...No, relaxing will not get me pregnant...lucky CBFM girls!

[wookie130]

Gdanemom- Don't fret, dear. I'll be the first to admit I've experienced those same internal breakdowns. Every time AF shows up, I feel a deep despair and regret. Why the hell can't I be younger, and have more time to try this baby thing without feeling a time crunch from my age? And why did that last baby have to leave my body when he was so loved and desperately wanted? Well, the reality, is that the baby hasn't happened because it's not been my time...and the baby I did conceive was too precious for this earth. God has plans for me, and I need to do a better job accepting His will.

SLH is right...most of us WILL go on to have babies in the next year or so. TTC is so stressful, and I think while we fight the good fight and do everything in our power to become pregnant, these life events are already predetermined by our individual fates and destinies in life. We must try to hold our heads up high, and keep going on our journies.

Tryinfor1- I'm so glad you're not offended! And I'm glad you and DH are trying to communicate lovingly about everything. It isn't unusual for a man in his early twenties to feel preoccupied with sex...24 is young, and young guys are horny! Perhaps you could send some of that high sex drive my DH's way...he's 38, and coming off his antidepressants, which are well-documented libido-crushers. I wish you both the best in your situation, and I hope he can get the message that his behaviors have been hurtful toward you.

Mrs. B- Sheesh, hon, I had no idea...I'm happy to hear you've reached a happier stage in your marriage. Thanks for being so honest and open about your past with DH. It helps those of us who are weathering the storm to know that we're not alone.

AFM, we bd'ed tonight for fun. It's a "high" day, and I may get my peak tomorrow, or Saturday. Hoping we have the stamina to keep humping it out!

 

[Pookabear]

Hey ladies ive missed a bunch today bt was working, and getting stuff for thanksgiving dinner, I'm having it sunday since te hbs has to worked thanksgiving day anyhow, gdane was right and now the ewcm is gone and missed it,as hubs has been working extra hours and didnt get to bd, but im pretty sure by my temps i didnt ovulate yet, hoping i still do and i get loads more ewcm then!
Making a turkey this year for the holiday dinner and have found numerous recipes online excited to try this cerntain one bt hope it turns out spectacular, i usually dont cre if its just me and hubs eating but when its family i want everything to be almost perfect lol

Tryingfor1 I hope you enuoy your time out with the hubs and you get everything worked out, i agree with slh it could also be an age thing, no excuses but remember it takes men a lot longer to mature than women

Gdane- chin up i hae big strong feelings for you getting a bfp 1st too for some reason, so if slh and i both feel that way, it probably will be that way!!
I know to too tough, how you feel about never getting pregnant, i have also felt that way for quite a few years and thats why i wasn't gong to start trying again with dh because I didnt want to get all excited for nothigng etc, but ithen i thought well, there will never even be that tiny chance if we dont try, and at that time we werent sure about ti, then when we got married in may he mentioned e wanted to try, so i told him i would but with as little medicine as possible etc.im still not sure it will happen for me but it seems to for everyone around me including people who dont want or take care of their children

etc.
Slh- so sorry you cant try this month but super excited about your ultrasound tomorrowtoo!!! let us know howit goes, its interesting to see whats going on and it could give insight to us other ladies too so thanks a bunch

 

[Pookabear]

Since I never did a recap I will: keep in mind I don't have accurate dates on everythig since It was a while back some of it...

Im 27 and dh is 44, I will be 28 in January...I know big age difference but we don't even notice it half the time
We Started dating April fools day of 2009
He proposed May 7th 2010
And we marreid May 28th 2011
We had our honoeymoon in riviera maya mexico (near Cancun) and had the time of our lives!!

I used to get cysts on my ovaries all the time since i was 12 i was on all different types of bc for around 12 yrs... then got off bc and got many cysts again after and had a surgery in 2007 because of a grapefruit sized hemorragic cysts that woudnt dissolve etc.

