not too sure whats going on!

[vickilouise]

right first things first i woke up at 5am and thought id pee'd the bed so i just got up took my pjamas off and felt my bed... it was wet. so i put my light on... a watered down bloody fluid (thats how i described it in the hospital) was all over my pjama bottoms and all over my sheet.
i went into the toilet and wiped myself and there was blood, anyway in mid hysterics i rang my maternity hospital for advice they told me to come straight in...
whilst attempting to get ready sobbing my heart out my dad got up for work and kept askin me what was wrong... i couldnt even speak just pointed to my bedroom door he went into my room and discovered my bloody things an just held me tight in his arms and stoked my hair he kept askin if i had called my OH (i hadnt) i wanted to go on my own. eventually he rang my OH and told him to get here quick.
so we got to the hospital after 20 mins of my dad driving like a maniac and coming out with funny family stories... attempting to calm me down, bless him. my OH was a jibbering mess kept saying everything was gonna be alright over and over and kept trying to hold my hand. i kept repeating this isnt right and i dont feel right and pulling my hand out of his. i was completely numb. i dont feel pregnant.
so we gets there and i had my bp taken= sky high (expected under circumstances), pulse, urine tested for infection, and my blood taken for grouping (they couldnt get any so they had to ring the transfusion dept of a hosp where i had my operation last year to find out my blood group) and an internal... that was so uncomfortable and embarrassing.
all that got confirmed was that yes there is bleeding from my womb but the opening is shut which is a good sign??? the doc seemed positive but im not i think im preparing for the worst.
i have to wait till 12.30 pm tommorow to see if my lil pea in my pod is still beating away, they did say (which made my OH rear up) if there is an emergency i will have to wait. he flipped saying "what the fuck is this a day out shes fuckin bleeding for fucks sake" i understand what they meant i am only 13 weeks and if someone over 24 was to come in they would definately go before me as their baby is classed as a baby. I ended up telling my OH to go and sit with my dad as he couldnt behave lol.
all in all i could recieve the best or worst mothers day present ever tommorow... be told im not going to be a mum ... i honestly think the later is true but we shall see.
the bleeding has subsided its still bright but its like the amount you get on 1st or last day of period.
im so numb im just walking around the house in a daze, my dad has just took my OH to get a coffee somewhere as i told them i want to be left alone to deal with things.
im so scared and confused i dont know what to think / feel. i didnt plan for this baby, but i got used to the idea and i was so excited at the prospect ive bought maternity clothes, been given things for baby and a friend my OH has in work kindly gave peter a nursery set, wardrobe changing unit and drawers and ive got them looking me in the face i feel like smashing them up.

sorry to burden everything on here but i feel like i can be honest on here when i say i seriously dont think its still alive whereas here in the real world my dad and OH pretend they think everything is going to be fine thinking if they say that itll calm me down. it doesnt.

anyho just thought id write my thoughts n feelings on today if anyone has got any similar story please be honest dont just tell me ill be ok im preparing for the worst anyway xxx
thanks for reading

 

[_Alice_]

Oh hun i'm so sorry this is happening to you. Try and stay positive. If your cervix is still closed, thats a really, really good sign.
I hope this turns out ok for you, and i'm sure it will.
We are all here anytime you need to talk xxx

 

[vickilouise]

thanks alice i just dont know whats happening and i feel so low i just wanna be left alone till tomorrow when i will know either way and i will be able to face the questions. im being asked if im okay and i dont know how i feel. OH told his parents and his mum keeps trying to call me i just cant face it.
luckily my 2 brothers are at work so i can just be on my own since i banished my OH and dad.

i feel so helpless

 

[Serene123]

I hope everything works out

 

[carmen]

Oh Darl,

Do you what you feel, if you don t feel like answering anyone till tomorrow.Don't... I'd feel the same, the waiting is awful and also explaining yourself to people is also when your upset yourself.

I m wondering why they didn t give you a vaginalscan? Or did they?

Just wanted to let you know my thoughts are with you , keep positive , its a worrying time... lots os

 

[vickilouise]

Oh Darl,

Do you what you feel, if you don t feel like answering anyone till tomorrow.Don't... I'd feel the same, the waiting is awful and also explaining yourself to people is also when your upset yourself.

I m wondering why they didn t give you a vaginalscan? Or did they?

