On the road again graduates

[Left wonderin]

Red that is exactly the word overwhelming !!

So girls apart from Skye is anyone else considering getting " on the road again" of ttc ?? I know Topanga is ntnp so is kinda ttc and I've just ordered a bundle of ic Opk so I can get the timing right time is ticking for me so I've got to get a move on lol .......

 

[Starry Night]

Still recovering from this one, thanks. lol Right now we're still fairly certain we're done but I did get a wave of broodiness yesterday which frightened me. I blame the hormones. Maybe when/if Hannah doesn't take 1 1/2 hours to settle for bed I'll feel better about babies.

 

[Left wonderin]

Lol starry your off the hook for now lol .... Have you any more photos to share of Hannah ? I'd love to see some

 

[Starry Night]

I really need to get to the computer in the basement. At the beginning my anemia gave me the worst case of vertigo so I've been afraid to go down the stairs. LOL I'm feeling better now so I should stop being so lazy. Hannah usually doesn't give me much time though as she feeds every 2 hours. I don't even have to do anything around the house with my mom here. Not sure what I'll do once she goes home this weekend.

 

[skyesmom]

oh ladies!

so so many sweet news from all of you so here is my update finally

both OH and i were working our asses of these past two months, but it was all for the best OH decided to change his job as the one where he's currently working doesn't offer many perspectives of growth, and he wasn't too happy about it either, but now with his heart set on the change and already some concrete possibilities in sight, it all looks really good, and i honestly think it is the best decision for him

...and we decided to move to a bigger place this autumn; we were thinking of moving when we get a LO and they start toddling around, but now we decided not to wait anymore and just go with it... so now we're in this sweet romantic phase of watching places to rent and imagining ourselves here and there...

i'm having my doc's appointment for the extra blood tests next week, which is great, i thought the time until then will never pass but it did!

and i must say that lately, OH is much more warmer to the baby idea.. he has had his share of cold feet earlier this spring and it was really tough for me but now he's in a very sweet mode and baby talk doesn't scare, tire or exhaust him (i didn't insist on it much although there were times where i did need a clear declaration from him that he did WANT a baby with me at some point... and then OH's brother got into the "shall we ttc" business and was kind of well... overwhelming him/us with that, and his fears and paranoia of becoming a father, so...)...

but now those days are behind and i can see him more and more calm and into the whole thing.. and it would be so so lovely to share the ttc journey with you girls again!!

Topanga, Left... who else is in? i love you all so much ladies, your friendship and support here is amazing

 

[Left wonderin]

Ooooh Skye sounds like you and oh are in a great place right now. What type of places are you looking at ?? Exciting ! Have you gone to view any yet ?

So what's the current plan re ttc right now . Ntnp ? Actively ttc ? ....... In my head we are actively ttc despite the fact oh still has one foot in and one foot out !!! I just keep telling him we are trying again and he says no ( only half heart-idly) and I just say well I am ... Today he ask me " eh how you gonna do it without me "??? I just said sure ill just go to a sperm bank lol ... That shut him up lol...... The conversation is to be continued ! I bought Opk ic just waiting for them to be delivered ..

 

[skyesmom]

yes we're in so much better place now

we're ntnp-ing, as ttcing and all the fuss was really detrimental to my mental health (and his, too much pressure). also our sexual life took off since we went off the official ttc train and got on the ntnp one, so we'll keep it like that... and enjoy it actually!

i kinda know when i ovulate anyway so it's not too bad if we don't temp or test, and my cycles got more normal over time. the first year after the mc and D&C it was all over the place, for 3-4 months i had a couple of very short anovulatory cycles (never had that before!), lost way too much weight without wanting it, but now all that is way better so i prefer just listening to my body.

...and we're looking for something cozy, like a two bedroom flat, not too big not too small (flats in europe are generally smaller than in the states), with a big living room where we could put a sofa bed for guests when they pop by.

and it would be so nice if we found something with a bathtub and not only a shower (also very common in europe especially in the newer flats in the cities!)

 

[Left wonderin]

Skye where are you from ? I'm from Ireland .

 

[skyesmom]

my parents are spanish but i'm born in austria

 

[Left wonderin]

Are you living in Austria , geez your English is excellent

 

[skyesmom]

awww thanks I work as a translator and OH is from UK i guess that helps!
all in all i think i've spent less than a year in native english speaking countries.
but i write a lot due to my job, i like it very much, the written word i mean

we live in switzerland now, mainly due to OH's job and the fact that both oh and i travel a lot due to our jobs and it's kinda close to everything! but we're thinking of moving to germany or back to austria at some point.
swiss is nice but insanely expensive when it comes to buying property so we'll skip that for now!

oh and ireland is one of those beautiful places i still haven't visited yet but i'd love to once looks so wild and green!

 

[Starry Night]

I only visited Switzerland for a few days about 7 years ago now but yeah, it was insanely expensive. The Swiss Franc was about on par with the Canadian Dollar at the time so it was easy to compare cost of living, etc. So when I spent 16 SF on a water bottle, a tiny quiche and a chocolate bar I felt like I was being ripped off. But it was a beautiful country. I don't speak German but my family does so it felt safe and familiar hearing everyone on the public transit speaking it.

