...No, relaxing will not get me pregnant...lucky CBFM girls!

[Buckles]

I promise I haven't smoked any weed.... I do need to stop smoking though!! The doc didn't seem that bothered when me and OH went and saw her, as I smoke about 2 or 3 cigs a day, it's more habit than anything else.

Hubby is at work tonight (he does shift work) so am buying a few Christmas presents online.

Twins..... Now that would be amazing and OH has a history of twins in his family

Xxx

 

[TryinFor1]

There are no twins in my family or Dh family. I would be the first if that is what happens! Clomid is supposed to increase those chances, so IDK. We will see!

 

[TryinFor1]

DH hasnt called me today. Not once. It is almost six at night.

Sorry, dont mean to have a pity party.. but my best friend isnt texting me back and idk who else to talk to.

 

[SLH]

I'll talk to you tryinfor1. Where is your husband?

 

[TryinFor1]

oh yay. I am happy someone is here to talk.

He went on a business trip. He has been such a douche recently. Friday, he accused me of cheating on him and wouldnt believe me when I said I hadnt. Sunday, because I didnt want to go down on him I suck in bed. Monday, I find the pictures. Was hungover yesterday. And now, he hasnt called me all day and wont text me back.

WHOAH. I sound like a whiny baby. But it makes me sad. lol

 

[SLH]

dfkdlgjdslfjd

 

[TryinFor1]

Thanks hun.


He is on his way back now. He left at 11:30 this morning and it is a 7 hour drive but he is with another guy and they wont stop dicking around.

I want DH to take me on a date tonight since we havent seen each other for a few days, and talk but I dont think it is gonna happen.

He bought me flowers and made me a card to apologize for sunday. I know right!?!?!? who says that? I dont suck in bed just because I hate to give blow jobs. I have NEVER had any other complaints from any of my other partners. Whatever.

I think he is acting really freaking immature too. AND I KNOW! Ridiculous about the preseed. I HATE that he even had to nerve to call me and start screaming at me. He didnt take any time to stop and think about it.

What time is it there SLH? I am always curious about that. Lol. it is 6:18 here.

 

[SLH]

dfkdlgjdslfjd

 

[TryinFor1]

Missouri.... blah. It sucks. What about you?

And no. He wasnt joking. Sadly.

 

[SLH]

dfkdlgjdslfjd

 

[Pookabear]

Hey Ladies, and Tryingfor1 you are nothing like a Baby!!! I totally agree with SLH, I used to be too nice in my last relationship but not anymore lol dont get me wrong im nice, but don't get on my bad side, and more poor hubby has to hear my attitude and pay for other stupid mens mistakes sometimes if ya know what i mean, and its sad cause he is the best thing that ever happend to me...so if i were you i would be flipping out LOL just like slh said!!
You have had a lot of stressful stuff going on this week! Hopefully things calm down for you soon, but I agree with sLH you should definetly sit down and have a talk with dh and tell him how your feeling, if not he will continue to take advantage...sucks when men get with the guy friends and act much tougher than usual lol, thank goodness i haven't noticed my dh doing that, but i dealt with that kind of stuff with my ex all of the time, I think that is why i dont take any crap now because I took so much years ago.
if my dh said I sucked in bed I would not give it to him for a while and tell him when he complained that iw was sucky so its not worth our time LOL and the picture thing i would have definetly said something but your right sometimes you have to just pick your battles and there are times where im not good at chosing when i should just ignore things but i find that very hard for me!
As far as accusing you of cheating, honestly thats crap! Some..not all...and im not accusing but some of the guys that acccuse have a guilty conscience themselves or they are just super insecure etc.
I am hoping things get better and you can work them out, you can vent anytime and i will be happy to chat with ya, i like to talk anyway LOL

afm: I didnt get bd in still as dh is at work and also still has a dumb cold, dont know if we should bd lol i dont want to take the risk in getting it because i just got back to the gym and over that sinus crap i had, aybe tonight maybe tomorrow but i need to soon! LOL

On another note Bath & Body works here where i am had a great sale tonight it was buy 3 get 3 free on their signature items, so i did some christmes shopping and i had two 10 dollar off coupons, so i ended up getting 4 lotions, 4 body splashes, 4 small candles, for 50 dollars, which was an awesome deal, now i can give people a lotion and a perfume to 4 people which is great! i know im weird lol

 

[TryinFor1]

I sat down and talked to DH. He knows I know now. I couldnt keep it in once I actually saw him. Will update exactly what happened tomorrow.