Just wanted to let you know my thoughts are with you , keep positive , its a worrying time... lots os

the doctor used a clear plastic thing to look at the opening of my womb, im getting the scan tommorow as it was fully booked for the day i dont quite understand what he was doing and or saying tbh but i do know that he couldnt give me a definate yes or no as to miscarriage i will be having a scan tomorow for that.

 

[Sarah88]

Sweetie, I wen through the exact same thing!! Scared me so much, but the Doc had told me my cervix had opened (he was young). My bub is fine, it ended up being a blood sack from implantation which the baby had burst coz it's gotten bigger. If your not feeling any pain then thats a definate positive. I know my bleeding subsided after a bit too.
I also bled again bout a week later with some clots, but it was the rest of the sack coming out.
If theres no pain then I wouldn't worry too much! Let me know how you go though! I remember spending a night thinking i'd miscarried, the worst night of my life.

 

[anita665]

I really hope you get some good news. Keeping my fingers crossed for you.

 

[carmen]

the doctor used a clear plastic thing to look at the opening of my womb, im getting the scan tommorow as it was fully booked for the day i dont quite understand what he was doing and or saying tbh but i do know that he couldnt give me a definate yes or no as to miscarriage i will be having a scan tomorow for that.

Really Vickilouise, i sometimes think that the doctors are too passive. I live in Holland and here you have to be really strong with them and ask them right i want this. But i think thats it there job to make you feel calm and assure you i mean how long would a scan bloody take. But thats hospital for you. I just feel sorry that you have to worry when it can be something like Sarah88 said.

My cousins wife, is now 16 weeks pregnant and she as been bleeding since 8 weeks, like spotting, then like you said not blood but i watered down blood, and her baby is fine. The doctor says that some times that happens in women but they go onto having perfectly healthy babies.

I m just really annoyed for you that they didn t give you a scan, i mean you went early and all, but maybe like you said cos your 13 weeks maybe they thought it was better to wait??

But either way i want you to know that it doesnt mean that your losing the baby, i forgot to ask you last time, are you having cramps? But i understand taht you know wanting to talk about it. So just wait and see what they say tomorrow. Sending you loads of

 

[carmen]

I found this for you.

https://www.americanpregnancy.org/pregnancycomplications/bleedingduringpreg.html

Basically its letting you know about bleeding throughout pregnancy, maybe tomorrow you will be ready to ask more questions.

Normally the hospital should have give you a scan and a blood test....

Good Luck tomorrow x

 

[doctordeesmrs]

I hope you get some good news tomorrow. Will be thinking off you.

 

[Sarah88]

If they give you a scan straight away then it's not 100% accurate, as you can still miscarriage while the baby has a heartbeat. But if you wait overnight or at least a few hrs, then you will know for sure that the baby will stick. I had this same problem with my hospital, and they explained it to me which was good. Cept, I had to wait to be called for my appt, an it wasn't til the next afternoon; then spent an hr and a half in the waiting room coz they forgot bout me.

Think positive! I think what happened to me is whats happening to you! You should be getting cramps or some kind of pain if you were miscarrying. when the u/s guy asked me if I wanted to hear the heartbeat me, my OH and my mum all started crying coz they thought I mc'd.

 

[Rumpskin]

I am sorry lovely that you have had to go through this. It must have been so distressing to wake out to find that.

There is nothing you can do but wait unfortunately and I know it is the worst time ever. It sounds like your dad and OH are a great support to you and all I can say is draw on their strength to help you get through this.

I pray that everything is okay for you.

Lots of love and look after yourself xx

 

[elles28]

thinking & praying for you and your baby. I really hope you get good news

 

[Vickie]

Thinking of you right now. Hope you get good news tomorrow.

 

[xclairex]

oh vicki louise im so sorry hun got everything cross for you so keep me posted and i hope all is well im sure it is big hug ur way honey xx

 

[vickilouise]

just thought id pop back and say thanks for your nice words and support.
im going loop da loop waiting
sarah88 thanks for explaining the whole 24 hr wait thing i was confused to say the least bout it.
well only 22hrs to go till i know lol


xxxx

 

[fifi83]

thinking of u, hope all goes well xx

 

[honeybunch2k7]

I hope everything is ok in the end.

 

[leeanne]

Thinking of you and hope that you have good news tomorrow!