Where to begin.... My husband and I have been married since December. I have four kids from my previous marriage, my hubby has none. He has tried in previous relationships, tho, it just never happened. He desperately wants to be a father to a child of his own. He's a great dad...better than my ex, but I can understand what it is to have kids of your own vs someone elses. I myself would love to have more children...I know how that sounds to some, but I have always wanted a big family. We have been trying since June to get pregnant. In January we miscarried. It crushed me. I teach at a small private school and pregnancy is in the water around here. Those who arent pregnant have new little ones. Recent additions: One teacher had a baby in December, two others are pregnant, one of our two subs is pregnant and so is one of the ladies that cooks in the kitchen. Which is how I found my way here to bnb...the cook found out today that she is having twins so everyone is rallying around her and all I can do is hide out in my classroom and eat lunch alone. Its been two months and I'm still not over it no matter how much I try. I want to be happy for everyone, but its like I'm being surrounded by the one thing that was taken from me and now someone has it twice over! All I want to do is cry! Its torture!! I have no idea how to get past it other than one foot in front of the other and praying for strength constantly. Words of wisdom, inspiration, consolation....???