On the road again graduates

[Left wonderin]

Starry . I think we all understand and share your feelings . I can talk for myself when I say I will never ever forget the loss of my LO . It changed me forever . I although 30 weeks and on about Sean's arrival in the new year can't stop myself being sad about Christmas coming and remembering the lead up to it ending up in the loss of my LO on Christmas Eve . This year will be filled with mixed emotions for me , sadness , hope , joy , fear , gratitude all rolled into one . I am sure I will shed a tear or two I've decided ill do something on Christmas Eve to remember , maybe go to the church , light a candle .... Maybe a act of kindness in memory of baby , donation to a children's charity not sure yet... But then I'm going to try be thankful for my current blessings xxxxxx I think its important to remember but like Rayray feel in the end what has happened is for a reason , maybe yet unknown but will make perfect sense someday .

Anyway sorry for being blah . In other news it just dawned on me just how close Christmas is !!!!! I better get my finger out and start decorating

 

[Starry Night]

Red - I love the name Piper! For the middle names I'd go with Quinn. It seems to match with Piper best, IMO. But I don't know the significance the name Jane holds for you.

afm - no cookies yet but I am softening the butter at room temperature. I'm feeling really lazy again today. This lethargy is so hard to shake. But the cookies only have 4 ingredients so I'm feeling like maybe I can handle it. lol

 

[Left wonderin]

I vote Quinn too Piper Quinn is a wonderful name yummm for the cookies straight out of the oven !!! Although I wish my heartburn would go away !! I have it all day every day (( ill be totally able to tell you if the myth is true or not about heartburn = hair lol......

 

[Starry Night]

The old wives' tale about heartburn was true for DS. I had AWFUL heartburn with him and a scan at 34 weeks showed his hair bobbing around on the screen. My siblings and I were all baldies as newborns so I was a bit surprised. But then I remembered DH's baby photos showed him with hair. I never really liked newborns with hair, to be honest, but DS converted me.

I'm waiting to see if it proves true again because I've had terrible heart burn every night since I conceived. I wish I was joking.

So Left, I really feel for you. At least you know it's not that much longer of having to put up with it.

 

[Left wonderin]

Thanks Starry not complaining guess its all part and parcel of arriving at my rainbow so ill take it all and more !!!!!

 

[skyesmom]

Piper Quin sounds awesome as far as i'm concerned!

left - sorry to hear you're struggling with a heartburn.. i wonder now if you are really having a little bushy head rainbow in there!!

 

[Starry Night]

Yeah, heart burn is one of the lesser pregnancy complaints. I always drink about half a glass of milk before going to bed and that seems to help. I had hardly any last night. I guess an ounce of prevention is worth a pound of cure! But I'm definitely going to ask my OB about what is safe to take for the times it is really bad. Man, I have alot to talk to my OB about next time. She's going to think/know I'm one of THOSE patients. ha ha She has been understanding so far though.

 

[anchor08]

Wow, I've missed a lot! I hope I don't forget anyone.

Hi Cary! I'm so glad you're enjoying the baby updates, and I know we will be rejoicing over yours before we know it. Are you really busy with the kids' ministry with Christmas coming up? Any pageants or choirs or anything like that to wrangle?

Red! A girl!!! So cool. I felt so much more connected to the pregnancy (not less worried, but less detached) when I found out that I was having a girl. Are you going to start shopping for her? I didn't go crazy right away but I did buy a few special outfits, which was so much fun.

Left, I feel for you with the mixed feelings around Christmas. We are all going through such extremes! I conceived my m/c baby a year ago, and the anniversary of the miscarriage is coming up. Last year at this time we were over the moon with excitement at the first pregnancy, so it's weird to look back and see what we didn't know was coming...and now to be so joyful in a different way, with a sadness behind it that sort of makes it stronger.

Starry, I'm glad your husband is supporting you with the depression. Definitely get help as soon as you can! I hope I'm not overstepping with unwanted advice, but I just had a though -- do you get Seasonal Affective Disorder? I wonder if that might be compounding the problem, and if sitting in the sun (if there is any sunshine!) or one of those light lamps might help a bit. I used to get it (mildly) when we lived in Northern Vermont and I was inside at work all day and it was dark when I arrived and when I left.

Skye -- if you ever decide to chart I will be your #1 stalker, but NTNP sounds like a good plan! I love that you can talk to your rainbow already -- he or she is definitely looking out for you (and maybe hanging out with your angel!).

Rayray -- sounds like good progress, though unpleasant! Evelyn never dropped so I don't know what that feeling is like, but hopefully in your better moments you can be happy that it's signalling the finish line. I can't remember anything about your birth plans, where are you going to be? What kind of preparation are you doing?

I really hope I didn't miss anyone. Evelyn and I are doing well! I still have pretty sore nipples (or one side in particular), but other than that breastfeeding is going well. She's gaining weight nicely, and we got her hips scanned on Monday and they're totally normal! So the harness worked right away, and we only have to leave it on until she's 6 weeks. I can't wait!