I was married previously for 7yrs and ttc for 3 years with my ex and thank goodness it didnt work, we tried clomid for numerous month, 2 iuis, clomid and trigger shots all types of testing, blood work etc. and went to a fertility specialist for 2months although i'm so happy that it never worked there is still a part of me that needs to share it to show everything i have done regarding ttc. ex had an SA as well and had great results etc. tubes were clear and but i should mention it anyhow so you ladies have some idea of what ive been through in the ttc process.. during the clomid use I seemed to get the cycsts wose but soon after my ex husband and I split up and i tknow its not nice but it was the best thing that ever happend to me! I was so stressed in our relatiionship it made me sick etc and i waent through a lot and was supe runder weight

Now I have stayed off the bc ever since and Married my prince who changed my life and is the best thing that has ever hppaend to me, I now am healthy as far as cysts, weight all ofit etc. and hope to stay that way, we werent sure about ttc at first being i didnt want to go through the stress and thought it would never happen but when we got married last may on our honeymoon we decided to try it out and my only objection was to try to do it as natural as possible etc. so here we are 6 months down the road, btw hubby tried with his ex for 2 yrs also and no luck but she has children now too just as my ex.. so we are evetually gong to get dh tested just to be on the safe side.

other than my ongoing pasts cysts (havent had one now in 3 yrs which is a miracle in itself because i was gong thru the pain of them almost every month before) the drs never found any other reason why i wasnt getting pg except i have very mild endometreosis but they say itsnot bad enough to affect fertility as far as they know etc...

Also,i have had spotting for years that i think causes a lot more problems than they think and is helping to prevent my bfp,,the drs act like its nothing and so far the only thng that has stopped it is clomid, and when i dont ovulate, i know weird right

Well sorry for rambling but thats me in a nutshell even thought its a lot lol thats the shorter version

 

[TryinFor1]

SO um....


Make up sex is awesome!


We went out to dinner and it was amazing. Communicating the way we did, it was like magic. He said he would stop looking at porn and stop getting mad at me if I turn him down for sex. I said I would be more open in our sexual relations. We had a nice dinner and jumped each other as soon as we got home.

I am so glad! I feel like this was a HUGE breakthrough and everything is really looking up!!! Now all I need is that bfp before the 20th to make this even greater!



I possibly think finding those pictures might have been a good thing. DH and I wouldnt have talked the way we did tonight and resolved our issues, our only issues if I wouldnt have.. still kinda sucked because I STILL cant get them out of my head but I will forget about them in time.

Thanks again for listening to me whine and for all your kind words everyone! all around! You all helped me so much!

 

[Apple Blossom]

Well hi ladies hope will are all good today. Just want to say if I miss any of you out I apologise hugely, but being new I dont know all of you and this thread moves like way fast and I tend to only come on in the mornings, so here goes.

Gdane: as always hun I love you, you are a fantastic person and you will get your BFP and im sure of that, no one can give as much as you do and get nothing in return, just keep going and keep putting in all the hard work you do and you can watch DH running around after your beautiful kids.

Tryinfor1: Thank you for your comment and glad I could help you, I know exactly how you feel, been there myself for 8 yrs. Really glad that you two have talked things through, keep talking. And please please remember you are a great person and should never be made to feel like shit because of someone elses actions. glad you are happy again and things are now back on track, the pics will fade away after a while just make sure if they pop up in your mind that you dont get angry as that can eat away at you.

Pookabear: Hope you havent missed ov, and that you have a lovely thanks giving meal, that is perfect.

SLH:I hope your ultrasound goes ok for you today.

 

[Apple Blossom]

Lekker: Enjoy breaking Dawn, sure wish I was going to watch it, but we are trying to save a bit of cash. Enjoy your time alone with DH.

Wookie130: Thank you for you comment. Im having to share my eggs to pay for the IVF, which wasnt easy to come to that desision but we dont have much choice. At least though I get to help a lady who cant have her own babies. I do feel sorry for you guys as it must be so tuff having to pay all your medical bills.

SLH: forgot to say thanks for comment, I really hope Im putting a BFP on here real soon.

MrsB: Thanks for sharing your story, those men do put us though the mill some times. I know my Ex was a complete arse, he did pretty much the same to me as TRYinfor1 did but I had to endure that for 8 yrs and Im sure their was affairs in their that I didnt know about, he also slept with my sister. So Im glad to be well rid of him now and Im alot stronger for it. Glad your story had a happy ending, these things can really mess with your head sometimes.

Hope I didnt miss anyone, sorry if I did, Just shout at me

AFM: well Im gutted to not be going to breaking Dawn tonight, although Im tempted to ask a friend to go with me as she is having a tough time at the mo, but I know I will end up spending a fortune and really dont want to. And I have 18 days to go till our IVF appt and with everyday moving us closer we are getting so excited, we have waited so long for this. Have a good day all.

