Thank you ladies for your repsonses. I need to vent through all of this....and this is a place where you all understand....
I have made a decision that I am definitely NOT going to terminate. No matter what the outcome is, I want nature to take it's course. Even if that means my little sweetheat dies in my arms minutes after being born...at least he/she is in mommy's arms and can let go. I have to be there for him/her if that happens....I can not let my baby die alone.
I have been researching different syndrome's...and while many have awful outcomes, there are managable syndromes as well....so it is just a waiting game until the amnio results come in. Something like Downs doesn't "scare" me whatsoever....but they are suspecting something worse.
They can't tell me that baby might be a "vegetable" without seeing him/her out in the world....I think that is jumping the gun. I know my baby felt the amnio....the little heartbeat went from 148 to 196...you can't tell me that he/she didn't feel anything....baby knew at that moment that somethin' was in his/her "space"....and wanted it out! My little peanut is gettin' an attitude already Wow....my little joke is the first time I have smiled in 24 hours since finding out.
I am trying so hard to keep even a little glimmer of hope. I have too....I have to fight as hard as I can, even harder...for my baby. I will not give up on him/her....not in a million years. Disfigured, mentally ********, doesn't matter....that is still MY gorgeous babe in there....and me being his/her mommy....will fight to the death for him/her.
Wow....it feels good to vent. Thank you so so much ladies for letting me vent...it means the world to me.
I'm so thanking you for this forum and hoping I'm welcome to join. Brandi, i'm just starting to go through what your story is...and I admire you for sharing and am looking to "vent" as you have done, I felt like no one understands me...we went for our 12 week scan and fluid is engulfing our little one...they sent us to a specialist where I immediately had a cvs...quick results fish came back saying it was defn not trisomy, downs, or turners ( we have a baby boy again!) however, they found a "hole" in the back of his head and are afraid it is something horrible (I can't remember the name of it as I'm still in shock and numb) but it's where his brain may protrude from his head...and there is fluid building up throughout his body and they believe prognosis is not good, so i'm preparing myself for the worse....it is sooooo hard to grasp and I still cannot figure out why this is happening to me as I try to be super healthy and take vitamins, but as a mom, I cannot fathom losing a baby ( I had a MMC prior to this one and one healthy little 18 month old)...how are you all coping now??? i'm terrified I will have to have another c section to deliver this little guy..... thanks for listening
Thank you ladies for your repsonses. I need to vent through all of this....and this is a place where you all understand....
I have made a decision that I am definitely NOT going to terminate. No matter what the outcome is, I want nature to take it's course. Even if that means my little sweetheat dies in my arms minutes after being born...at least he/she is in mommy's arms and can let go. I have to be there for him/her if that happens....I can not let my baby die alone.
I have been researching different syndrome's...and while many have awful outcomes, there are managable syndromes as well....so it is just a waiting game until the amnio results come in. Something like Downs doesn't "scare" me whatsoever....but they are suspecting something worse.
They can't tell me that baby might be a "vegetable" without seeing him/her out in the world....I think that is jumping the gun. I know my baby felt the amnio....the little heartbeat went from 148 to 196...you can't tell me that he/she didn't feel anything....baby knew at that moment that somethin' was in his/her "space"....and wanted it out! My little peanut is gettin' an attitude already Wow....my little joke is the first time I have smiled in 24 hours since finding out.
I am trying so hard to keep even a little glimmer of hope. I have too....I have to fight as hard as I can, even harder...for my baby. I will not give up on him/her....not in a million years. Disfigured, mentally ********, doesn't matter....that is still MY gorgeous babe in there....and me being his/her mommy....will fight to the death for him/her.
Wow....it feels good to vent. Thank you so so much ladies for letting me vent...it means the world to me.
What a brave , courageous mammy you are . And your beautiful baby is very lucky and blessed to have such a strong caring mammy willing to defend and fight for them ) you and your little miracle will be in my thoughts and prayers xxx