everyone!

I was on this thread back in Nov and early Dec when I decided I had to take a break. I missed coming on here but it did me some good. You have been on my mind and in my heart! I'll continue to pray for you all!!

By the way, I think I got a BFP this morning. I haven't told DH yet waiting for a darker line and Feb. 14. Like I can wait that long, lol. Praying for a sticky bean and that its not all in my head.

to all of you!!! I know it's a long journey and it hasn't been that long for me but it has been rough with two pregnant co-workers, four friends had babies in the last 6 months, my cousin, and my sister in law.

 

[HWPG]

lady, that is great news! congrats! i think we can all understand what it's like to have all those buns and babies around - yay for you to join them!
afm, spotting and ewcm today. it may or may not mean anything. i havent done any opks since my two solid weeks of positives. just gonna bd and cross my fingers!