 

[GdaneMom4now]

SLH: Hopefully this is a preview of what will happen next month! I'm so sad you can't try. I really feel for you....hopefully it'll give you a rejuvenation and you will get your bfp next month and get even more ewcm!! Thanks for your kind words. I keep a lot of what I'm feeling about ttc bottled up...and even more so I think i suppress myself from feeling my true feelings....Also, good luck on your ultrasound. This is super interesting. I don't think I would be able to sleep if I was going in every day for ultrasounds. I would be so excited to see what is happeneing in my body....I wanted to be a doctor but hated school too much.

Wookie: I'm sorry you're feeling that way. trust me, I've seen plenty of older gals conceive, it's just a matter of time! I notice you're from Iowa by the way, I don't know if we've talked about this before but I'm in South Dakota! Thanks for your kind words also...that really does make sense and I gotta keep reminding myself of that.

MrsB: I'm sorry about your difficult times with you DH. What doesn't kill us makes us stronger though I hope all is well and you'll have your baby in your arms before you know it!!

Pook: Aw, sorry you missed the ewcm. Don't you usually have two bouts of it though? At least your temps arent showing ovulation yet! You can cook thanksgiving for me! I would love that! Thanks for your kind words! I'm so sorry you've had to go all through this. Hopefully there was a bigger reason (God's reason that he knew you wouldn't be happy with that guy) that you didn't get pregnant and you'll have your BFP before you know it with the love of your life. I'm so happy you're happy

Tryinfor1: SOOOO Happy to hear you got it all worked out. Keep your DH to his word about changing for you. Communication is sooo important and I'm soo happy you talked!

Apple Blossom: I don't think I could ever thank you enough for all your support you're an amazing person and I know this IVF FIRST TIME will work for you. I have a strong gut feeling about it. How much do movies cost there?

Lekker: let us know how the movie is!! Hope all is well in your TWW!

AFM: Check out my journal in my signature! I'm trying not to copy and paste so you can find my detailed up dates there...but another low on the monitor...I didn't wake up for my alarm apparently and was really late taking my temp. so it was 97.9 reduced to 97.55 which is .45 higher than yesterday but I think it was just because I tossed and turned a lot...plus I get hot flashes from the clomid. I felt like i wet myself though with all this cm so we bd'ed this morning but the past few days when I wipe my cm still has a brown tinge to it like old blood...I don't get it...it's never done that this long. I think my plan is bd EOD until high then ED then when I peak, do it as much as possible. Okay, so i copy and pasted. I'm late for work though!


PS: I love everyone's feelings about me

 

[Apple Blossom]

The movies not that expensive, but by the time you add up taxi's and train fares and something to eat and drink (even if i sneak in some munches and a small bottle of wine) it adds up and im being really strict with myself and our savings, but I think I might give in as Im a huge twihard fan its unreal.

 

[SLH]

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[GdaneMom4now]

Aweee in so sorry slh. What would happen if you did get pregnant?

 

[LekkerSlaap]

Hey ladies! I was just skimming through as I am at work. BORED! But anyways so the movie was pretty good. I read the books so I'm pretty judgmental. Am I considered in the 2ww now? Or after I ovulate? That's confusing hahah maybe I've been doing it wrong the whole time. As for the BD'ing it didn't happen lastnight. It snowed here yesterday and I have arthiritis in my hand, knee, and back(all over BUT that's the 3 places that hurt the most) and I was having a ROUGH time lastnight since I had to be outside for a while. So lastnight I was NOT in the mood to be touched once I crawled into bed but I plan on grabbing him when I get home! HAHA I'm at job #1 right now until 3pm and then I go to job #2 at 9pm til 2am. Whee! But then I have the WHOLE weekend off I do believe! So that's going to be spent resting and probably soaking in a lot of HOT water. How is everyone else today?

 

[LekkerSlaap]

OMG, everyone, I just got a peak on my monitor!!!!! I'm only on cycle day 13, what the hell? The one month I can't try my husband has good sperm and I'm going to ovulate on cycle day 14 like a normal person?

That is crazy! I"m so sorry you can't try this month. Stupid shots!

 

[SLH]

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[GdaneMom4now]

I'm just ********. Sorry for some reason I thought you ovulated.

 

[SLH]

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[TryinFor1]

Yeah SLH, that is how that works!

IDK if I have said this already, but I am 10dpo and got a bfn this morning...


It is still early right?