LankyDoodle
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It was all so real. Well I'm not actually sure how real as I have never had one - I've had a chemical pregnancy. I felt intense pain, I went to the loo and noticed I was bleeding and clotting, I took loads of tests - clearblue digi - and they were coming back saying things like 'you might still be pregnant, just wait and see' and 'you are losing your baby, take a few months break and then try again' and it was really freaking me out. I wasn't getting 'pregnant' or 'not pregnant', I was getting these weird things.
Now I am really worried because I've had nightmares before which have kind of come true. I had a nightmare my grandma was going to die and the next day my grandad had a massive haemmorage, dying a week later. I've had other similar things as well. There were unbelieveable parts of this dream, though, like what the HPT was saying to me - that would not happen!
Is it my subconscious mulling over things I am thinking about constantly when I am awake? At the moment I can't stop thinking I am going to lose this baby; every pain or twinge is blown out of proportion and I feel like I am bleeding ALL the time. I go to bed expecting to wake up in the morning to a bed full of blood. My symptoms are easing and new ones coming, and that's been concerning me lately. So maybe it is my mind trying to file away all the horrible thoughts I am having.
Very very very freaked out, though.
Now I am really worried because I've had nightmares before which have kind of come true. I had a nightmare my grandma was going to die and the next day my grandad had a massive haemmorage, dying a week later. I've had other similar things as well. There were unbelieveable parts of this dream, though, like what the HPT was saying to me - that would not happen!
Is it my subconscious mulling over things I am thinking about constantly when I am awake? At the moment I can't stop thinking I am going to lose this baby; every pain or twinge is blown out of proportion and I feel like I am bleeding ALL the time. I go to bed expecting to wake up in the morning to a bed full of blood. My symptoms are easing and new ones coming, and that's been concerning me lately. So maybe it is my mind trying to file away all the horrible thoughts I am having.
Very very very freaked out, though.