Apple Blossom, hey! Do I see in your ticker that you're gearing up for IVF treatments? Best of luck there...I sure wish I could afford them. Damn U.S. healthcare system!
Tryingfor1 - I've been holding my tongue. But as an older TTC gal on here (I'm 33), I can tell you I've been around the block a few times, been married, been divorced, remarried, and everything in between. And some of the details you've posted about your DH is nothing short of completely UNACCEPTABLE to me. First of all, the "suck in bed" comment is something that should have never escaped his lips. And I mean EVER. There is a way to talk to your wife, and this sure as shit isn't it, and I don't care how frustrated he is. And those pictures you saw on his laptop? I would have exploded. He has no right bringing his sexual past into your home like that as if it were a freakin' fine art exhibit. This to me is deplorable, and I'd have a hard time forgiving it. He's married to YOU, and whatever he did with an ex is in the PAST, and that should have left the scene when you walked into his life, both in a visual sense, and mentally as well. And as far as him viewing porn frequently, I'm one of those ladies that find this really unacceptable. Porn is a disgusting industry, the girls have usually been abused in one sense or another, and they are somebody's DAUGHTER, for crying out loud. And the other issue I take with this in a marital sense, is that if he can't look a the porn in front of you, masturbate to it in FRONT OF YOU, then he probably senses it is something you're uncomfortable with, and he knows it's a problem for you. On the other hand, men don't typically look at porn because they think the ladies are hotter than you, or they're more stimulated by girls, etc. It's usually just generic fantasy, and visual stimulation PERIOD, and you should not be comparing yourself to these ladies or allowing his porn indulgences to make you feel like less of a sexual partner or less attractive to him.
Sounds like he's got a lot of growing up to do. I'm sorry if I've offended you in any way with this, but I feel that your husband's behavior is very douchey. I would never in a million years allow a man to treat me this way, and I do believe the men in my life have thought better than to do so...good luck, honey. I hope he matures and is ready for fatherhood, and I wish you the best.
AFM, I think I'm about to get a peak. That estrogen line is fading, and usually my LH line only gets really dark the day that I peak, so I'm thinking tomorrow or Saturday. Then the BD party resumes, and onto the 2ww.