 

[Pookabear]

Ugh ladies, Ovary pains tonight I also still have loads of ewcm, more yesterday and day before but still lots,, maybe i should get bd in tonight anyway even though hugs isnt feeling the best. what do yu tihnk?? LOL

 

[SLH]

Pook, I would bd just incase. Have a quicky lol.

 

[Pookabear]

Lol I just might!! Hoping the antibiotics didn't cause all this ewcm or the allergy meds, right before I went on my honeymoon I took the same meds and don't remember getting this though, but came back and had a stupid yeast infection, lol my v jayjay is super sensitive to things, its weird I don't seem to have ewcmd when I check up there lol but I have had a bunch of it during bm 3 different times, today not as much but it still happend, super weird for me, guess that's why im trying to justify it,, oh another thing is my temp prob isn't accurate from today cause I take my temp in my miffy and this morning it wouldn't position right and couldn't seem to get it in place lol

 

[SLH]

dfkdlgjdslfjd

 

[Apple Blossom]

Well ladies for those of you who dont know me here are my details,

*Meet OH in April 1996
*Im 31 and OH is 38 (39 on the 28th Nov)
*Had DS with a previous partner April 2002
*Got together April 2006
*Got engaged Dec 2006 (not yet married)
*Been off birth control since April 2006
*Actively trying April 2006
*Stepped up to some bloody serious trying late 2009ish
*Was using preseed, CBFM, conception vits, Agnus Castus, Soy Iso (natures clomid), vits for OH and OH stopped smoking.
*Still using conception vits plus a few others and OH is on vits
*We have unexplained infertility, had all the usual test done and nothing came up June 2011.
*IVF starts 7th Dec with our first meeting, then we start treatment in the new yr

And I think thats about all you need to know about me really and as you can see april is my month that every thing happens to me, its even my birth month. We are not actively trying at the moment as we have our appt coming up so not much point, if it was going to happen it would of done so we are just relaxing and enjoying our relationship with no pressure and my OH is taking a rest as we havent made love in well over a month

 

[TryinFor1]

OK.

SO. I am not gonna go into much detail because it was actually awful. I said "I think there is something that you need to know." and I just blurted out that I knew about the pictures and that I really didnt appreciate he had them. I could see his heart sink..it was actually very very sad.

Anyway, I told him that whenever I look at him, sadly all I can see are those pictures an they had made me turned off of him for a little while. this pissed him off as he thought even though I had seen the pictures and I was upset, I would still want to have sex.

I told him no, I need just a little bit of time. So While we are sleeping, he decided to try to have sex with me anyway. That just led into a fight. He said he was gonna go to the "computer room". I had previously asked him, before we went to bed, to stop looking at porn so much. It hurts my feelings that he looks at all these other bitches all the freaking time and he said he would stop looking at it. I think it is normal to look at it every so often but he is to an extreme. So when he said he was going into the computer room I was like "are you for fucking real?" He just doesnt get it I guess.

Anyway, he got super pissed and punched the wall. BTW, he woke me up at 1:30 trying to have sex with me.. this is now going on 3 in the morning where I have to wake up at 5 for school. So I am screaming at him that I havent gotten any sleep recently and that he is keeping me awake and he started screaming at me about his blue balls (as if thats my fault).

I told him to just go into the computer room. And of course like a "mature" adult ( ) he said no so then I told him to shut the hell up then. I guess he felt bad because after that I couldnt get comfortable ( pretty sure I have restless leg syndrome ) so he massaged my legs for me till I fell asleep.

What is really sad is that is not that much detail of the night. It was ridiculous.