This picture isn't the most recent, but I love it (sorry it's sideways). When we can manage to rest at the same time life is good!

 

[Left wonderin]

Awh what a beautiful picture how are you adjusting to your life as a new mum ? Any advice lol

 

[Starry Night]

Aw, anchor, what a lovely photo! And I'm so glad the harness is doing its job so well. Not much longer until it's a thing of the past and you will almost forget having to use it (that's I how I feel about the corrective helmet DS had to wear).

And I can suffer depression year round, so can't blame the winter blahs on that (and I LOVE winter). I do think being trapped inside can be somewhat to blame at the moment. On the days we go into town for groceries I usually perk up a little. Depression is something I've always struggled with. It's generally mild and I can go years at a time without any, so I can usually cope but sometimes it really gets to me. I'm pretty sure I had post partum depression after my last loss and I never really recovered before I got this bfp.

And I have had someone offer to babysit!! We just need to settle on an exact date with DH. A friend had been on vacation but now she's back and said she would sit for us.

 

[Carybear]

Yeah for a sitter Starry!

Anchor she is precious!

Left, hope the heartburn gets better...

Rayray - how much longer?

Red - I really like Piper Quin

 

[Starry Night]

Cary - how have things been going? Is the craziness getting better or only growing? Christmas is so nutty busy at church and I can imagine school is another place that the season makes go insane.

I'm still a little disappointed that I'm missing tonight's banquet but I can always watch chick flicks which I normally don't do when DH is around.

 

[Carybear]

things are going good... since I finished the classes, things are a little quieter.. we are just doing something small with the kids at church so that is good...

The down time is a little hard, especially since it gives me more time to think about not having kids.. especially during the holidays... But, I have a wonderful husband and many blessings... Sometimes it is hard to focus on that, but when I do it makes life a much happier place... SO I'm working on it...

So happy to hear that you will be able to get out and about...

 

[Starry Night]

Yeah, the holidays can be both a curse and a blessing. When I was single I was the loneliest at Christmas. I found it harder than Valentines.

Today is my angel's due date. As sad as I was all week about it I think I'm doing OK today. I will take a little time to be sad and cry though.

 

[skyesmom]

Happy Birthday Starry's Angel we all love you here

(and massive hugs to you Starry )

 

[Starry Night]

Thanks. I had a massive cry after DS went to bed. It feels good to get it out of my system. Though I wish we didn't live in the middle of nowhere because I would have loved to have been able to drive out to the nearest Starbucks to get myself a peppermint mocha and a slice of lemon poppyseed loaf.

 

[RedWylder]

Aww Starry, glad to hear you are surviving the due date.

Cary- any plans to see a fertility specialist? I know you're NTNP right now but I thought I'd ask if you'd thought about it.

afm- I felt baby girl kick on the outside today which totally caught me by surprise since I haven't really been feeling any distinct movements on the inside. I guess this isn't terribly uncommon for having an anterior placenta but I am certainly looking forward to more kicks! It was wonderful.

 

[Topanga053]

Cary- I'm sorry to hear that the holidays and down time are making it harder on you. I agree with Starry-- I always found the holidays to be particularly difficult when I was single or when I was grieving something else (like my angel last year).

Red- how exciting!!!! I hope you feel many, many more soon!!!

Afm, DH and my mom both think that I've dropped quite a bit, which is making me a bit nervous. I'm just shy of 31 weeks, so it seems early if that's the case. I know some women drop early and deliver at full term, but obviously you hear about the opposite too! I honestly can't really tell, but I'll definitely be mentioning it at my appointment next week. We've been so busy with building the new house and moving in and unpacking that baby stuff has really been put on the back burner. We still haven't toured the hospital or taken any classes or found a daycare and we don't have a lot of stuff because I'm waiting until after my shower (which is next month) to buy much of anything. So I'm just worried that if something happens and she comes super early, we won't have a crib or enough supplies or daycare or anything! Hopefully she behaves and keeps baking for awhile, so we can get ready!!!

 

[Starry Night]

I hope baby is just snuggling in and relaxing for the big day and won't come early. It is a good thing to ask about though. I can't remember when I dropped with DS. It was at least several weeks before he was born. And even if she comes early I'm sure you can improvise. You only really need the basics. Apparently, I slept in a laundry basket in my parents' room the first few weeks. Unpack a few changes of outfits and a few blankets. Diapers are easy enough to pick up. That should fill the gap until you know more one way or the other. You'd just have to make sure you have a car seat as most hospitals won't let you leave without one.

 

[Left wonderin]

Topanga I could have written that post !!! Except for the moving house bit !!! My LO moved RIGHT up this week , bump gone from below and rock solid above my belly button for about 2 days. Tink he wedged himself between my ribs!!! Well today he has dropped right down again ..... The closer the end gets I'm begining to get more anxious !!!! I'm sure its all perfectly norrmal and normal to feel like this ) not a thing organised or packed yet !!!! Was waiting till after Christmas ..