Anyways, here is a photo of Hannah I took today. It's one of our favourites. And yes, she was sitting there with her mouth hanging open like that. It's better than crying! (she's a very fussy baby)

 

[Carybear]

Hi everyone... I feel like I've been away forever... Red and Starry.. Congrats on your beautiful babies!

Skye, saying a prayer that this time is it for you...

Left, I visited Ireland (Dublin) back in 2008... I loved it and could have stayed there forever..

Topanga, ray, left... Your babies are beautiful. My how the time goes fast...


Life for me is crazy busy... I did just finish my book and published it on Amazon.com and the Kindle. It's called: My Life as a Tsetse Fly... Other than that things are about the same.

Thinking about you all and so happy for you!

I've missed you all...

 

[skyesmom]

wow Carry!! so so nice to hear from you! and congrats on publishing your book! will have to look it up curious title anyway!

and Starry - Hannah has such a cheeky face on that pic, she looks like she's got a strong character.. she's adorable!

and yes, living costs in Switzerland are insane, but it is a good place to be for some years, save up and then move & buy somewhere else...

 

[Left wonderin]

Guten tag ich habe ein bitchen Deutsch. Ich have in die schul gelernt aber ich have veil vergessen !!!! I would love to visit Switzerland . Have been to Germany and Austria but never made it to Switzerland ..... One day !!!

Cary its great to hear from you ! A book ! What an achievement ! We miss you too xx

 

[skyesmom]

oh Left!! Dein Deutsch ist aber sehr gut!! what a surprise! if you ever come to Switzerland you'll laugh your ass off, they speak german with such a silly accent here, i still have trouble staying serious sometimes when i hear people speak (oooops!).

Cary saw your book on Kindle and the summary makes it look like a hair-raising story! congrats again!

 

[Topanga053]

Cary, so good to hear from you!!! I'm so glad things are going so well and congrats on publishing the book... what an accomplishment!!! I will have to check it out! I've missed you!!

Skye- I hear you on NTNP v. TTC. This experience has been SOOO different for me/us than when we were TTC Lauren. TTCAL was stressful and heartbreaking and very un-sexy. This new NTNP journey has been a lot of fun. I don't know if my cycles are the same now post-birth and post-birth control, but I know when I ovulated before, so I'm guessing it's about the same. But really, it's so nice to just relax and let nature take its course (or not!). I know the last time I mentioned DH was reluctant to finish, but I think that's over. He's been much more laid back about it. We DTD a couple of days ago and afterwards, he asked when I was ovulating and I said probably right around now and he was fine with it. Then that night he said, "remember when I used to talk to LO in your belly?" and leaned over and kissed my belly and gave me a really mischievous smile. So we haven't talked about it outright, but I think he's more and more excited about the possibility of a second baby. Our family keeps pushing us about a second, but we haven't said anything. LO's godmother is the only person IRL who knows that we're NTNP. And last night I had an INSANELY real dream that I was pregnant with twins. In the dream, I was having an ultrasound done to see if we were pregnant and I could see the two little sacs and everything. I'm not saying it means anything, but it was a beautiful dream! I woke up incredibly happy.

 

[Starry Night]

Cary - how wonderful to hear from you! Congrats on getting a book published. DH is trying his hand at it and it's tough so good on you!

Topanga - I think NTNP is a good way to ease into TTC#2. It lets you warm up to the idea (provided you don't catch right away, of course).

Skye - most of my family speaks "low German" and my friends who speak the real dialect think it sounds ridiculous too. Low German is very similar to Dutch. There were some kids adopted from the Netherlands at our grade school when I was a child and my friend who spoke low German was able to talk with them.

afm - I'm thinking I may quit BFing sooner than I had planned. Whatever hormones are released while BFing make me SO super depressed and anxious. By the end I just want to rip DD off of me and I feel like screaming and crying. She latches fine and physically everything else is going fine (no pain, no sore nipples, etc) so I'm going to keep at it as long as possible but I'm starting to get a little afraid for myself. I've already been diagnosed with post partum depression and have been hospitalized once for it (that's how they discovered the anemia). My mom leaves tomorrow and my DH starts a new job next week where he'll be gone all day. His old job let him be home much of the time so this is going to be my first time as a mom being on my own all day. I know BFing is supposed to make you feel all lovey dovey and bonded with your LO but for me it is totally doing the opposite even though it is physically going fine. I get the lovey dovey feelings while bottle feeding.

 

[Topanga053]

Starry, BF can be tricky. I didn't do it because it was excruciatingly painful (LO bit), but I did pump for awhile and I always felt really WEIRD when I was pumping. Not quite to the level of depressed, but definitely not myself. I NEVER felt happy or lovey dovey while pumping or nursing. If it doesn't work for you, it doesn't work! Hannah will be fine on formula and bottles. IMO, what she really needs is a happy, healthy mom. If BF is making you even more depressed, then I don't think you should think twice about stopping. Your mental health is much more important!! And remember, we're always here for you if you need to talk or vent. PPD is really, really tough. Depression in general sucks. But you have a whole group of us here who love you, cheering you on.

 

[Left wonderin]

I so second Topanga ! You are much more important to Hannah than breast milk . She will do just fine on ff if I were you I'd give up sooner rather than later xxxx