Anyway, IDK what to do about it now. I did what I could. I said what I could. He didnt want to hear any of it.

Oh, I made sure he knew I deleted them and if he had anything else he needed to come forward RIGHT THEN. He said he had them on a cd and he threw the cd away, so there is no second copy. I believe him. I could tell he felt super bad he had the pictures anyway.





OK. so that is that. As for me, I had cramping all night last night.. but not like AF cramping.. kinda hoping it was implantation to be honest. Lol. I took another IC today, and of course it was a But I am hoping that 9dpo is just a little too early. my lp is only 12 days though.. so hope it happens!!

Sorry for the novel.. I dont even know if you guys wanted to know all that. But it helps to type it out since I dont want to actually tell anyone else in reality. Anonymity at its best!

 

[LekkerSlaap]

GOOD MORNING LADIES!

Wow there has been a lot going on since yesterday!

Tryin-Yes update please? Honey you have GOT so much more patience than I do when it comes to what you're going through. My cast iron skillet would have done my talking hahahaha. I really hope everything is ok with you.

Pook-I would get the BD on for sure just to be on the safe side. Maybe take a shot of cough syrup just in case? Not only to protect you from hubbys not so feel goods but also to thin out that CM. Might just work! FX'd!!!

SLH-I actually don't live all that far from you. Although Buffalo and Niagra falls are pretty FAR apart....do you know where Alexandria Bay is? I'm close to there. I've only been in Canada once and it was pretty cool! We went to kingston, spent 3 hours looking for a parking spot, walked into the pub and had 1 beer, and then drove all the way back here. HAHAH My friend just wanted to drink "legally" before he deployed as he was only 19 I think at the time.

Gdane-My test date according to FF (day before AF is due) Is my parents anniversary Dec 8th!!!!! Maybe...just maybe I'll get lucky! And you should SHHHHH you've been talking wayyyyyy too much JK Where the heck are you?

 

[wookie130]

Apple Blossom, hey! Do I see in your ticker that you're gearing up for IVF treatments? Best of luck there...I sure wish I could afford them. Damn U.S. healthcare system!

Tryingfor1 - I've been holding my tongue. But as an older TTC gal on here (I'm 33), I can tell you I've been around the block a few times, been married, been divorced, remarried, and everything in between. And some of the details you've posted about your DH is nothing short of completely UNACCEPTABLE to me. First of all, the "suck in bed" comment is something that should have never escaped his lips. And I mean EVER. There is a way to talk to your wife, and this sure as shit isn't it, and I don't care how frustrated he is. And those pictures you saw on his laptop? I would have exploded. He has no right bringing his sexual past into your home like that as if it were a freakin' fine art exhibit. This to me is deplorable, and I'd have a hard time forgiving it. He's married to YOU, and whatever he did with an ex is in the PAST, and that should have left the scene when you walked into his life, both in a visual sense, and mentally as well. And as far as him viewing porn frequently, I'm one of those ladies that find this really unacceptable. Porn is a disgusting industry, the girls have usually been abused in one sense or another, and they are somebody's DAUGHTER, for crying out loud. And the other issue I take with this in a marital sense, is that if he can't look a the porn in front of you, masturbate to it in FRONT OF YOU, then he probably senses it is something you're uncomfortable with, and he knows it's a problem for you. On the other hand, men don't typically look at porn because they think the ladies are hotter than you, or they're more stimulated by girls, etc. It's usually just generic fantasy, and visual stimulation PERIOD, and you should not be comparing yourself to these ladies or allowing his porn indulgences to make you feel like less of a sexual partner or less attractive to him.

Sounds like he's got a lot of growing up to do. I'm sorry if I've offended you in any way with this, but I feel that your husband's behavior is very douchey. I would never in a million years allow a man to treat me this way, and I do believe the men in my life have thought better than to do so...good luck, honey. I hope he matures and is ready for fatherhood, and I wish you the best.

AFM, I think I'm about to get a peak. That estrogen line is fading, and usually my LH line only gets really dark the day that I peak, so I'm thinking tomorrow or Saturday. Then the BD party resumes, and onto the 2ww.